Dictation | I have been entangled with Qingmei Zhuma for 28 years, and it is simply intolerable not to marry him

Original illustration: Meow Meow Xia, narrator: Zhou Keke, female, 29 years old

01

All the losses in my life are fed to me by Sun Liang.

Growing up in a compound as a child.

In the summer when I was about four or five years old, Sun Liang said to me, "Coco, I'll give you a gift." ”

Then I opened the pretty ring box, which contained a writhing caterpillar.

I was so frightened that I cried, and then, I went to sun liang's mother to complain.

His mother criticized him, but he did not apologize at all: "You did not watch cartoons, there are often boys stuffing bugs into girls' desks, I want Coco to go to school, do not have to be afraid of bugs." 」 ”

Really, it was the first time in my life that I knew that there were people who could say that bullying others was so grandiose.

02

When I was in elementary school, my mother said to Sun Liang: "Liang Liang, you are a brother, and you must protect Coco at school." ”

He nodded like a garlic: "Auntie rest assured, wrap it around me." ”

But the truth is that he caused trouble at both ends for three days and was "hunted down" by his classmates.

The two armies fought, and he either tucked his bag into my arms and fought with someone, or he pulled me up and followed him to "escape" for his life.

Every time I ran with him to run out of breath, I would ask him, "Why should I run with you?" I didn't mess with them? ”

He either said with a bad smile, "You're stupid," or he said, "They can't beat me, they're going to have to move the people around me, I'm protecting you, can't you see it?" ”

I yawn.

Because of his forced practice every day after school, we repeatedly broke the school long-distance running record from elementary school to junior high school.

Every time we stepped on the athletes' march to receive the award, Sun Liang would run over and whisper in my ear: "How nice it would be if this song were replaced by a wedding march." ”

03

In the fourth grade of elementary school, I signed up for a speech contest, and I practiced that speech for almost a month.

When I was practicing, Sun Liang was memorizing the text next to me, and I was too easy to be taken astray by him.

After practicing for so long, I didn't memorize the speech, but I memorized several of his texts.

On the day of the speech, before going on stage, Sun Liang ran to me.

I thought he would definitely encourage me not to be nervous, to cheer up, and so on.

But he said to me, "Coco, when you get on stage, don't think about elephants in your head..."

I really wanted to kick him to death.

As a result, I was all kinds of nervous after I came to power, and even more tragically, I was full of elephants.

That day, I only said one sentence: "Hello everyone, I am Zhou Keke in the third class of the fourth grade..."

Then there was no then.

At the end of school, I took the stick I had found in advance and prepared to beat Sun Liang into a meatloaf.

As a result, he played a grimace while running: "Anyway, you can't win the first prize, then be a person who impresses others, now it's good, the whole school knows that you are the Zhou Keke who forgot his words on stage... Coco, you're famous. ”

If you talk about losing friends, it is not Sun Liang.

I don't understand, why can a boy who looks like a gourd in the eyes of others be able to do so in front of me?

04

From elementary school to middle school, Sun Liang came to my house almost every day to write homework.

He also helps me with my homework.

In fact, most of the time, he reads novels and then copies my homework or asks me to help him copy it.

And what made me most unwilling was that every time he copied my homework, he could actually pick out the mistakes inside.

Then, without saying a word, give me an explanation.

What's even more infuriating is that he, a man who doesn't even write homework, actually does better than me every time.

Not only that, no matter the big test or the small test, as soon as the results came out, he ran to me and said: "As far as your IQ is concerned, if you don't play with me every day, I am afraid that I will fall to a negative number." ”

05

During the middle school entrance examination, Sun Liang dragged me to the cram school on the weekend.

I listened to lectures and he sat next to me dozing off or reading novels.

Then, while doing his homework, he still took my copy.

The name is copying, but it is actually grading my homework.

There are some difficult problems that I can't do with my brain, and he solves them by dividing two by five.

I have to say that there is a real difference in IQ between people.

In the middle school entrance examination, Sun Liang did not work hard to enter the heavy high school, and I worked so hard that I was only admitted to an ordinary high school.

I was frustrated inside, but my mouth was very tough: "I deliberately answered a few big questions, just so as not to go to school with you." ”

Sun Liang disagreed: "Rest assured, I am a ghost." ”

And, he did what he said.

Every night after school, I still come to my house to do my homework.

Moreover, they also brought me back various test questions of their high level and taught me: "Although you are on the general high, you must study according to the high standard." ”

As you can imagine, this is much pleasing to my parents.

As long as the family makes delicious food, parents will definitely stay with Sun Liang.

On the surface, Sun Liang affectionately called my parents "uncle and aunt", but his parents' gratitude and hospitality to him was Xie Shi's gesture.

The most infuriating thing is that Sun Liang's parents are also especially willing to let him come to my house to write homework.

Teaching and learning, they found that in the process of tutoring me, Sun Liang not only did not delay learning, but also mastered the knowledge more firmly, and the grades rose particularly fast.

06

From childhood to adulthood, in the study of this matter, I have always been Sun Liang's green leaf.

