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Source 丨 Heartfelt Song Unknown (ID:zhongquwuwen)
A reader chatted with me about her troubles, that she felt so lonely, and that she "couldn't go back" with her best friend.
The two of them used to be soul mates, there were endless topics to talk about, there were no secrets between each other, they supported each other like sisters, and they felt that there was no need to fall in love, it was enough to have each other.
Her grades were not very good, her family was still well off, and her parents insisted on sending her abroad to study. Her best friend has always been very hard-working, and she has been admitted to the university they once agreed to go to together.
Because the mountains and seas are separated, the trajectory of the two people's lives slowly no longer intersects, and they can only share the latest situation through chat software. But the most precious position in her heart was always reserved for the other party.
Years ago, they were looking forward to a meeting between them that had been missing for many years, but the two of them sat together, talking about the past, and the polite greeting made her feel suffocated.
She was very envious of the other person's life so wonderful, can make so many friends, unlike her in a foreign country, everything has to rely on herself, living a very lonely life.
She didn't even dare to ask each other to meet again, for fear of the inability to meet, for fear of losing each other.
Just a few days ago, she had a complete breakdown. Because she opened the exclusive space that the two had used before, it was like falling into a swirling time and space tunnel, and the past that had been sealed by memory was as clear as yesterday.
The girl she had put on the tip of her heart, still wearing a pink sweatshirt, smiled charmingly. She likes to rest with her hands on her neck during class, and the other party draws a sleeping "pig" and is chased and beaten by her.
She knew very well that the person she knew had stayed in the past time and space, and the relationship did not know how to save it. She didn't even have time to say that after all these years, the other party was still her only friend.
The regret is not a quarrel, not a split, not even a little contradiction, just a trip back, the corner that was once regarded as precious, is so missing.
When I saw this, I was playing a game and said some comforting words, but I guess she didn't let go either.
Obviously, they all strive to save and cherish, but they are still like two straight lines after intersecting, and the biggest enemy is time? No, maybe it's their own excellence.
Lu Xun's "Young Leaping Earth" is still deeply impressed by me.
The former "Xun Ge'er" looks forward to the New Year every day, because when the New Year arrives, the leap soil will also arrive. The people were very shy, but they were not afraid of him, and they knew each other in less than half a day, and they were the best playmates of their childhood.
Later, Lu Xun returned to his hometown to see Yan Tu again, but it was such a scene.
He stood still, a look of joy and desolation on his face, and moved his lips, but did not make a sound.
His attitude finally became respectful, and he clearly shouted, "Lord..."
I seemed to give a chill, and I knew that there was a sad thick barrier between us. I couldn't speak either.
"There was a look of joy and sadness on his face", but he finally called out "Lord", Lu Xun wrote plainly about this meeting, but he was very heartfelt.
The young man is lively and cheerful, he runs freely on the sand of the moonlit night, astute forks, collects shells and catches fish on the seashore, and tells interesting wild stories to his two-year-old brother.
Middle-aged people are numb and sophisticated, hunching over the furniture they want, humbly telling the rich man about his life dilemma, as if he had lost his soul by human affection.
In Lu Xun's article, Yan Tu only lived for such a short period of pen and ink. In reality, he may have to spend a depressed middle age in a bumpy struggle, and spend a miserable old age in the pain and sorrow.
The friendship between two people is like a bridge across the two banks, and the bridge is often walked by people, so that the bridge will not be abandoned.
Childhood is always good, because of the abundance of time, coupled with the innocent nature of children, it is easy to have a lot of friends to play with.
When we were children, we were simple and serious, and we didn't think too much about complicated and brain-consuming problems, so it was easier to get happy.
Adults face too much pressure, carry responsibilities, wake up in the morning and think of only going to work, ending a day's work, just want to play a game after work, watch the web drama and sleep upside down, life seems to have lost its vitality.
Live to a certain age, the day is easy to become the same every day, copy and paste is a lifetime, this is the only way for everyone, everyone is to slowly go to loneliness.
The teenager could not understand Lu Xun's helplessness, and now he understood that we are all leaping soil.
Everyone's life is destined to have one or two paragraphs, and when you think about it, you will be silent.
They once made you invincible and unencumbered by any turbidity, but in the end they became one of your pain points.
When he said he loved you was real, he said he wanted you to be real, and then he left without a sound, which was also true.
A relationship, like a bottle of can, once opened, faces the choice of being desperately needed to be kept fresh and discarded.
The empty shell of the can can can be thrown into the trash can, but the empty shell of feelings has to be digested by itself, and the ingredients remain in every bit of memory.
I have a friend who regularly deletes friends who don't speak in social software, and deletes half of his junior high school classmates when he goes to high school, and deletes half of his high school classmates when he goes to college.
I didn't understand and asked her why?
She said that one day she cleaned out a lot of expired ham sausages from the refrigerator and prepared to take them downstairs to feed stray cats and dogs, but she waited until the ham sausages were moldy and did not meet one.
Expired food remains and will only occupy the fridge. It's better to clean it up in time and put a few lemons, a few boxes of yogurt, or something more delicious.
Social utilitarianism is getting stronger, and there is less and less time and energy left for socializing.
Humans are very good at complaining about how bad their lives are, describing how happy they are today with a prize, but it is difficult to listen to the situation of others.
You want to tell her that today is so unlucky, you haven't started to say the reason, she can pour bitter water than you, and start to talk about not opening a bill and being scolded by the leader, and you have to work overtime.
So you just typed out a string of words and deleted it, became "Ah, how is this", and sent some memes to cheer her up.
What I originally wanted to say was no longer said, anyway, it could not resonate, and the two people would be trapped in the vortex of negative energy.
She told you that this month's bonus was ten thousand, and as a friend you should be happy for her. But you don't have any commission when you first join, and you will vaguely feel that you are a failure.
What is more difficult for man than to be sad is sincere joy. Many times, you use your heart to others, but others use your heart and eyes on you; you take out your heart and lungs for others, and eventually exchange for others' hearts and lungs.
Only lonely people miss old friends, and loneliness is always shameful.
Only lonely people look forward to new friends, but there is only a shadow behind you.
Shen Congwen said that great joy and great compassion see clearly oneself, and great ups and downs can see one's friends clearly.
Friendship is a luxury, all people are born with parents, relatives, most people will find a partner at a certain age, and friendship is completely dependent on whether the two sides are compatible, once they encounter problems, they will disappear immediately.
Some people used to be inseparable good friends, and once they went their separate ways, they never came back and forth again.
Some people used to be good friends with everything, and with the differences in social classes between the two sides, there is a gap.
10 years ago, you and a group of people had the same goal, in order to get into the university of your choice, you worked all night to write a book, ask each other questions in the corner, in the dormitory, and supervise each other.
5 years ago, you and a group of people sweated like rain on the court, drunk and dreamed of death in the dormitory, as if the heavens and the earth were omnipotent, and the evil and girls in the world should "eat the old grandson".
Now, you are two points and a line between the company and the rental house, what you once looked down on has become out of reach now, your former friends are running their own things, and you are the only one who misses the past.
The brothers who drank together on the washbasin and said that they were on call did not attend your wedding; the girls who ate roadside stalls together in those years were only suitable for living in the memory.
Without experiencing something, you never know that people's hearts are sinister; without falling to the bottom, you can never see through the twists and turns.
In the face of interests, even the best vows will drift away with the wind; in the face of difficulties, only you are the strongest backing.
Years later, you can't remember what the fifth grade pack of crisp noodles tasted like, because it was discontinued that year.
Since it is difficult to meet eternal beauty, please cherish the happiness that has not expired.
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