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Recently saw a story.
The school fencing club was dissolved due to the financial crisis.
Known as a "fencing genius" when she was a child, a bright girl who grew up but repeatedly failed in high school, she insisted on transferring to the school where she liked her favorite contestants with a passion.
Unexpectedly, her favorite athlete (the Olympic champion) looked down on her, "the circle is so small, I have never heard of your name."
The national team has to select a new person, ranking 26 in the country, she is not qualified.
Unfortunately, two people gave up fencing, one was also dissolved by the fencing club, and the other was that the family could not support fencing. She was unexpectedly lucky enough to qualify for the selection competition.
As the 26th, it is a fantasy to think of entering the national team first.
But she said:
I will try. But even if my dream doesn't come true, I won't be disappointed. Because I'm used to losing and losing.
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The moment I heard this sentence, I understood the heartache of the "Zhongyong" growing up.
From a young point of view, go to the high point, and then you need to constantly prove your ability. But if there is a failure, it will be considered by the world that Jiang Lang is exhausted.
Even quoting other people's doubts as self-doubt —whether they really don't have that much power—has really gone downhill ever since.
And she never gave up, kept practicing, and even if she failed, she still loved it.
The arena is different from life, and every game must be won or lost. The winners were happy and received numerous accolades.
What about the losers?
disgraced.
Not only can you stand in the dark behind the spotlight, but more importantly, how to soothe the self-denial brought about by failure, how to face the "well-intentioned" comfort of others, and how to shake yourself up again.
I was touched by "habitual losing and failing".
Behind that is an extremely powerful force. It is not to adapt to losing, there is no wave in the heart. Nor is it accustomed to failure, it doesn't matter the ending. It is really "accepting" losing, "accepting" failure.
Knowing that a loss does not mean a long-term loss, and a failure does not mean a permanent failure.
What's important?
What is important is that a momentary sadness will not affect the full efforts of the next day, and the important thing is that a momentary sadness will not affect the next day to face yourself with twelve points of spirit and turn the world upside down.
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Writing is not a playthrough game, there is no big boss, there is no end.
Writing is more like a competition, one after another, one after another, only to see a little improvement in ability.
Varsity, Municipal, Provincial, National, Asian Games... Finally, we reached the Olympic Games and won the first place. Every time it is the pinnacle.
But there is the next game, the next goal, the bigger pursuit, the continuous pursuit.
Will you participate in the next Olympic Games?
More subtlely, competition is not all for athletes, practice is. Hard practice day after day.
So is writing.
It's just that there are no opponents in the writing field, compared to myself.
Force yourself to reach the level of your own approval, force yourself to win the last time you were.
Like the bright 18-year-old girl, she accidentally appeared as a child, but she had to bear the more ardent expectations in the process of growing up, and faced a deeper loss after losing the game.
Occasional writing success often leads only to greater doubts about ability. Can't I write it? Can't I write good work anymore? When will the next good work appear? Will there be a harbinger?
I also want to be like the bright 18-year-old girl who says, "I'm used to losing and losing."
They mean that I have accumulated more failures than others, they mean that I am more experienced in learning to stand up in failure, and they mean that I can not be afraid of the next failure. I'm still giving it my all.
I got a burst of energy from him. This time, I crossed the hurdle again.
20220419 duty room at 22:07
#二十五, twenty-one #写作