I know very well that the only thing I can fight with him may be emotional intelligence.

For example, the heart is big for the performance that is not very satisfactory.

For example, in addition to Sun Liang's small hair, I will never lack friends around me.

In the eyes of adults, Sun Liang played well with me, but he suffered losses.

But once, Sun Liang said to my mother: "Auntie, Cocoa is proficient in eating, drinking and having fun, where there is her, there is joy, I am eating, drinking and making friends, so I can only mix with her." ”

Even if he has a conscience, the summary is quite correct.

Growing up, his friends, except for me, developed from my pile of friends.

If it wasn't for me, there would be no spicy strips, grilled cold noodles, pancake fruit, spicy crayfish in his food chain...

God is fair.

Gave him not a low IQ, but gave him a very low emotional intelligence; gave me a low IQ, but gave me enough emotional intelligence.

In the words of the two parents, "If only these two children could be reconciled." ”

07

In the first half of my junior year of high school, my beloved grandfather had lung cancer.

This incident hit me very hard.

It turns out that there are many things in this world that we can't do.

For example, aging and death.

In those days, as long as I wasn't in school, I was in the hospital.

One Saturday, Sun Liang came to the hospital to find me.

I don't know what kind of mentality I had when I took him to see my grandfather's attending doctor.

Across the glass door of the office, I pointed to the doctor who was writing medical records inside and said to Sun Liang, "Do you think he is handsome?" His eyes are particularly reassuring, he is so young, his medical skills are still so clever, with this white coat, it is really beautiful. ”

Sun Liang's mouth was about to go to the sky: "Coco, you should go to see the ophthalmology." ”

I didn't bother to pay attention to him.

The next day he came to the hospital to find me, and said to me very seriously: "Coco, in fact, you don't like that doctor, you are worried about your grandfather's illness, you put all your hopes on the doctor, this is called empathy in psychology, you know?" ”

"I don't understand, but you look sick." I punched and kicked Sun Liang out.

08

In the second semester of my junior year of high school, my grandfather died.

Once, Sun Liang and I passed by the hospital and dragged him to accompany me to see my "male god".

Unfortunately, the male doctor couldn't remember who I was.

I was so upset that I burst into tears as soon as I got out of the hospital.

I said to Sun Liang, "I'm out of love. ”

Sun Liang continued to use his wild path psychology: "You don't miss that doctor, you are because your grandfather left from here, you miss your grandfather..."

Another time, when we came out of the hospital, I said to myself, "You say, is this doctor my first love?" ”

Sun Liang said with particular certainty: "No, your first love was me, when you were a child in the compound, you went around telling others that you would marry me when you grew up." ”

Because of this sentence, I chased him half a street.

09

During the college entrance examination, I applied for a nursing major at Zhengzhou University.

To my surprise, Sun Liang enrolled in the famous medical university in Beijing.

He also said to his parents who opposed his study of medicine: "Studying medicine is an ideal that I have had since I was a child. ”

My grandparents asked me to persuade him, after all, with his grades, he could go to a better university.

Moreover, growing up, he never said he wanted to be a doctor.

So, I tried to convince him.

As a result, he confessed: "You give me seven years, wait for me to put on my white coat, and wait for you to see me again." ”

I was dumbfounded.

After reacting, he pressed on his toes and stomped down fiercely: "What nerves?" I've always taken you as a brother. ”

As a result, people did not take my stubble at all, and continued to confess: "In the future, wherever you are a nurse, I will go to be a doctor, and we are still inseparable like when we were children." ”

I was speechless, I took him as a friend, he always took me as a girlfriend, I took him as a hair child, he took me as a wife.

How else to go after this? This relationship was immediately embarrassing.

So, on the holiday when the college entrance examination ended, I went to my aunt's house in Yunnan and didn't go home until the school was about to start.

Yes, I don't know how to face Sun Liang.

10

I remember the day I returned from Yunnan, Sun Liang waited for me at the entrance of the courtyard early in the morning.

Seeing me, he apologized directly: "Coco, I shouldn't confess to you so suddenly, after all, the university still has to be different for several years, in case you meet a more suitable person than me, am I not delaying you?" So, you didn't say anything when I was there, a boy with a heart, should fall in love, anyway, no matter what, in this life, even if I am a spare tire, I will wait for you. ”

Is this an apology?

It's a second confession, all right!

And the funniest thing is the day we each went to college to report and left home.

Sun Liang left first, and we went to the train station to drop him off.

In front of everyone's eyes, he actually hugged me and cried, saying: "This is from childhood to adulthood, the first time we have been separated, I am particularly sad." ”

Mother Sun was immediately jealous: "Son, you have never said such intimate words to me, what a white-eyed wolf!" ”

What can I do?

I had to turn embarrassment into humor: "You are a Oedipus complex, it's time to grow up, bravely go fly, my baby paper..."

11

In college, Sun Liang's harassment of me became more frequent.

As small as "What color are you wearing today?" "What's to eat at noon?" As big as "I had a little conflict with my roommate, how to resolve it" "The tutor invited us to his house for dinner, what gift should I bring?" "When I go to pediatric internship today, how can I quickly mingle with the children?"

