Zhao Yihuan once confessed in front of the camera: "When I was young, I couldn't get along with the word sexy at all. When I was called sexy, I was left with only a weak heart. ”
Perhaps most of the post-90s boys and girls will have memories of "Adolescence" in their adolescence.
With this springboard, Zhao Yihuan became the "god of otaku" in the hearts of fans overnight.
In the shot, she is hot and sexy,
The expression on his face is also cold and frosty, and the high-cold temperament envelops the whole body, as if it is full of warning words of "no one should enter",
Like a divine being that cannot be desecrated.
But Zhao Yihuan himself said,
"I was calm in front of the camera, but deep inside I was panicked. Those who stand on the top in a daze cannot withstand the biting cold wind. ”
How did Zhao Yihuan, who is a "tomboy" in the eyes of her friends and relatives, have the title of "sexy goddess"?
For Zhao Yihuan, is the word "sexy" a boost to success or a shackle in prison?
01
In 1987, Zhao Yihuan was born into an ordinary family in Jilin City, Jilin Province.
The parents are workers, the income is not high, and they can only barely support the daily life of a family of three.
Clothing can cover the body and eat enough, which is the highest ideal of this family.
The winter in the northeast is cold, dripping water into ice,
Although the stove was burning in the house, the faint flame could not drive away the chill that had invaded the cracks in the bones.
In order to make her daughter suffer less, her mother pressed Xiao Yihuan's hands and feet to her skin.
The mother and daughter snuggled up to keep warm while singing to ward off the cold.
When I reach the age of school, in order to be able to make up for my daughter's tuition,
Zhao Yihuan's parents even rented out the family house.
Rented a cheaper basement to save money on patches.
But Zhao Yihuan was born in the cold door, but he did not have the talent and efforts of the cold door students.
From childhood to adulthood, her academic performance has always been at a lower middle level,
The teacher always advised her bitterly: "Zhao Yihuan, don't drag your legs for the class." ”
In addition to poor grades, Zhao Yihuan is also a problem student in the eyes of the teacher.
She is lively and active by nature, and she always can't sit still in class, provoking the classmates next to her to talk and desert.
Once in the face of Zhao Yihuan's repeated teachings,
The teacher was angry in class, pointing to the braids on her head and saying: "Your poor study is because you are smelly and beautiful, and you wear small braids all day, what can you think about learning?" ”
The teacher's words reverberated in the girl's heart,
At this time, Zhao Yihuan was not very beautiful, and her personality was lively and active.
Combing beautiful pigtails for her daughter is a mother's wish.
If you want to add to your sins,
Listening to the teacher's groundless accusations, Zhao Yihuan had a rebellious psychology in his heart.
In order to refute the teacher's point of view, she rushed to the barbershop after school and cut her shoulder-length hair short.
Back home, her parents were shocked to see Zhao Yihuan, who had become a "boy", and thought that she was being bullied outside.
But Xiao Yihuan just scratched her head in embarrassment, saying that she thought it was too troublesome to get up early every day to comb her hair.
This saves time and sleeps a little longer.
Looking at her laughing, the parents did not say anything more,
Only the mother regrets that she can no longer comb her daughter's beautiful little braids in the future.
Zhao Yihuan buried the teacher's ridicule in his heart,
She didn't want to worry her parents about this sort of thing.
The little girl built a wall in her heart,
Outside the wall was the look she wanted to show others.
Inside the walls is a secret belonging to adolescent girls.
Zhao Yihuan thus went to middle school with the plate of the tomboy,
She grew long hair,
After puberty, she began to become beautiful, and there were often boys around her who secretly looked around.
In the eyes of boys, Zhao Yihuan's appearance is cold and beautiful, and it should be a cold "school flower".
But in fact, she is still a big grinning boy personality,
There is not much interest in topics such as beauty, love, etc.
Until a parent-teacher meeting at the school, she was suddenly pulled by an aunt.
The strange woman in front of her pointed at her and asked why she wanted to fall in love with her son early.
If she doesn't study well, don't delay other good classmates.
The nonsense of the noise made Zhao Yihuan feel inexplicable.
