April 22 - April 28
Key sentence: The memory of the dewdrop
"Autumn Garden" by Yang Benfen
The other day I finished reading "I Ben Fen" by the elderly Yang Benfen, and this week I began to read her second autobiographical novel, "Autumn Garden".
After reading this book, what I felt most deeply was that in such a harsh environment, they could still maintain a certain degree of kindness, beyond the survival instincts of animals.
After qiuyuan and Renshou's family were marginalized, many people avoided it out of self-preservation, but some people still secretly sent food to their homes to help them tide over the difficulties. Those who came to the rescue included those who came to the door to steal things Chinese New Year's Eve night that year. He was also desperate to go out and steal. After getting help from The Ren family, he never stole anything again, and later scraped together a little money to start a small business. He heard that the Renshou family was in difficulty, so the next day he carried the cargo and limped for more than ten miles, bringing a bag of rice. He felt that Zhi En Tu was righteous and said, "Mayor Yang is my family's savior, and I can't repay his kindness for the rest of my life." ”
This is the simple morality and ethics of the people, a force for good, and a simple spirit of truth-seeking, following the values that they identify with in their hearts.
Teacher Luo Zhenyu said in his recommendation, "The most precious thing about this book is to make us realize that there will be so many vicissitudes and great changes behind the life of an ordinary person, but if it is not paid attention to and recorded, all experiences are destined to be buried deeply and disappear completely." ”
There is a description of that famine period:
"One day, the whole team was working in the field, and suddenly heard a moaning sound from a corner, which was very harsh. People followed the sound, and it turned out to be the long-rooted old man who was there to.
"I can't shit!" I was reluctant to make the grain into rice, and even the chaff was ground into powder and boiled into a paste. But the intestines can't digest it! Now that I've blocked my asshole, I just can't get out..."
In the next few days, people couldn't even hide, they arched their butts on the edge of the field, you help me dial, I helped you dial, and even shame could not be taken care of. Some even pulled out blood. People's faces were miserable and expressionless, only the sound of oohs and oohs kept coming into their ears. ”
Most of them are characters who have worked hard all their lives, and many have not died well.
Look at those completely nameless beings, what is the history of their passage? They struggled in the torrent, came silently, lived silently, died silently. "Autumn Garden" is written about such characters, if no one writes, they are doomed to be buried deeply.
After the publication of "Autumn Garden", she and her daughter once had this conversation:
Benfern Yang: Have I won glory for you?
Daughter: Absolutely.
Ben-Finn Yang: That's fine. I want to glorify you.
Once, Yang Benfen was just a mother who was confined to the stove and pinned all her life expectations on her children, but now, she can say frankly: "I want to win glory for you." ”
At the age of eighty, she finally became a writer.
It's a miracle, it's wonderful.
It was a dewdrop of memory, tiny and fragile. But before it was broken, it was also shining with crystal light, a complete universe.
Romain Rolland once said, "There is only one true heroism in the world, and that is to love life after knowing the whole truth of life." In my opinion, Yang Benfen, the author of "Autumn Garden", is such a hero, she has gone through a difficult period of time, in the twilight of life, she began to face her true self with words, face the history of her home country, and resist oblivion with records and writing, which is an awakening of self-consciousness.
Friends, please love life!
There is light rain in the shade and slightly cool
April 28, 2022
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