Others were in Beijing, but it gave me the feeling that we had never been apart.

He was still the straight man who was in front of me with a strong iq but a slight social phobia in front of strangers and not pleasing enough.

He once said to me, "Coco, how nice it would be if I had one-tenth of your emotional intelligence." ”

I don't know why, when I heard him say this, I was particularly distressed.

I, who had always been poisonous to him, showed him a rare tenderness for the first time: "As a future doctor, you don't need to learn those empty heads, you just need to have enough professional ability, only responsible for patients." 」 Only people like me who are incompetent have to slip their tongues and be exquisite. ”

Who knows, as soon as this remark came out, he was kidnapped by Sun Liang: "Coco, I am a doctor, and you are my doctor, my medicine." ”

Seriously, this man, all the meaty words that can be spoken in this life, are all poured into my ears.

What the hell am I doing wrong?

12

Seven years of medical science, Sun Liang was particularly hardworking, and before he graduated, he was favored by his tutor and let him stay in Beijing.

At this point, I was a pediatric nurse with three years of work experience.

In the years when he wasn't around, there were other suitors around me.

It's just that it's okay that others don't show good feelings, as long as they show me a little, Sun Liang's appearance will dangle in front of my eyes.

What's even more bizarre is that Sun Liang is like telepathy.

Whenever there was a little turmoil in my heart, he either called or decided to come back to see me on the spur of the moment.

The kind of dependence and trust he had had for more than twenty years quickly extinguished the little flame in my heart.

Although I never promised him anything, after a year of work and seeing too many life and death partings in the hospital, I secretly made up my mind: If Sun Liang stayed in Beijing in the future, then I would quit my job and go to Beijing to join him.

I am convinced that he can be a very good doctor.

And I, in this life, will make his medicine.

13

One morning in the fall of 2017, after I checked my room, I went to get my medication for a patient.

In the pharmacy, someone tapped me on the shoulder.

I turned back, it was Sun Liang.

However, he was wearing a white coat and the badge read Sun Liang, a neurosurgery resident.

I was stunned and amazed.

The way he looks in his white coat is really handsome.

"Hello, Nurse Coco, I am a new doctor from outside God, my name is Sun Liang, I am very happy to become a colleague with you, and I hope to have the opportunity to develop into your lover comrade."

I don't know why, my eyes were suddenly red.

The boy who could only be so comfortable and naughty in front of me finally came back.

14

Sun Liang and I became colleagues in this way.

In the hospital, he is a rigorous and unheated doctor.

He can not sleep for two days and two nights for a high-risk postoperative patient, but in the face of the patient's thousands of thanks from his family after waking up, he is at a loss and does not know how to respond.

One second he announced the time of death of a patient without expression, and the next second he came to me and cried into a mess.

On the roof of the hospital, which was only open to employees, I asked him to treat me as a patient's family member over and over again, and let him practice how to give preoperative medical advice to the family with temperature.

Teach him how to accept the gratitude of others calmly; teach him to face death that must be faced, first say to himself, "I tried my best..."

Every now and then, he said I was his royal psychologist.

Our sorrows and joys are still tied together like childhood and adolescence.

15

On May 1, 2021, at the hospital's labor model commendation meeting, Sun Liang did a big event that made others completely overturn.

When he took the stage to accept the award and spoke on behalf of the young doctor, he took a jewelry box from his pocket.

Then he proposed to me.

The text of the speech was also written in advance.

He said in a surprising tone: "Zhou Keke, when I was four years old, I already married you." ”

He said that when he was a child, when he scared me with a caterpillar in a wedding ring, there was actually a gold ring inside.

It was his mother's wedding ring.

Then, when he saw that his mother had not worn it, he asked why?

His mother casually said, "This is reserved for my daughter-in-law in the future." ”

Sun Liang immediately felt that the ring belonged to me.

So he wanted to give it to me.

However, due to the little boy's ignorant self-esteem, he finally mischievously replaced the ring with a caterpillar.

He said, "Coco, all these years, I have always carried this ring on my body, and in my heart, I have asked you for marriage for half a lifetime." Today, taking this opportunity, I Meng Lang once borrowed Wang Xiaobo's words: If you are willing, I will always love you, if you are not willing, I will always miss each other. ”

You can imagine how explosive the scene of the day was.

16

Since that day, "If you want, I will always love you, if you don't want to, I will always miss each other", has become the punch card language of our hospital.

Whenever everyone is happy or unhappy, someone always throws out this sentence, which has become an old terrier that has been circulated for a long time in the unit.

And sun liang and I's wedding date is set for the National Day in 2021.

A friend always asks me, "What's it like to marry a green plum bamboo horse?" ”

I laughed and said nothing.

Here's a unified reply: the ingredients are complex.

Family, friendship, love, long-term love.

In the words of Sun Liang: I am not yet married, but I feel that I am close to a golden marriage.

Yes, it is the warmth of the old husband and wife, the kind of half a life has passed, it is still your joy, the kind of appropriateness that although you are newly married immediately, you have called each other "wife" again and again in your heart...

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