What a ridiculous scene for a man to kneel down and beg for forgiveness. I quietly let him cry and plead, without answering.
01
This child came too late, married for seven years, and we were desperately childless, but just when we were about to give up, he got into our lives.
The anomaly occurs in the morning. I cooked a bowl of egg noodles and was about to take two sips when a feeling of vomiting came up.
"Wife, how's it going?" Do you want to help? Let's go to the hospital," Liu Sifeng asked with concern, "let's go, don't delay, it will be broken." ”
There was a snorting sound outside the door, and Liu Sifeng slammed the door in a hurry, not allowing me to be timid.
Pushing the door out, I said, "Where to go?" The hospital, I don't go, I hate the smell of disinfectant water on the ground. ”
I sat back in my chair and picked up the bowl to eat noodles, and he leaned over and said carefully, "Wife, do we have one?" Isn't it? ”
I smirked and said, "Liu Sifeng, it's not bad, this can also be guessed, powerful." ”
Liu Si saw that he immediately jumped on it, dancing with his hands and feet, "Oh, I won the lottery, I won the jackpot, I have a baby." ”
The two adults in their thirties laughed wildly, but after calming down, they looked at each other and said, "Guess not accurately." Go to the hospital and check it out, otherwise those bitter eaters, like two fools. ”
Bitter medicine, drank bowl after bowl, he did not pull a bowl, a day did not pull. Shouting children day by day, if the prayer is fulfilled, the grand prize will be delivered as promised.
The obstetrics and gynecology department of Tongji Hospital was on the sixth floor, and Liu Sifeng protected me and ran all the way up.
The doctor did not let the male family members come in, he begged, "Doctor, let me see, we have a hard time, let me witness the joy." ”
There are indifferent mobile phones in the waiting hall, there are people who turn around and don't know why, and there are people who look down and think about what to do with their children.
The moment you enter the door, they move people's hearts one by one.
It is rare for us to give up like this, so loving.
The child's image jumped with the display screen, and Liu Sifeng said dotingly: "Wife, thank you, hard work, thank you." ”
Liu Sifeng will be a good father and a good father, and the doctor who examined the obstetrics quietly said: "Your husband is really good, such a man is rare, to cherish." ”
I was wrapped in his arms and followed step by step.
All eyes were on me, like a halo, like a hero.
02
Pregnant women's stomachs grow larger and larger, gradually bulging, straight and proud.
Liu Sifeng is the management of the group, and the work is becoming increasingly heavy.
I sometimes want him to accompany me, but I am whisked away, "Wife, I want to go shopping, and I just want to buy which one." You're in charge of being beautiful, I'm in charge of providing the money, and we hit it off. ”
It's a rejection, but it's also comforting.
This mouth is sweeter than honey.
People who are immersed in joy do not perceive the danger approaching.
They are illusory, seemingly insignificant, and gradually invade.
Liu Sifeng's clue was that a month later, I learned through a dirty dress.
It was a strange fragrance, light and breathtaking magic.
This scent is uncommon, but it seems to have smelled somewhere.
I tugged at the corner of my clothes, dazed, and meditated.
"Hello, ma'am, this is our new fragrance, magic water," the cabinet sister greeted me, pushing a bottle of elegant perfume.
Magic Water... Now the merchants are playing like this? I was stunned for a few seconds and turned to go.
The value of that brand of perfume is not cheap, a bottle of perfume can sell for thousands, and those who can use this perfume will not be weak in financial resources.
Liu Sifeng does not use perfume.
After I became pregnant, my sense of smell was very sensitive and I couldn't smell it. A little abnormality can cause discomfort.
Whether the scent on the clothes was unintentionally stained or if it was smoked in some place, I speculated back and forth.
Once the seeds of doubt are planted, distrust begins to take root and grow, growing longer and more luxuriantly.
03
If you hadn't met Du Yao, the matter might have stopped.
But the same fragrance caught my attention.
Du Yao is Liu Sifeng's good friend, the level of a difficult brother.
Du Yao, wearing a white shirt, walked loosely and said, "Sister-in-law, the nutritional products bought for you, I don't know if they are suitable." ”
Du Yao took Liu Sifeng as the eldest brother, although there was no blood relationship, but it was as good as a family. Sewing is always inseparable. I was pregnant, and he not only always ran here, but also sent some food and drink, accompanied by chat and gossip.
