Brother Dr. Doctor, why are you afraid of your homeland?
(Author Guo Xiaotu, Postdoctoral Fellow in Literature, East China Normal University)
preface:
A recent article titled "A PhD Student's Homecoming Diary" went viral, sparking millions of related discussions overnight. My family and I talked about the heated discussion caused by my brother-in-law's article, saying that I did not agree with his views and mentality. My family said, you must not speak, otherwise it is not good for you, because his article has resonated with emotions, if you resonate with this resonance, even if what you say is reasonable, it will become the target of public criticism, you are looking for scolding, his article has attracted so much attention, it shows his value.
I said, what is the logic of this, how can the attention of the article indicate the value? Then if I write an article like "Female Doctors are not as economically effective as chickens", it will also attract attention, do you believe it?
His return diary is also to show his psychological pain to others, and then attract onlookers. It is the same logic as the female doctor who wrote "The economic benefits of female doctors are not as good as chickens" to attract attention. Parentheses: "Female Doctor Realm Benefits Are Not as Good as Chickens" I have not yet planned to write, if you have to provoke me, saying that there is value in paying attention, then I can write countless articles with such gimmicks, hype, who does not understand.
The countryside has mutated, feelings have been lost, knowledge and academic qualifications are worthless, and modern civilization is guilty. What an old-fashioned idea. The title of the article does not have the words "a doctor" as a label, if it is a scavenger, a migrant worker returning to his hometown diary, it is estimated that no one will read it.
Just like Yu Xiuhua wrote the first crossing of most of China to sleep with you, if it is written by a majestic man, it is playing a rogue, if it is written by a sound woman, it is a broken shoe, but a rural woman with cerebral palsy writes her own dream, so it causes consternation and sympathy.
Therefore, whether the attention is high because of the text content or because of the authorship, it needs to be further pondered.
Back to the main topic, Wang Leiguang, the author of "Diary of Returning home", is my younger brother, he is a very simple and kind person, so I sometimes bully him. Although he has always called me a sister, according to his age he is older than me, so this article ridicules him as a doctor brother, and recently the circle of friends is the relevant news of this article, I found that the author is him.
I read the whole article carefully, and as always, I couldn't help but argue with him. I'll start by teasing him for being pedantic. Because it's not the first time I've said that about him.
The first time he teased him for being pedantic, he also said that he was injured internally, but in fact, he first ridiculed me. Because the mentor led us to do cultural industry projects in the East China Sea together, I was attracted by the customs and customs next to me during the investigation, and I looked at it twice, and I ended up behind. Originally, the tutor did not find that there was a dispensable piglet missing, and I had a fluke mentality, thinking that I could return to the team in time before the tutor found out. Who knew that some classmates had tipped off, and the tutor was displeased, and I fell into the abyss of embarrassment. After returning from the investigation, my brother Wang Leiguang immediately wrote a diary and posted it on the Internet, using a no humorous penmanship to satirize the fall of his sister and me.
I immediately replied to an article that satirized the poor sourness of literary and artistic youth and the lack of humor of pedantic men.
So we pinched each other. I am such a person who is not very serious in everything, and he is such a person who is too serious in everything, of course, whoever is serious will lose. But it did not affect the feelings, and later they would still care about each other. However, I have never made a secret of his "pedantic" and pretentious idealistic feelings, and I know that he will not really be angry with me.
After all, people who love ideals and truths will respect the right of others to argue for ideals and truths. And I am exactly the kind of person who loves his teacher and disciple, and loves the truth even more.
When I mentioned his satire on my fall, I wanted to say that he had always had the habit of keeping a diary, and unfortunately I did not escape his diary. It is precisely because he is accustomed to keeping a diary that he has become famous overnight today. Fulfilling the words of our teacher, perseverance will make a difference. He is more obedient than me, so he "became" today.
In fact, he did not have the romantic poetry and idealistic feelings he expressed, and his heart was much heavier than that of ordinary people. Otherwise, a classmate younger than him will fall behind, and look at it with an aesthetic, joke, and humorous eye, which is just an interesting thing. He was sarcastic, righteous and sarcastic, just like Lu Xun did with that person, fortunately I was stronger in my heart, and I was not ridiculed.
He lived too seriously, and his mentality was too heavy. So much so that his writing is the same, which always makes people feel bitter and vengeful. It seems to pursue ideals, but in fact, it is impossible to take the real people and things lightly, and it is impossible to maintain a humorous attitude.
People who have read this "Homecoming Diary" may have found that people who are bitter and vengeful can't get used to seeing others "quieter" on the train, and others "playing electronic products" or "sleeping", he feels abnormal. People must be as loud and noisy as the "low-level people" he hangs on his lips, and he feels that he has the "atmosphere of human life". The situation of the slow train carriages that are crowded, noisy, and smelly with urine and sweat is the atmosphere of life that you yearn for, not the atmosphere that everyone yearns for. Don't take the imagination that has been glorified by yourself as someone else's ideal.
