The brilliance of the Republic of China lies in the particularity of its era.
It was an era in which new cultures coexisted with old traditions. The transition and integration of the new and the old has led to the birth of a group of outstanding figures who can be compatible with both ideas on the land of China. Lin Huiyin is such a person. She has the beauty of oriental women, gentle and moving, but her soul is free and independent, which adds to her unique style.
The relationship between Jin Yuelin, Liang Sicheng and Lin Hui may not be understood by people because of these three people.
These are three independent and excellent souls. The sincere emotions between them dissolve people's selfishness and compose a melody of love that shimmers with the brilliance of reason.
Jin Yuelin has always liked Lin Huiyin. Some people say that he never married a wife in his life, because he could not let go of this woman in his heart. Choosing one person for a lifetime, such a choice, everyone can say on a specific occasion, but most people are difficult to do.
Many years after Lin Huiyin's death, Jin Yuelin was invited to write the preface to Lin Huiyin's poetry collection. At that time, he was lying in the hospital ward, and when he saw that the editor had a 32-year-old photo of Lin Huiyin in his hand, the 88-year-old was like a child, carefully rubbing the photo, holding it in his hand and reading it over and over again, and finally slowly raising his head and happily saying to the editor: Can you give it to me.
Another time, he suddenly invited all his friends from all over the world to a Beijing restaurant for dinner, but did not explain why. Just when everyone was puzzled and asked why he suddenly invited guests, Jin Yuelin slowly said to everyone: Today is Huiyin's birthday. When the words fell, everyone present burst into tears.
What kind of emotions have created such a bond between these two independent personalities? What kind of woman can make such a good man obsessed with her for a lifetime, and can not be forgotten for a long time?
I don't know what happened
According to the current words, Lin Huiyin should be a literary and artistic woman. When she was young, Lin Huiyin should be a young woman in literature and art.
Unlike ordinary literary and artistic youth, she has a kind of heroism that is rare for women. The two temperaments are mixed together to create a unique Lin Huiyin. She and Xu Zhimo can discuss literature on the willow bank of Xiqiao, and she can investigate ancient architecture with Liang Sicheng in the remote areas of the desert. She can willingly take care of the housework, grow flowers and vegetables, beat soy sauce, and mingle with the villagers; and when her son asks what to do when the Japanese come, she can answer without hesitation: Isn't it the Yangtze River at our doorstep? Answer calmly and detachably.
This is Lin Huiyin. She has the tranquility of orchids, the tenacity of plum blossoms, and the fragrance of roses.
Jin Yuelin Da lin Huiyin is nine years old. The first time he came to Lin Huiyin's home at the recommendation of Xu Zhimo, when he saw that agile and beautiful figure, he was already in love. At that time, the woman who stirred his life's mood was 28 years old, and she was already Mrs. Liang.
When men face love, they often can't suppress their inner throbbing. A thousand years ago, Guan Ju has already made it very clear: sleepy thinking, tossing and turning.
Jin Yuelin was also unable to suppress his emotions, so he simply moved to live near Lin Huiyin's home, just so that he could see Lin Huiyin every day. It is precisely for this reason that he and Lin Hui have become excellent friends because of Liang Sicheng.
At that time, Lin Huiyin also knew Jin Yuelin's feelings for him. In the face of this man who loved her deeply, Lin Huiyin fell into distress for a while. She told Liang Sicheng frankly and told him that she was in love with two people and did not know what to do.
Liang Sicheng thought about it for a whole night after listening. The next day, with some reddened eyes, he said to Lin Huiyin: You are free, if you choose Jin Yuelin, I wish you eternal happiness.
Liang Sicheng's words were told to Jin Yuelin by Lin Huiyin. After listening, Jin Yuelin pondered for half a moment, and then slowly said: Si cheng can say this, it can be seen that he really loves you, does not want you to suffer a little grievance, I can't hurt a person who really loves you, I quit.
In the face of Liang Sicheng's "open-mindedness", Jin Yuelin took the initiative to choose to quit.
The love of these two men for Lin Huiyin is sincere and selfless. One that respects her choice is willing to let go, and one that is no longer attached to it for her happiness. And Lin Huiyin also knows her husband's love for herself, and she is very measured between her and Jin Yuelin, but she is only a friend and confidant, and she has not crossed the thunder pool privately.
Li Zhuang's visit
After the outbreak of the War of Resistance Against Japan, Lin Huiyin and her husband Liang Sicheng spent a difficult and unforgettable time in Lizhuang, Sichuan.
At that time, the land of China was full of wars, and Lin Hui's life in Lizhuang was not good, and he often ate the last meal without eating.
