"For me and my brother, my mother is not a complete and competent mother, my mother is not a person with a deep family concept, she is a career-type person, a strong person who is not willing to be lonely and backward in her career."
This is Wang Kun's son Zhou July's evaluation of his mother Wang Kun many years later.
Wang Kun is the first "White Haired Girl" actor in New China, the first "Xi'er" in China, she sang "Autumn Harvest", "North Wind That Blows", "Farmer's Song", "Oriental Red" and so on have influenced generations and become a benchmark of the times.
She has been on the front line of art all her life and won China's first Golden Disc Award, but why was she so evaluated by her son in her later years? What kind of unknown experience did Wang Kun have in his life?
In 1952, Wang Kun was born in Tang County, Hebei Province, an ordinary peasant family, in Wang Kun's impression, his mother was a bitter woman, his father was grumpy, he beat his mother when he did not agree, and his mother was often bruised all over his body.
In that feudal era, every girl in every family had to be forced to wrap three inches of golden lotus, but Wang Kun was not wrapped up in the times under the protection of her mother.
Not only that, her mother also likes to sing, but also under the influence of her mother, Wang Kun has a strong interest in music, and after going to school, she followed the music teacher and learned a lot of music knowledge.
When Wang Kun was 12 years old, he joined the county women's rescue team with the third uncle of the Communist Party member, followed the propaganda team every day, and called on the people to unite with passionate songs.
Such propaganda not only stimulated the patriotic thinking of the villagers, but also made Wang Kun's patriotic feelings more intense.
Time flew by, and in 1939, 23-year-old Zhou Weizhi led a group of people to Tang County to find artistic talents to join their literary troupe.
On the first day of arriving in Tang County, someone told Zhou Weizhi that "there is a little girl in the county women's rescue team, although she is still very young, but she sings very well."
Someone else told him that "the little girl's voice was like ice cream, and it was like a megaphone"...
Listening to such words, Zhou Weizhi was very curious, a little girl can get so many people's praise, what kind of a girl is it?
Lying on the bed at night, Zhou Weizhi repeatedly remembered what everyone said during the day, thinking in his heart, "Tomorrow I must meet this talented woman, how powerful it is."
Early the next morning, under the leadership of everyone, Zhou Weizhi arrived at the county women's rescue team, and two hundred meters away, all the people stopped because of a clear song.
Before seeing his person, first smell his voice, perhaps it is the description of this moment, "this voice sounds indeed a good seedling", Zhou Weizhi thought in his heart.
The group stepped up their steps and saw the first side of Wang Kun, Zhou Weizhi was stunned, it turned out that she was still such a handsome girl.
Zhou Weizhi did not ease up, and directly said, "Comrade Wang Kun, are you willing to join our literary and art troupe and continue to carry forward the party's ideology." Before Wang Kun could reply, he said, "Your future has infinite possibilities, follow me to a broader platform for development."
The young Wang Kun was startled by the words of the comers, and after understanding Zhou Weizhi's identity and intentions, Wang Kun agreed to follow him without thinking, and after that, Wang Kun joined the West Station Regiment and began his life with Zhou Weizhi.
When he first arrived at the West Station Regiment, Wang Kun had no familiar people, rehearsing new songs day after day, promoting patriotic ideas, and the days were simple and fulfilling.
Seeing that Wang Kun was always alone, Zhou Weizhi took the initiative to chat with Wang Kun, and as the days went on, their topics became more and more and more familiar.
In the day and night together, they all have a good feeling for each other, but compared to work, they feel that love is not important, and both sides silently hide this love in their hearts, encourage each other, and become the driving force for each other to move forward.
Until 1943, Wang Kun's singing voice sang all over the country, she also joined the Communist Party, at this time Zhou Weizhi could no longer resist his feelings for many years, he expressed his love for Wang Kun, and the two people who were in love soon entered the palace of marriage.
Then the dawn of victory finally arrived, and in order to celebrate this hard-won victory, the opera "White Haired Girl" was born, which also opened Wang Kun's brilliant life.
At that time, when the literary and art troupe determined the actor of "Xi'er", it was not Wang Kun who was originally selected, but I did not expect that the actor at that time had a physical condition, and he wanted to go to the hospital, and the leader let Wang Kun try, and this test, Wang Kun's life also changed.
On the day of the performance, the audience was full, the black pressure was all human heads, Wang Kun also used the most sincere emotions to play the role of "Xi'er", watching and crying a large number of audiences, after the performance, warm applause broke out.
"White Haired Girl" has also become famous throughout the country since then, and Wang Kun, as the first actor of "Xi'er", has also received a high reputation.
At the peak of her career, Wang Kun also ushered in the happiness of the family, and the birth of her first son, Zhou July, made the two worlds successfully promoted to a family of three.