When his childhood friends talked about getting off the car and working in the group, he felt that he was "showing off". You say how tired this child should be!
Because of the long-term embarrassment and grief of Wenqing's life and persistent academic thinking, he has been unable to respond to the pluralistic trends of the times and the multiple ways of human existence with a relaxed and natural mentality.
He praised the "underclass" as healthier and more optimistic than those of other classes, and gave an idealist aesthetic reason: "If you can't live outside, there is still a home to retreat." The subtext is that people from other classes have no home to retreat from, so they are not healthy or optimistic, and his "bottom people" instantly find a sense of superiority. Psychology believes that even if others do not discriminate at all, people with inferiority psychology always try to seek self-confidence and superiority in the absence of superiority.
He praised the "stable relationship" maintained by the older generation in the countryside and criticized the "separation" between the new generation. Isn't this a positive consequence of freedom and liberation? People are no longer bound by heavy and complex networks. You can choose to be bound, others can choose freedom, you can go hand in hand, why do you have to praise one choice and disparage the other?
Because of the lack of tolerance and free spirit, the lack of tolerance for heterogeneity, the old live in their own logic, the young age has become like a conservative old man, can not be accustomed to the free and pluralistic choices of young people, can not use the attitude of appreciation to meet the new situation.
For example, in the text, he accused the younger generation of people who rushed to see each other like coping and did not "exchange feelings" with him. Do you want people to communicate with you? You are a self-styled high-level doctoral elite, people are a group of "low-level people" that you named to go out to work and survive, how much affection do people have with you? Is it your wishful thinking feelings, you think that your love for others is deep, people don't know what to do, you have to force people to create some feelings out, see you tearfully hugging each other, pouring out your heartfelt feelings? You're a lyrical work read a lot, big brother!
Lei Guang is also very worried that after the death of the older generation, the "new generation of ties" will be broken. I really don't understand what this is so worrying. Let the broken ones and let the departments tie them, this is the spirit of democracy and freedom that goes with the flow!
The biggest advantage that the city gives to people is that people can choose to contact the people they want to contact, and the people they don't want to see don't have to see. Unlike the countryside, which does not look up and does not look down, there is something wrong with the family, and in an instant, the whole village rushes to see the liveliness, and they can't stop it and hide it. There are no problems, the seven aunts and eight aunts all come to "exchange feelings" with you, and they are overwhelmed, and there is no personal space or free will. Why don't you mention the shackles and confinements formed by the various inferior roots in the countryside, the oppression and bondage of people by bad habits and stereotypes and stereotypes, and the isolation and all kinds of inconvenience? Clean tap water is not available, and quality-assured infant formula cannot be bought. Why are all the babies in backward villages who are poisoned by poisoned milk powder? Have you thought about it? Even some backward villages refuse to counterfeit and shoddy conscience supermarkets can not find one, the toilet does not have a sewer pipe, directly into the well water, and then brought up a family to eat and drink, the head snake, the hooligan bullying the good people, personal safety can not be guaranteed, so and so on, you are so well versed in the countryside, will not turn a blind eye to these, right?
Migrant workers are difficult to reunite with their families in order to survive, and even difficult to send the elderly to the end, which is attributed to "modern life is a life that makes people's hearts harden." "This is god's logic. In the unmodern times, because of the lack of materials and the underdevelopment of transportation, people not only have the tragedy of not being able to reunite, but even the tragedy of people eating people and changing children. Is this tragic story of poverty and poverty only produced in modern society? How can the development of modern society, economy, science and technology, precisely to solve these problems of material scarcity, be described by you as the root cause of all life tragedies? In ancient times, the story of inconvenient transportation and uprooting from home was erased by you like this?
Then there is no need to develop the economy, no need for scientific and technological progress, no need for urban civilization, and you will return to your ideal Garden of Eden? People are kind, friendly, and love each other?
May I ask, Brother Doctor, your ideal rural primitive life is so beautiful, why don't you go back to your homeland? Why do you want to come to the metropolis? And whether you will return to watch over your homeland in the future, we will all wait and see, you must not be divided in words and deeds!
While nostalgic for the various resources of the metropolis, he is reluctant to go back to dedicate his blood and talents, but he beautifies the places where he is unwilling to go back, and even advocates that others return to the imaginary and imaginary "beautiful homeland".
The "community" of rural tradition has disappeared, and you regret it to the extreme? Is your so-called traditional community imposed on people by rural land relations, or is it the result of people's free will? If it is really what people want, people will naturally maintain the community they need, choose the same kind of people and live together, only those who do not have the conditions to choose will have to live against their own will.
The theme of this era was "the free association of free men", and like-minded people were much of much higher quality and more free than the community bound by rural principles and rural relations.