The parents of both sides were invited to the office, and she understood why.
The aunt's son was a classmate of Zhao Yihuan's next class.
Because of her crush, she kept a lot of secretly taken photos in the drawer,
Turned over by his mother, in order not to lose face, he had to say that he was in early love.
In the face of the sudden accusation, Zhao Yihuan was dumbfounded,
The boy's mother was aggressive, and she had no better evidence to prove her innocence.
The parents finally came to school,
Zhao Yihuan looked at her parents apologizing to the teacher and the other parent,
Tears fell unconsciously, blurring the vision.
For the first time in her life, she felt that she had no ability.
There is no ability to justify, and parents have to endure this grievance.
It didn't work out in the end.
On the way home, Zhao Yihuan was like an eggplant beaten by frost without saying a word,
But her parents said to her, "Mom and Dad believe in you." ”
From this moment on, Zhao Yihuan became stronger,
In order to be able to get ahead, in order to repay their parents and give them a better life,
She decided to take advantage of her "external conditions" once,
Zhao Yihuan made up his mind to learn broadcast hosting and become an excellent program host in the future.
02
In high school, in order to realize his dream, Zhao Yihuan changed the style of a poor student and began to work hard to learn cultural knowledge.
So that my daughter can get into a better art school,
His parents borrowed money to send Zhao Yihuan to the broadcast to host the training class.
After a period of training, she and her parents said that she had identified a school and wanted to apply for the Xie Jin Film and Television Academy of Shanghai Normal University.
There are a lot of stars who graduated from here,
Zhao Yihuan felt that if he could become a member of this place, he would definitely be one step closer to his dream.
However, the broadcast hosting major of Xie Jin Film and Television Academy only enrolls 27 students nationwide.
Her parents advised her to think again.
But Zhao Yihuan still insisted on her own ideas, she knew that this road would not be easy to walk,
But as long as you have a goal, you will never turn back easily.
This difficult road Zhao Yihuan walked twice,
The college entrance examination sprinted twice, twice fell off the list, and finally in the third charge, Zhao Yihuan successfully stood on the top of the mountain.
Stepping into the campus gate, Zhao Yihuan made a few rules with himself,
One is to never ask for money from parents, and the other is to work hard to earn money to buy a big house for parents.
In order to achieve this "great" goal,
From the beginning of her freshman year, Zhao Yihuan took advantage of her spare time to go out to shoot advertisements.
In addition to being a graphic model, she has also expanded her other businesses.
From tutors to dragon suit actors, she does not refuse to come, she will do everything, she will do anything.
Even once, she heard that a kindergarten was going to have a party.
But did not find a makeup teacher to make up the children, Zhao Yihuan immediately introduced himself,
"Eh, I can, I can put on makeup, how much do you pay?"
In fact, she did not formally learn makeup at all, but she boldly guessed,
"Kindergarten children make up, isn't it two red faces and a small red dot between the eyebrows, I'm sure it's no problem!"
Zhao Yihuan said that he was a bold artist,
But her friends said she was a "desperate third lady."
At that time, the online store was in a stage of rapid development, and there was a great demand for models.
Zhao Yihuan took over the filming work of many clothing online stores,
Shooting a piece of clothing is a dollar,
In order to improve efficiency, Zhao Yihuan practiced the "stunt" of quickly undressing.
On average, at the end of the day, she can earn hundreds of dollars,
It means that she has been repeating the monotonous action of taking off and putting on, changing hundreds of sets of clothes.
Someone asked her, Yi Huan are you tired?
"How can I not be tired, but I have a dream, my biggest dream is to make money to let my parents live a good life, and I will not feel tired when I think of realizing this dream." 」
Since the first semester of her freshman year, Zhao Yihuan has not asked her parents for a penny.
She did it earn money to support herself,
The next goal is to earn money to support the family.
When shooting an advertisement at one time, because there were many articles carried out because of the shooting,
The actors on the scene are listless and dead,
But only Zhao Yihuan, who stood in the crowd as a dragon set, has always maintained a positive attitude.
She was equally enthusiastic in every one of them.
