Speaking of Fan Xiaoxuan, many people may wonder who this is?
If you want to recall it, you may not think of anything, but if you talk to you about the "Health Song" that once swept the north and south of the river, you must be no stranger, the lyrics in this song: "Three circles on the left, three circles on the right, neck twisting and twisting ass"... I don't know how many people's childhood has accompanied.
25 years ago, after this "Health Song" swept the country, it also made Fan Xiaoxuan an idol in the minds of countless children.
Born on February 27, 1977 in Taipei, in Xiantao City, Hubei Province, Fan Xiaoxuan fell to the ground to a 17-year-old mother, an anonymous female singer who occasionally sang in bars.
Fan Xiaoxuan's father also left the family decisively because of his disagreement with his mother when he was two years old, coupled with a serious problem of son preference in his heart.
After leaving home, my father didn't mention alimony and didn't even come back to see it.
Fan Mu, who raised her children alone, did not fall into a rage, she took her daughter to stay at her grandmother's house, while she worked harder to make money by going back and forth in the bar, just to create good living conditions for her daughter in the future.
Perhaps because she grew up in a single-parent family, coupled with the appearance of her mother running desperately for herself, Fan Xiaoxuan has been particularly distressed about her mother since she was a child.
It is said that Wangzi Jackie Chan hopes that the female Chengfeng, who is interested in singing, is determined to train Fan Xiaoxuan to become a singer, so in Fan Xiaoxuan's spare time is full of piano, flute and other music lessons, mostly influenced by her mother, Fan Xiaoyan is full of energy every time she goes to extracurricular classes.
Fan Xiaoxuan himself also revealed a long time later that when she was a child, there were countless nights when her mother came home after finishing her homework for a day, and the two would accompany them to listen to classical, rock, jazz, and soothe their tired hearts with music.
Fan Xiaoxuan, who looked like an elf since childhood, was caught by a star scout at the age of 14 and filmed the first advertisement in his life.
This advertisement only brings part of the income to the family, and it does not stir up any splash for Fan Xiaoxuan's future path.
The extraordinary fate was to take care of her in 1996, because Fan Xiaoxuan's temperament at that time was very cute, and for her image brokerage company, she transformed into a "little witch" with a lot of spirit.
During the period of becoming a "little witch", Fan Xiaoxuan sang the theme songs of the Chinese versions of anime such as "Doraemon" and "Cherry Pills", and several subsequent releases of "I Love Bathing", "Brushing Teeth Song", "Health Song", etc., are even more popular.
In 1998, Fan Xiaoxuan took "Health Song" to the Spring Festival Gala, once the program was broadcast, countless people were brainwashed by this cute and lively melody, and in almost all kindergartens/primary schools in the coming year, there were children who followed the rhythm of this song.
At this point, Fan Xiaoxuan has become the children's favorite little witch sister in the children's song market.
In order to cater to the identity of the "little witch", Fan Xiaoxuan always dressed up exaggerated when she went on stage, and the movements and tone of her speech were quite similar to performing.
They all said that their names should be early, but Fan Xiaoxuan, who became famous at a young age, did not like such a self more and more, obviously he did have a personality like the title of a witch in his bones, and how to be red after his own behavior, clothing, and demeanor had to be carefully considered.
As she became more and more intolerant of the appearance of the agency's packaging, at first Fan Xiaoxuan would communicate with the company, telling people that she no longer wanted to wear a princess dress with lace trim, nor did she want to be a milky and milky girl.
But the commercial value brought to her by the "Little Witch" people at that time was too high, and the company was firmly opposed to her opinion, because they believed that if they jumped out of this comfort zone, the applause and flowers would also leave.
After 2000, Fan Xiaoxuan was not willing to be just a child idol, and wanted to transform from a lively and cute style to a mature and neutral rock punk style.
However, the punk image is not recognized by the outside world, but the 20-year-old Fan Xiaoxuan does not understand the reasoning for this, she does not understand the market demand, nor does she understand why she has to act in front of the camera according to the market demand.
Just feel that if a person can't live in a happy way, then it should change, she wants to be her true self.
So the "little witch" sister in the eyes of the children changed her appearance, and at the peak of her popularity, Fan Xiaoxuan cut off a long hair, and in the eyes of the elders, tattoos, lip rings, and other things that were related to rebellion, she almost did it all over again.
Fan Xiaoxuan's approach made many fans who originally loved her incomprehensible, and at this time, she had decided that she would not suppress herself in her future life, she once said: "A person, who obviously has a volcano in his heart, but wants to play a little girl who sells matches."
Seeing that Fan Xiaoxuan was getting farther and farther away from the road of deviance, fans also avoided her, and after the transformation, Fan Xiaoxuan's album released the creative album "Darling", and the sales were pitifully small.
Seeing that the person who once looked like the sister of the student next door turned into a rebellious girl, many parents will also tell their children not to listen to the songs of "bad girls" in the future, and more media commented that she played a good hand of cards.
However, Fan Xiaoxuan said: "This album has made me really myself again." ”
Fan Xiaoxuan, who is in a decline in popularity and insulted by the public, has received a notice from the company that she wants to put on the puff sleeved princess dress again to save the situation, but she has tasted the joy of being herself, and no one can give up like this.
So she stubbornly followed suit to create albums such as "Peerless Celebrity" and "Fu Shou Lu Sequence", but Fan Xiaoxuan, who had lost the "people's heart", failed to retain fans through her favorite music, but let her suffer more insults and questions.
These sounds caused Fan Xiaoxuan to drop 10 kilograms in weight at that time, and made her fall into depression, depression followed her for three years, during which she had countless auditory hallucinations, visual hallucinations, and when hallucinations she would see the appearance of a small demon in a trance, which showed that this title was her nightmare.