Another point in the article is that "the turbulent life of modern society" has caused rural youth to find it difficult to get a wife and early marriage and early childbearing and divorce. What is a "turbulent life"? Do you mean to distribute according to needs, and each rural youth is assigned a satisfactory wife, so that it is more stable, so as not to be "turbulent"? I don't understand why you are so afraid of change and flow, afraid that others have the right to choose freely. Turbulence is right, holding people down, trapping, fixing, forcing people to stay motionless is the most terrifying and terrifying!
Rural youth are not easy to find wives and are not what we "doctoral elite intellectuals" can solve, excellent genes have the right to attract the opposite sex and reproduce, this is the universal law of the biological world, want to courtship, want to reproduce to make themselves excellent! Do you want to go back to the ideal planning era, where the organization gives you an equal distribution of an ideal spouse? Why are species that have lost the opportunity to mate and reproduce because their conditions are too poor to be the product of modern society? This is a natural phenomenon that has existed for hundreds of millions of years, has it never been seen in biological history, human history, history?
The psychological description of the comparison between rural people in the car and house in the article seems to be very just and reasonable, but it is actually another kind of discrimination against the "bottom people". You are a person of other classes, how many cars and houses you buy, are taken for granted, you have money and you are willful. If you are a "low-level person" and you still want to buy a car and a house, you are compared and vain, and you deserve to be criticized and ridiculed. So what is wrong is not that you like cars and houses, but that your identity determines that you are not qualified to like these, even if you become an upstart, you are also a low-level person, you do not deserve to have these, is this logic?
The title of the last paragraph tells the key truth of this article: "The powerlessness of knowledge (molecules)".
Having said all this, it is not that your broom-cherished "knowledge" and doctoral elite status have not been exchanged for money, and you have not found a sense of superiority, so it is not pleasing to the eye. If in the 80s, everyone's general culture was low, and the girls were chasing after each other who wanted to marry Wenqing, and wrote a few broken sentences to become literary stars, you would have begun to praise the great ideal era.
There is such a realistic sigh in the text: "Almost every post-80s college student in rural areas comes to college at the expense of the happiness of the whole family." But most of them, after graduation, have no hope of recovering their costs, but let the elderly parents continue to be trapped. "Literary and cultural undertakings have always belonged to the spiritual nobility, and since they are not aristocrats, but they have to choose the cause of the nobility, they can only bear a very high price. If you only consider the level of "recovering costs" and making a profit, it can only be said that you invest in the wrong direction, every investment is risky, and those who have become upstart workers who are despised by us may have a strategy and vision in investment. Besides, if you don't study, you invest in other industries, and you are guaranteed to recover your costs?
The article concludes: "Childhood friends are all homecoming, and you can't even solve your own problems... No one believes in your knowledge." A person cannot have both reputation and money, both spiritual belief and material wealth, both to enjoy beauty and glory, and let people praise you for your purity and holiness, and you stand high on the clouds, and a person cannot take advantage of all the benefits. Since we have chosen to be intellectuals who are clean and miserable, why should we envy others for "returning to their hometowns" and others for "solving their personal problems.". While looking down on others, sarcastically criticizing others, and at the same time envying and hating, and then self-pity and self-doubt, it is easy to split.
Everyone has a set of life philosophy system, as long as this psychological system does not conflict, does not split, healthy operation, and comfortable. What is feared is division and imbalance. Since you insist on your own ideals and beliefs, why should you care about whether others believe them or not?
Your "eagerness" and "timidity" to go home actually stems from your lack of confidence and firmness. Your self-esteem and sense of superiority, your inferiority and self-doubt collide with each other. Do you think that if you return home as a doctoral student, you should be honored to return to your hometown, but unfortunately, others have their own philosophy system of life, and others may feel that it is glory to drive a luxury private car back to their hometown, and he also has the right to think so, right?
If others do not doubt their material beliefs, how can you begin to doubt your own spiritual beliefs? Don't you believe in ideals that nobody's cars and tickets are hard? Society does need to reflect, and everyone also needs to reflect on themselves and adjust their internal psychological system in order not to lose inner harmony due to external changes.
In fact, I am also a doctor, I am still a postdoc, I feel the powerlessness of knowledge and academic qualifications more than you, but I will often reflect on myself, feeling that as long as the society becomes more democratic, free, rich, healthy and reasonable, it is not a pity to sacrifice myself. Moreover, such a complex problem cannot be solved by beautifying the traditional countryside and criticizing modern civilization.
I can proudly say today that my salary as a postdoc is not as good as a chicken, but I am not inferior, nor do I despise others, I am not confused in the slightest, and I do not doubt whether the path I have chosen is wrong.
And if I want to be a chicken, I can make a chicken at any time, but the chicken wants to be a postdoc, but may not be able to do a postdoc, this is my advantage Ha, others can do things I can do, I can do things others may not do, this is not worthy of pride?
So, master and disciple, be proud of yourself, believe in our own beliefs, why should we care about whether others believe them or not. Including me, to borrow Lu Qi's famous quote, you didn't say anything to me.