The scent was so overwhelming that I felt dizzy and confused.
"Sister-in-law, what's wrong?" Is there something uncomfortable about it? Du Yao helped me sit down and asked with concern.
This, this perfume appears again...
I grabbed the couch blanket and asked, "Du Yao, did you buy this perfume new?" It's a good match for this white shirt. ”
Du Yao reacted quickly and said: "Sister-in-law, I don't know which mixed ball uses perfume, buy this smell, it smells bad and dies." I can't wash it off no matter how I wash it. ”
Du Yao was very aggrieved and acted as a bully.
I asked about something else, and I sent Du Yao out.
"Du Yao, huh..." I looked meaningfully at the distant back.
The strong smell lingered in the air for a long time, swirling and swirling.
I can basically be sure of what Liu Sifeng did, not Du Yao's same perfume pervading, I would not arbitrarily determine the result.
The child is born in a few months, whether it is disclosure or silence, which is the best choice? I swayed from side to side.
Touching the belly, the group photo on the wall, the sunlight in the house, are all so unbearable and nostalgic.
04
This child did not come easily, but how Liu Sifeng changed so much.
I was deeply puzzled. What tripped him? Is it her?
Liu Sifeng went to work and went home as usual, three o'clock and one line, and could not see any other movements.
But the fragrance was my shadow, and when it struck again, I saw myself, the owner of the perfume, Zeng Zhi.
Zeng Zhi knew my doubts, broke the dilemma, and said, "Did you find the perfume, the abnormality on that dress?" But you didn't say, you're hesitating, you're wandering, you're waiting. ”
As soon as I said this, I seemed to understand something, saying: "You deliberately let me know, through perfume, what do you want to get?" ”
No one is blind, and her face is full of desire and longing.
Why don't I go straight and let her tell the purpose and the real idea to save each other's time.
Going straight to the goal is my habit, and I think that's what she wants.
She smiled and said, "Leave Liu Sifeng, leave that home, he doesn't belong to you." He belongs to me, to me and Liu Sifeng. ”
Brick by brick, I build, find, buy. Where did she come from with the courage to overbearingly force me to go.
This woman read countless people, understood what she wanted and wanted, but she did not know shame and negotiated with the original owner.
"You, by what?" By your countless readers, or by you..." I did not say anything sarcastic to her.
As women, to save some face is to respect each other. We shouldn't tear each other apart for an object.
She said flirtatiously, "By what?" You'll know when the time comes. I'm afraid you'll cry. ”
Crying is not a weapon, and it is impossible for a woman to use crying to keep what she wants to leave behind. Including marriage, love.
I won't cry, and if you hand me a bullet or a gun, I'll be a warrior and go to the appointment with my head held high.
Zeng Zhi's figure left, and the smell lingered.
I got up and walked outside, pacing firmly against the glow of the setting sun.
05
Zeng Zhi seemed to have disappeared, disappeared from my life and Liu Sifeng's life.
Day by day, I often think about her words, her "You will know when the time comes."
She did not lose her word, she came with pride and achievements, blocking me and Liu Sifeng.
"Liu Sifeng, I have a child, you should fulfill your promises and vows," Zeng Zhi's face was a little puffy, and a loose shirt could not hide his slightly closed stomach.
"You, this is your barrier, yours makes me cry?" I burst into tears at the moment, not as strong as I thought, and poured out more and more with them.
"The day I saw you, I got the diagnosis, I had a baby, so ..." She was full of high, her head high, as if she had picked the fruit of the victor.
But she smeared perfume, and this woman was terrible, ignoring the child, and confronting me.
However, today's Zengzhi is simple and beautiful, with a few strands of broken hair in front of the white forehead, which is also charming.
Liu Sifeng was not as calm as before, and the confrontation between the two women made him panic, which he did not expect, and came too violently.
He ran, he ran fast. The remaining two pregnant women sighed dryly.
"Look, he ran away, do you like him like this?" Liu Sifeng's cowardice was something Zeng Zhi had never seen before, but I knew very well that he did not easily show it in his bones. Therefore, he provoked Zeng Zhi's pain point to see if she would retreat.
"Well..." She was really surprised, and after being stunned, she came back and said, "Man, not Spider-Man, can't have a weakness?" In fact, there are weaknesses to fall, isn't it? ”
This perverse reasoning is quite smooth, but I admire her deep understanding of human nature.