During this period, Fan Xiaoxuan once admitted that the insults of the outside world, the doubts of the brokerage company, and the expectations of parents are all sources of her pressure.
Since the beginning of depression, Fan Xiaoxuan has avoided going out, and no one has visited. Fan Xiaoxuan, who knew that she was ill at first, would actively take medicine, but during the control of the drug, she found herself feeling empty.
For a person who needs inspiration, less joy and sorrow is just equivalent to a "death" method, so she decided to stop the drug for the sake of creation, but the situation became more serious.
After stopping the drug, she would have self-harm behavior, and the worst one was when she wanted to jump from the 23rd floor to relieve herself, but fortunately her boyfriend at the time desperately hugged her.
This man's name is Zhou Junwei, and like Fan Xiaoxuan, he is also a Singer in Taiwan, and at that time his love for Fan Xiaoxuan was endlessly tolerant, because Fan Xiaoxuan of a single-parent family was eager to be pampered, but because of his rebellious nature, he slowly pushed it away.
Zhou Junwei's personality is very stuffy, when Fan Xiaoxuan takes him to play with his friends, Zhou Junwei always has a stinky face to other people, making everyone around him think that he hates himself, but as long as Fan Xiaoxuan appears in Zhou Junwei's sight, Zhou Junwei seems to have become a young man with a young man who has just opened his heart.
Xiao S once broke the news on the show: Fan Xiaoxuan is actually a person who is very afraid of cold, especially before going to bed in winter, when she goes into the cold bed, she will even be cold to shiver.
After Zhou Junwei first discovered Fan Xiaoxuan's problem, every time before going to bed in the future, he would use the hot air of the hair dryer to blow the quilt warm, and then let Fan Xiaoxuan lie in the bed.
Fan Xiaoxuan's good girlfriend Aya also said, "Zhou Junwei is like her servant."
Zhou Junwei, who pays attention to Fan Xiaoxuan all the time, refuses all his work when his lover is sick, puts away all sharp objects when he is at home, and then just stays quietly with Fan Xiaoxuan.
At the same time, he will also privately study psychology books, because he wants Fan Xiaoxuan to get better quickly.
A long time later, when Fan Xiaoxuan talked about the days full of gloom, her eyes were always prone to a little tears, she said: "Other boyfriends may just mean to coax the meaning, but he is doing it very dutifully", so "when my friends are very tired, when my boyfriend is more tired".
Fan Xiaoxuan is actually a person who does not like to cause trouble to others.
After her depression improved, she broke up with Zhou Junwei: "I don't want to be your trouble, you are so good to me, so good that I feel both sweet and painful." ”
Later, she recorded these gloomy days in her diary and published a collection called "Scribbles", which was full of her inner pain and struggle.
In 2007, at the age of 30, Fan Xiaoxuan, who successfully fought depression, was reborn, and at that time, she still had short hair and exaggerated tattoos on her body, and she was still living in the way she liked.
At the age of 30, she spent money to form her own band, because she found that rock and roll's self-releasing personality was her favorite, so she contacted Taiwanese underground musicians to form a 100% band, and named her independent production company "Grass Fish", when Fan Xiaoxuan was finally able to do her favorite music.
That year, the band released their first album "Breakthrough", and the newly released album sold badly, so she bought it at her own expense, even if it was performed to a few audiences on the stage, she was happy.
This feeling of being alone did not last long, and in 2009, the band released a new album "Naked Son" again, and with a song "Master", Fan Xiaoxuan won the Best Album Producer Award.
This "little witch" who insisted on her original dream finally made a difference in music in the way she liked.
Many people who do not understand Fan Xiaoxuan will wonder how the pure little girl in front of the camera became a rock "female devil"? But the person who asked the question forgot that from the very beginning, the persona of the pure little girl was not the path that Fan Xiaoxuan chose for herself.
Last year, Fan Xiaoxuan, who is 41 years old, had this in her conversation with her good girlfriend Aya in the show "Strange Life":
Fan Xiaoxuan: "I am now in a state of semi-withdrawal from the entertainment industry. ”
Aya: "You are so talented and beautiful, you should come out and be seen by more people."
Fan Xiaoxuan: "I don't want to be seen."
Indeed, Fan Xiaoxuan, who successfully transformed after forming a band to get results, has gradually fallen silent in the entertainment industry, even if some songs are occasionally only niche songs, without hype and marketing.
When asked by reporters on the show why she appeared less and less in front of the public, Fan Xiaoxuan replied.
"I know that doing concerts like this loses a lot of fans, but I want people who like me and my music, not that image. What makes me happy is that at least someone can understand it, someone will like it, then I feel that there is companionship along the way, I will cherish them, that has surpassed music. ”
Perhaps Fan Xiaoxuan, who started rock music from the beginning, has already figured it out, even if she no longer has shouts and flowers, as long as there is a place to enjoy music.
From the time she aspired to get rid of her identity as a "little witch", the label on her that did not like to be controlled was revealed.
Fan Xiaoxuan, who is already 42 years old, also understands that her happiness should not disappear because she is not understood, and now she only needs to be the person who does what she wants, even if only three or two confidants are enough.
The reporter also asked Fan Xiaoxuan: "Do you regret the transformation?"
Fan Xiaoxuan said: "I am just back on the road I should go."
From the well-behaved girl who had an aura in her childhood, to the little witch who everyone criticized during her fame; from the rebellious and bad girl in the eyes of people during depression, to being herself in the year of not being confused.
Fan Xiaoxuan experienced the ups and downs of life and finally reconciled with her inner self.