It is precisely because of Zhao Yihuan's serious and responsible attitude that she was accidentally discovered by the director.
After the shooting, Zhao Yihuan was stopped by the director,
And this director is Zhao Yihuan's future boss, Guan Xiaojie.
He said that he was the owner of a film and television company and wanted to sign Zhao Yihuan into the company as an artist.
At this time, Zhao Yihuan was facing a job choice before graduation.
I didn't expect to encounter such a "good thing",
She felt like a pie had fallen from the sky, so she signed a ten-year contract.
Leaving Shanghai for Beijing, Zhao Yihuan only made two requests with the company.
One is to rent yourself a house and ensure that you will not sleep on the streets in Beijing.
The second is to have a guaranteed salary of 5,000 yuan, and she has to rely on this money to buy a house for her parents.
Back at school, Zhao Yihuan packed her luggage and mailed it directly to her address in Beijing.
And when she was in Beijing, she found out,
The film and television company in Guan Xiaojie's mouth is actually a small film workshop that has just been established.
Zhao Yihuan is the only artist signed by the company.
Zhao Yihuan, who has just stepped into society, is like a kitten falling into a bottomless trap of catching beasts.
When she couldn't see the light everywhere, she could only struggle forward.
03
With the first official job in her life, Zhao Yihuan called her parents to report,
She said she had a place to live in Beijing and a good job.
Hearing the description of the daughter, the parents finally put their hearts at ease,
Before hanging up the phone, Dad said a word to Zhao Yihuan: "You have to rely on yourself, you can't rely on others for everything." ”
Zhao Yihuan kept his father's words firmly in mind.
At the beginning of the first year of signing, Zhao Yihuan starred as the protagonist in the company's network movie "Adolescence".
Born professional in broadcast hosting, she can't act at all.
At the beginning of the shooting, she didn't even understand the camera position.
It wasn't until a movie was made that she finally found a bit of an actress.
This is the company's first work,
But it is such a network movie that mixes multiple elements such as youth, sensitive topics, and school violence.
Created a myth of 2.2 billion hits across the network.
It is such a shoddy work that brings Zhao Yihuan to the public.
She played a sexy and beautiful "school flower" in the movie,
But when her friend found out, she laughed at her and said, "You play a sexy person, where do you have a little relationship with sexiness?" ”
Zhao Yihuan is like two sides of the mirror, she is beautiful and sexy in the eyes of outsiders,
But deep inside her, she is still a big grinning, straight-forward Northeast "tomboy".
Therefore, for Zhao Yihuan, she failed to experience the pleasure of overnight fame.
She just fell into a deep cramp and uneasiness.
Except for the protagonist Zhao Yihuan, all the people in the company were immersed in joy,
Everyone celebrates success without exception,
Only Zhao Yihuan was like an outsider, she felt as if there was a layer of glass in her heart that separated her from everyone.
But no one around noticed her worries.
Because in the eyes of the company's boss, she is already like a cash cow.
Grasping the traffic password, the company began to create network movies with similar themes one after another.
And Zhao Yihuan has also become the heroine without exception,
Continue to wear the label of "sexy" on your head and show off your youth in the movie.
But in the eyes of ordinary audiences, Zhao Yihuan has been labeled as a "sexy actress".
Behind her name, only a large network of works with sparse plots and dog bloody topics is piled up.
"The more I acted, the more I felt empty, as if I was rowing in the opposite direction, farther and farther away from my dreams."
Insomnia, depression, countless emotions rushed to her,
Zhao Yihuan, who has been strong and brave since childhood, has no courage to face life at this time.
In the end, she really couldn't stick to it and proposed to the company to terminate the contract.
But Zhao Yihuan was carrying a ten-year death contract on his back,
Termination and restoration of freedom seems to be a very luxurious thing,
The company offered to claim 35 million liquidated damages against her,
But Zhao Yihuan, who only has a monthly salary of 5,000 yuan, can make up enough money?
In order to put pressure on her, the canteen gave up the idea of terminating the contract,
The company even sent someone to "threaten to educate" her,
Zhao Yihuan said that what echoed in his ears during that time were the vicious words of "ungratefulness", "no skin and no face", and "no good death".