When Jin Yuelin came to Li Zhuang, he felt a pang of pain after seeing Lin Huiyin, who was seriously emaciated and slightly pale. He could hardly believe his eyes, and the Lin Huiyin in front of him seemed to have only those eyes that still retained their former radiance, in addition, like a patient.
In order to let Lin Huiyin recover his health as soon as possible, Jin Yuelin bought more than a dozen newly hatched chicks from the market and raised them in the open space in front of his house. Jin Yuelin is a good chicken keeper. He had raised several large fighting cocks at Southwest United University, and according to Mr. Wang Zengqi's recollection, that fighting could put his neck on the table and eat with Mr. Jin.
Jin Yuelin is looking forward to these chickens laying eggs as soon as possible. With the help of this chicken breeder, Lin Huiyin's condition gradually improved. Jin Yuelin has always regarded Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng's children as his own, and he teaches children how to feed chickens in the yard, and there are many long-lost laughter in the Lin family's yard.
Unfortunately, joy is easy to pass, Jin Yuelin's vacation period will soon arrive, and he is ready to get up and go back to Kunming. In that war-torn era, I don't know when we will see each other again.
Nostalgia after death
In the autumn of 1954, Lin Huiyin, who had been ill for a long time, began to deteriorate rapidly and had completely lost the ability to work. She was transferred to Tongren Hospital for rescue. Not long after, Liang Sicheng was also admitted to the same hospital, separated from Lin Huiyin by only one ward. The couple became patients. Liang Sicheng's condition was better than his wife's, and he often came to Lin Huiyin's hospital room to talk to her.
On the night of March 31, 1955, Lin Huiyin's condition deteriorated rapidly, and there was no blood on his face. As she lay dying, she reluctantly called out to the nurse, hoping to see Liang Sicheng. But the nurse told her: It's late at night, and I'll talk about it tomorrow.
Unfortunately, she couldn't wait until dawn. In the early hours of the next day, when Liang Sicheng saw his wife again, she lay quietly on the hospital bed and had stopped breathing. This year, she was fifty-one years old.
When he learned of Lin Huiyin's death, Jin Yuelin was in the school's office. At that time, a student went to the office to see him, only to see Jin Yuelin sitting there without a word, and his face lost the same look as before. After half a moment, he suddenly said: Lin Huiyin was gone, and then he cried tearfully. After a few minutes, he slowly stopped crying. He dried his tears and sat quietly in his chair, his eyes glazed over, as if he had lost something precious.
At Lin Huiyin's funeral, Jin Yuelin presented her with the famous elegy: a poetic Qianxun Waterfall, an april day on the earth of eternity.
This is the Lin Huiyin in his eyes. In his eyes, Lin Huiyin was always as warm and brilliant as April in the world, which made him nostalgic.
Later, Liang Sicheng married a second wife. When Jin Yuelin learned of this, he was first very surprised, and then he was a little angry. He did not understand Liang Sicheng's thoughts and could not accept his behavior. For a time, he was reluctant to meet this old friend because of this matter. This open-minded, free-spirited man ended up defining betrayal in the most traditional way of thinking, perhaps because he cared too much about her.
Jin Yuelin's self-description
Jin Yuelin once wrote in his memoirs: Love and liking are two different feelings or feelings. The two are often unified. There are also many times when there is no unification.
Yes, some people are destined to only "like" and not to "love". Because the word love is too heavy and warm, the hidden meaning it contains is not only to pay, but also to return. Likes are one-sided, and I like you as my business, so you don't have to be stressed and you don't have to take responsibility for my likes.
After all, we are not parties, and it is not clear whether Mr. Jin's feelings for Lin Huiyin are "love" or "like".
I guess this feeling should be somewhere in between. Mr. Jin's affection for Ms. Lin trumps his liking, but he cannot rise to the level of "love". Because of this, he would be willing to let go, not because of his love to make her feel embarrassed; and because of this, he would remember this woman so much that he would always move around her house, just to see her as much as possible. This is a kind of platonic love, a deep love that is rational.
Throughout the ages, when people talk about love, they will always insist on making this illusory word "strong", so there is a sea oath mountain alliance, there is a sea dry stone rot, and there are countless vows. But perhaps, these are just an excuse to hide the impure love of oneself, the real love is willing to give without asking for return, it can be consistent without any constraints, it is a momentary thought, a day and night recollection.
For Jin Yuelin, he can meet Lin Huiyin when he was young, see her often in his limited life, talk to her heartily, bring her laughter, and recall her best smile, which is his love. Does it matter if you have it or not?