Zhou Puyuan: He just remembers himself who has been gilded with sadness

"Thunderstorm" has always been very shocking to read, and that warm and depressing, romantic and pathetic text temperament can always envelop me again and again. Every time I read it, I was still a little breathless.

The core of this tragic story that happened in a day is always churning back and forth in my heart.

In fact, this is a family tsunami that affected thirty years caused by the protagonist, the original Zhou family's first love.

Zhou Puyuan has a lot of negative labels, but I always feel that he is just a poor person living in stubborn memories.

When he appeared in the story, he was already a dignified, majestic and solemn Supreme Ruler of the Zhou Family, and also the most old-fashioned and boring Zhou Laoye, but I always wanted to grab out some of the looking back of the years from the details of the text, so that he could seamlessly paste and restore it.

He had three relationships, three women.

The first one, Mei Shuping.

The beautiful maid fell in love with the amorous rich young master and had the treatment of a hostess, her small photo was placed on the cabinet, she lived with him in his Zhou Mansion and gave birth to two children, in the end, he still failed to resist the huge family pressure, Shi Ping held the child and was driven out of the Zhou Mansion and committed suicide by jumping into the river.

This was the frozen love in the memory of the young master of the Zhou family.

The second, is a woman without a name.

This is a woman who is the opposite of the Zhou family, who drove away The Waiter Ping in order to marry her, but she disappeared the fastest, because she was depressed by the bridegroom when she married? Or is it because the body is really sick and weak? Perhaps both, there is no explanation in the story, but she has the least sense of existence in this ups and downs story, has no name and no children, and innocently pays for Zhou Puyuan's amorous and thin feelings.

This was the bondage marriage before Zhou Gongzi grew up to become Zhou Laoye.

The third is the prosperity.

This is a young romantic woman who married with enthusiasm, but she fell into the ice cave. Extrapolating, she was 17 or 8 years old when she married, but Zhou Puyuan was nearly 40 years old at the time, and his life dictionary no longer placed the position of love, but just mechanically married a young and beautiful woman and placed it at home as a prop for the scene, as for whether this prop has emotions and needs, it is not in his scope of attention.

This is the almsgiving emotion after becoming Mr. Zhou.

He did not love the woman who had no name and was equivalent to his family lineage, nor did he love the young girl who longed for love, and their appearance was a family task at that time, and the other was a later Zhou family obligation.

So, by analogy, is Old Master Zhou the man who loves Shi Ping the most in his life?

No, of course not, he was just loving himself and the silent waiter in his memory, and when the real waiter came to his side, he was eager for her to disappear quickly.

He lay cowardly and guilty in his memories, not so much love as an imposition of moral remembrance of the love he could not grasp, and at the same time, remembering the adolescent self of his youth who stood in the wind and shed tears for the robe he loved.

He used the double cruelty of years and memories to circle a good-looking tombstone for his love, and then continued to be his own sitting, majestic and solemn Old Master Zhou.

He loves Mei Shuping in his memory, and he also added a self-cast aura to her: "Miss Of the Young Rules of the Mei Family", which is the genuine lady he single-handedly created, almost fake and real, and it is definitely not Lu Ma, who is now married to the next person.

In fact, I think that among the three women, the miss without a name is the loneliest lily flower, and Qingling is lonely and lonely in the Zhou family, and no one remembers it.

The flourishing should be the warmest red rose, but in the end itself withered into a touch of unwilling mosquito blood, lonely hanging on the door lintel of the Zhou family, nailed with the nails of the Zhou family order, and never turned over.

And Lu Mama was nothing, she was just one of the most stubborn memories of Old Master Zhou. I think that if she never appears again in this story, then it is even more worthy of congratulations - she will always be enshrined on the tip of Zhou Puyuan's heart, and will continue to be like this for generations.

I often think of Scarlett's last monologue in "Gone with the Wind":

"I knit my dreams into a garment, and in the afterglow of the setting sun, Vichy came on horseback, and he was so handsome. So I put this dress on his body, and from then on I fell in love with Vichy, who was wearing this dress, and after more than ten years of love, I realized that I didn't love Vichy, but the dream dress..."

The clothes of this dream are the blind box and barrier of this kind of love.

So, how can Zhou Puyuan love Be Mei Shuping? He was certainly not Scarlett, he was more of a man's narcissism and indifference, he loved himself in the original time, and Miss Mei, who happened to exist at that time.