But no matter what kind of sinister tricks the other party uses, she is hard and hard and sticks to the end.
Seeing that it cannot be resolved by agreement,
Zhao Yihuan had no choice but to confront his "old owner" in court.
In the end, the court ruled that Zhao Yihuan could terminate the contract normally.
However, to comply with the "contract protection", you cannot take the play for several years and cannot appear in front of the audience.
In 2015, Zhao Yihuan withdrew from the company, but at this time, she was already covered in bruises.
Then for nearly two years, she completely disappeared from the Internet.
Fans couldn't find any information about Zhao Yihuan.
It may take more than ten years of effort and sedimentation to go from behind the scenes to the front of the stage to achieve the effect of thick accumulation and thin hair.
But to retreat from the front of the stage to the backstage is a moment.
Zhao Yihuan spent ten years dancing on the beach, but the tide surged,
But wash away all her traces quickly,
Only the gravel knew that she had been there.
04
When her restrictions expired and she wanted to come back, she found that everything had become difficult.
Ran all over the crew, met countless directors, producers,
But all that awaits is a refusal.
During that time, Zhao Yihuan heard the most words,
"You're a 'sexy actress' who used to act in bad movies and wasn't very suitable for us."
At this time, Zhao Yihuan understood,
"Taking off" clothes is a simple thing,
It is a problem to want to "take off" the clothes and put them on again.
But in order to survive,
Zhao Yihuan also calmly accepts the evaluation and criticism of others for her,
She began to reposition herself,
Forcing yourself to go back to the state you were in college,
Seeing himself as a "workplace white" who has just walked out of campus,
Whether it's a supporting role or a dragon suit,
As long as the director gives her the opportunity, she will gladly accept it.
In addition to filming, she also participates in various variety shows, just to increase her exposure.
She began to value the opinions of those around her, treating every kind of depreciation as a kind of flogging.
When interviewing a crew, the director looked at Zhao Yihuan and said with disgust: "You are a little too fat, you have to lose weight." ”
In order to achieve better photogenic results, she began to work out.
In the process, Zhao Yihuan gradually fell in love with the feeling of sweating in the gym.
She didn't want to pursue a slender figure like other actresses,
What she pursues is to have a healthy body through exercise.
In addition to her own requirements, Zhao Yihuan also has strict control over her boyfriend's body.
She once took her boyfriend Lee Bourne on the variety show "Oops, Good Body".
On the show, she said bluntly: "If you want to get married, you have to lose another 15 kilograms."
Li Bourne is a singer from Taiwan, although he has 181cm, but when recording the program, he weighs nearly 200 pounds.
There was only a thick circle of fat on his stomach, which was far from the eight-pack abs that Zhao Yihuan longed for.
Under the supervision of his girlfriend, Lee Bourne can't eat enough, and he has to strengthen his exercise during the break.
Zhao Yihuan incarnated as the "devil" coach, even her parents could not look down,
They persuaded their daughters not to be so harsh.
But such a strong and rough man actually became the "delicate" one in front of Zhao Yihuan.
Not only obedient to his girlfriend, but also considerate and gentle, taking care of all the housework,
Zhao Yihuan also posted on social media when he announced his relationship: "I finally found a person who knelt down as soon as I glanced at him. ”
After the comeback, Zhao Yihuan signed a new brokerage company,
Talking about past experiences, facing the label of "sexy",
Zhao Yihuan said: "Those are indeed my past, but the word "sexy" does not belong to me from the beginning to the end, because from the bottom of my heart, I did not feel that I was a sexy person, and the more I said it, the less confident I became. ”
05
When she was young, others said she wanted to be "sexy", and she did so.
Later, others said that she was going to learn to converge, and she did the same.
From beginning to end, Zhao Yihuan went around in other people's "traps" and lost his way.
Until she found herself at the end of the winding path.
Go to more engaged acting,
Go to a healthier and happier life,
To show your charm more confidently,
This is the path that Zhao Yihuan once again stood at the starting point and chose.