When I left, Zeng Zhi stayed where he was, looking cold and miserable.
I was actually panicked, Liu Sifeng's escape, Zeng Zhi's encirclement, I didn't have time to deal with it.
Perhaps, my armor is not hard, and they are weak in the face of several attacks.
06
Zeng Zhi of the Wind Moon Field refused to let go of the goal of long-term staring, Liu Sifeng was her ideal type, and she did not hesitate to use any means.
This child is an angel, and at one time I thought that he was the messenger who saved me and Liu Sifeng from becoming increasingly centrifugal.
His weaknesses were revealed, and the only filter he had before marriage shattered into pieces.
He's very obedient, he can't listen to you, you're too greedy.
My mother advised me countless times that such men do not often exist. Isn't marriage about finding someone obedient and obedient to you?
His father never went against his mother's wishes, and despite his arrogance, he only promised to protect him.
This is mother's love, her ideal world. Father is a good man in her eyes, as long as he is obedient and obedient, the days are sunshine, laughter, and comfort.
That's not what I want. I have an emotional need, not an object, just let me scold.
Are we going to go wrong? What would that woman do?
Day by day, I was worried about the variables that followed, and I was exhausted from seeing the tricks.
Zeng Zhi asked me to meet at the pub, and in the afternoon bar, the door opened a slit, but it was not open.
"Let's go, go in and sit down, and you'll adapt," she said, with a skilful gesture that she knew as home, something I hadn't expected.
Sitting down with her, two drinks were immediately delivered, she handed them to me, and said: "This is the blessed land for me and Si Feng, here I met my ideal, Liu Sifeng is my ideal." ”
Ideals are spoken so easily, from the mouths of such people, and it sounds like lust and greed.
"Zeng Zhi, what did you ask me to do?" I took a sip of my cold drink and asked.
She must have a purpose, and according to my woman's intuition, this trip is afraid of more evil than ji.
But I still came, child, Liu Sifeng, I have not been able to choose.
Seven years of marriage have faded, but habits are not so easy to let go.
Seeing me looking around and making an arrogant gesture, Zeng Zhi said: "When Liu Sifeng complained to me, I was so distressed, what forced a man to become like this." Is that you? Tian Lin. ”
All she could see was pity, as if she was hurting Liu Sifeng.
As if his pain, she understood. And what I see is contempt, it is irony.
"What are you talking about? I don't understand," I resisted the urge not to unleash anger, to force emotions.
She said, "You know. Liu Sifeng is just your obedient dog, your immediate servant. You use him as an object, not a husband. ”
For Liu Sifeng, I was too harsh. Lead him on the path of a model husband, hoping that he will work hard according to my ideas and run in.
Is this wrong?
Marriage is a common dilemma, and I don't want me to run to the top of the mountain while he looks up at the foot of the mountain.
"Zeng Zhi, you don't know, how tired I live. This is not the life I want, I am too tired, she doesn't know anything, doesn't know," Zeng Zhi said in imitation of Liu Sifeng's tone, and every word plunged into my heart socket.
It turned out that his path of refinement was so tired, this was the real Liu Sifeng. I couldn't help but feel sad in my heart.
"Tian Lin, what a man wants is not to urge, to whip without thinking, he is not an animal, you can't let him lose himself at your feet," Zeng Zhi continued, saying in that breezy tone of heartache, placing my attitude like air.
The more I listened, the more excited I became, and suddenly I stood up straight, pointed at her, and said, "What else do you want to say?" You speak up for him so that he can be relieved! ”
Zeng Zhi smiled and read unhurriedly, while my heart beat faster, like a spinning top, crazy and depressed.
"Oh, ma'am, what's wrong with you?" Come on people, come on people! "I fell to the ground, flashed the child's figure in a daze, and then did not wake up.
In a person's rescue room, the attending doctor asked: "Tian Lin, Tian Lin, do you want children or adults, take the idea, quick!" ”
Boy, it's a joke.
He is not a savior, but the terminator of my relationship with Liu Sifeng.
I said, "Don't have children, take them off." ”
Usually mothers want children and do their best.
But I gave up, scaring the doctor, "You... Are you sure? In a few days, the child will be able to call his mother. ”
There's Mom, but Daddy.
Dad was tired, he was crawling and crawling, and he already resented his mother. Mom can't stand it, don't do it, kid.