But at this time, Wang Kun was also too busy to stop for a moment, "The White Haired Girl" was unprecedentedly popular at that time, no matter where it was performed, the black pressure was all people, on the roof, on the grass stacks, and on the wall were full of people watching.
Because of this, Wang Kun missed every moment of his son's growth, and every time he returned home, Wang Kun looked at his son's confused eyes, and his heart was a sour feeling, but he did not stop for his son, or continued to run on every performance.
Later, Wang Kun gave birth to a second son, Zhou August, and she still did not stop participating in the performance and fought in the front line of the literary and artistic career.
From "White Haired Girl" to "Peasant Song" to "Dongfang Hong", Wang Kun boosted the morale of the people with his loud singing voice and became a well-deserved artist in everyone's mind.
But the success of his career could not make up for Wang Kun's guilt for his two sons, and the eldest son once said to Wang Kun, "Mom, my brother always asks me at night when our parents can come back."
However, the career family can not have both, every day under the stage with the sons of a short hug, but also became Wang Kun every day is very happy, fortunately, the two sons are particularly sensible, understand the mother, not only did not complain about her, but the love for her is more intense.
In 1966, with the advent of the special period, the entire literary and art industry set off a storm, and Wang Kun, as the first generation of "Xi'er", was also crowned with false accusations, and even Zhou Weizhi was not spared and was sent to the countryside for labor reform.
The two sons saw that their parents were subjected to such unfair treatment and came forward to explain and clarify, but this explanation did not help at all during that period, not only failed to help their parents, but even Zhou And July was also accused of "making trouble" and was imprisoned.
In order to prevent him from "making trouble" again, he was detained for a few days and was imprisoned for a full 9 and a half years.
In the meantime, Zhou July was also twice charged with false accusations, almost condemned to death, perhaps with the blessing of heaven, and finally averted the danger.
Despite this, he was still most worried about his parents who had been sent down, and Wang Kun had also heard about his son at this time, and his impatience was useless.
"In difficult days, only with hope can we survive, as long as we persist, our family will definitely be reunited," Zhou Weizhi comforted Wang Kun.
It was not until 1977, when the spring breeze blew to the earth again, that Wang Kun and Zhou Weizhi were finally liberated, and the son returned home unharmed, and the family finally ushered in a reunion.
Wang Kun looked at the many wounds on her son's body, she knew that her son had suffered a lot for her inside, and her heart was like a knife holding her son and crying bitterly.
When dawn came, everything rained and cleared, and Wang Kun and Zhou Weizhi also began to encourage their sons to participate in literary and artistic work.
With her encouragement, her son Zhou July also became a screenwriter, and has worked in "Oxfly", "Lin Hai Grassland", "Jianghu Brothers"
Zhongdu participated in the screenwriting and also served as an assistant director in film and television dramas such as "Double Male Society", "Burning Yuanmingyuan", and "Hanging Curtains to Listen to the Government".
Seeing that his son has also achieved achievements in his career, Wang Kun is very relieved in his heart, but the guilt in his heart for his son has never diminished.
Later, Wang Kun not only continued to fight on the road of art, but also trained a number of apprentices, and every day her family was in the city, and groups of teachers and artists flocked endlessly.
Her students include Wang Erni, Wu Jing, Li Feifei, Guo Rong, etc., and even singer Cui Jian has benefited from Wang Kun's help, and Cui Jian was still an unknown rock singer.
When he stood on the stage with his pants legs rolled up, someone once said, "What are you singing?", and wanted to drive him off the stage, but Wang Kun insisted that he finish singing, and it was Wang Kun's persistence that made a generation of singers Cui Jian.
With the passage of time, Wang Kun also reached the end of his life, and his two sons were already married, and they spent less time together.
Wang Kun's guilt for his sons did not decrease but increased, and gradually Wang Kun's body was not as good as before, and he was always heroic, and two months after the death of her husband, he was also admitted to the hospital because of a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, and he waited meticulously in front of the bed of his two sons in the hospital.
Wang Kun knew that time was short, and on the occasion of her death, she said the words hidden in her heart for many years, "I am sorry for you, I did not accompany you when I was a child, and when you grew up, you dragged you down and suffered, I am not a competent mother."
The two sons were already in tears, crying and saying, "Mom, we understand you, we have never complained about you, we love you."
After listening to her sons' words, a few lines of tears flowed from the corners of Wang Kun's eyes, and the electrocardiogram became a parallel line, ending her 89 years of life.
Now the old artist Wang Kun has been dead for 8 years, her voice and smile of that year still remain in the hearts of many people, she has felt guilty for her family for her artistic career, and she untied her heart knot at the time of her death, such an old artist deserves our tribute.