Almost all of the things that have happened in my life that have made me most remorseful, guilty, regretful, and most humiliating have to do with alcohol.
I am a post-70s, professional is writing, has published dozens of books, book works often won the national major book city bestseller list. In terms of professional achievement, I still recognize myself very much.
But when it comes to drinking, I'm a shame.
I have been drinking since junior high school, I have been addicted in high school, and when I was in Beijing, I was often so drunk that I didn't go to class.
After joining the work, I am still the same. After writing full-time, I often let go of myself, so that I developed a serious alcohol dependence, and I was itchy and uncomfortable for a day without getting drunk.
I envy those who can sleep upside down after drinking. I was the complete opposite. After drinking, I was always so excited.
After drinking more wine, I will change my usual quietness, modesty, and politeness, but become a person who loves to grab words, loves to be able to do things, and speaks wildly.
When I was young, because of the hero plot, I often did nothing wrong after drinking, and went to do some things that I thought was unfair, which made my family very worried.
But when it comes to drinking, I'm a shame.
I have been drinking since junior high school, I have been addicted in high school, and when I was in Beijing, I was often so drunk that I didn't go to class.
After joining the work, I am still the same. After writing full-time, I often let go of myself, so that I developed a serious alcohol dependence, and I was itchy and uncomfortable for a day without getting drunk.
I envy those who can sleep upside down after drinking. I was the complete opposite. After drinking, I was always so excited.
After drinking more wine, I will change my usual quietness, modesty, and politeness, but become a person who loves to grab words, loves to be able to do things, and speaks wildly.
When I was young, because of the hero plot, I often did nothing wrong after drinking, and went to do some things that I thought was unfair, which made my family very worried.
In this way, let alone others, I hate myself.
I also abstained from alcohol, and I quit regularly, but each time it ended in failure.
Because of the wine, I was in danger several times, and even almost lost my life.
Think about the past few decades of life, wrong things and ugly things and regrets, basically all of them are drunk, and when I am sober, others may take a magnifying glass, and they can't find anything I can arrange.
I am a very serious person in my work, very confident, and have achieved good results. But on drinking, I feel so helpless and helpless, and I am often hit very broken.
I knew the wine demon had taken control of me, and I never seemed to get rid of it. Every time I fail to quit drinking, I am so depressed, inferior, and lose courage.
If my life path is relatively smooth, then wine is the most difficult hurdle in my life.