I was so tired that I was in the rescue room and I fell into a quiet sleep. That sleep, very fragrant. To relieve my nervousness and confusion these days.
07
When Liu Sifeng arrived, I pushed out of the rescue room, and he slammed the door and said, "Wife, the child is gone, we want it again, I can't live without you." ”
I searched around for the figure of another man, and I remember a woman outside the door when I came in.
Zeng Zhi was vaguely watching, hoping. There are her ideals, her intrigues.
The doctor pulled Liu Sifeng apart and said, "Let Jean, let Jean, sir, the child is not his own." ”
Liu Sifeng was crying, covering his face in pain.
He chased after him, too late to think about how everything that had happened had evolved.
The woman named Zeng Zhi used the radical method against his wife, and he did not know it for a while.
The kid cut off all relationships, and as I said, he's a terminator. The legal relationship between me and Liu Sifeng was thus terminated.
Liu Sifeng knelt down and begged for forgiveness, begging me to stay, he would be a good husband and come according to my requirements.
I looked at everything and smiled: "Liu Sifeng, are you living very tired, obviously you don't want to do this, but you still live in the present." What do you want? ”
What he was plotting, I couldn't have understood.
He can live like a person in the days when someone is in charge, and once he loses his restraints, the strong rely on him, and the herringbone is something he can't accomplish alone.
Some people are like this, and they need a spiritual dependence for life, once a parent, then a wife or someone else.
His psychology was always naïve and he could not complete the independent walking.
And I chose to end this twisted relationship and take the initiative to cut.
08
Some days after leaving the old land, I gradually adapted to the slow state and enjoyed the slow life that I did not have.
Unexpectedly, one day, I saw Zeng Zhi again, and she resumed her heavy makeup and smeared the perfume that had been missing for a long time.
"Tian Lin, I haven't seen you for a long time, you're fat and you look good," she said flatteringly, and I greeted her with a scrutinizing look.
"You, what's the matter?" I was still very direct, not giving it a chance to waste time, I rushed to class, yoga class.
"You, I like this character, directly do not procrastinate, unlike Liu Sifeng who does not promise to move forward..." The name Liu Sifeng looked down. It wasn't that she mentioned it, and I couldn't even think of this man.
I let him go and he gave it to you, what else are you going to do. I muttered in my heart.
"Tian Lin, can you move away, the farther away the better," she threw out the request, blowing me up.
Why ask me to move away. My house is far away from you, if you don't come to look for it, we will not meet it among thousands of people.
"Tian Lin," she grabbed me and said, "Liu Sifeng can't forget you, and the child can't let him forget the past." You help me and disappear completely, okay? ”
It is a plea and an order.
She was telling me to pity her and take care of the children.
"You... It's ridiculous," I broke her five fingers, rubbed her shoulders and left.
I did what she wanted and moved away from here.
After handing over to the new owner, I pulled up my suitcase and headed toward the gate.
A man shouted, "Sister-in-law, I'll send you, where are you going?" ”
It was Du Yao, how did he come.
"Go, go to the airport, you send me," I unceremoniously jumped into the car and smiled at him, "how do you know?" Bag inquire ah. ”
"Well," Du Yao turned his head and said, "Sister-in-law, as long as I want to know, I will definitely try to find a way, so..."
"So, you deliberately informed me, didn't you?" I looked forward, ignoring Du Yao's surprise.
"You know," Du Yao said with his head bowed, as if he were thinking of the wrong source.
09
After Du Yao left that day, he went to his frequent pub, his hobbies, I know a little.
With the idea of bumping into luck, I touched the pub.
The bar's door is a two-sided mirror that envelops the opposite view.
Du Yao's car, which was the Klein blue of the moment, had just been sprayed with paint, and stopped in the shade of a tree.
Although the sunglasses covered his face, the line of his face was hard, and I recognized him at a glance.
I realized that he wasn't taking it for granted to see me. The shirt didn't look new at first glance. Wearing a dress that has been worn for several days, there is a strong odor on it, Yu Jie's Du Yao said, is not normal.
"Sister-in-law, I wish you a bright future, a sail..." Before he could finish, I groaned at the ground.
"Du Yao, goodbye," I waved, my back to him, and walked into the security checkpoint.
The past, the past, I can't go, I let go.
It is a great blessing to let yourself go.