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The turbulent Qinhuai River
Smoke cage cold water moon cage sand, night berth QinHuai near the restaurant.
The merchant girl did not know the hatred of the country, and sang the backyard flowers across the river.
The merchant girl is a prostitute who sells singing, laughing, and selling her art on the Qinhuai River. They do not know the regrets and sufferings of the destruction of the country and the death of the family, and still sing the love songs of you and me in the Song and Swallow Dance. Maybe it's not that you don't know, but what about knowing? The country is broken, the family is dead, and if you are panting, you will still be alive. To live, you have to forget the hatred of the country and sing "Backyard Flowers".
Jinling Qinhuai, from the Tang Dynasty to the Ming Dynasty, has not changed for more than a thousand years. During the day, it is a water town in Jiangnan, a small family jasper; at night, it turns into a watery Qin lou Chu Pavilion, scratching its head and making gestures.
There are feelings and desires; there are lovesick and determination; there are talented people who are deeply affectionate, and there are men and women who are ruthless; there are beautiful people who are magnificent, and there are prodigal sons who are frivolous and sinking. Contradictions are perfectly and harmoniously assembled on the Qinhuai River, just as the Qinhuai River has two sources, one is the Buddhist holy land jurong Baohua Mountain, and the other is the Rouge River.
Complete polarity, but finally blended together, I have you, you have me. The biggest contradiction is the greatest harmony, and the charm is endless.
By 1642, the Ming Dynasty was terminally ill and did not even have the opportunity to return to the light. But there was a beautiful person born on the banks of the Qinhuai River.
The combination of chaotic world, beauty, Qinhuai River, mysterious and exciting, doomed her to an extraordinary life.
She is Dong Xiaowan.
"This sister I've seen before"
Dong Xiaowan's name is Dong Bai, the word Xiaowan. One of Qin Huai's Eight Yans.
To talk about Dong Xiaowan, we can't help but first talk about taking the risk of breaking new frontiers. Born in a powerful family, he is talented and beautiful, and is one of the four princes who are famous in the late Ming Dynasty. Friends praised him for his "posture in the sky, clear in the skin", and gave him the elegant title of "East Sea Show Shadow". According to his friends, all the women who had seen the invasion of xinjiang were unwilling to marry the powerful family as a proper wife, but only willing to marry him as a concubine.
Rich, handsome, talented, in the future Dong Xiaowan loved him so humble that it was as low as Zhang Ailing said, which can be understood.
At the end of the Ming Dynasty, the 28-year-old ventured to Jinling for a scientific examination, and did not obtain a meritorious name, but it did not affect him to call friends to find flowers and willows, and to find joy.
Where to find the willow? Where is the joy? Nature is the Qinhuai River.
A friend who accompanied him told him that there was a prostitute surnamed Dong, "the crown of talent." "Having seen the great world, it is natural not easy to believe it. It just can't stand the repeated tease of friends, anyway, everywhere is to have fun, change a house, change people.
He decided to meet and meet this peerless celestial being whom everyone praised.
Unfortunately, it didn't happen. Although Dong Xiaowan was famous for a while, she personally did not enjoy all this. But where men and women are clustered, staggered, and playful, they must be disgusted and whisk their sleeves away. What she likes is a pure, elegant hideaway. Being in the red dust is nothing more than creating and manipulating people.
When he came to Suzhou, Dong Xiaowan had already gone to Suzhou, where he was at ease in a bamboo hedge hut by a small river, not asking about the world. This in turn aroused the interest of venturing into Xinjiang, and he decided to go to Suzhou.
When he ventured to Suzhou, Dong Xiaowan accompanied the guests to play Dongting Lake and did not return.
Five times without coincidence, it stirred the heartstrings of the frontier more and more.
Men are like that, they don't get it, and they always exude endless charm. Too active to satisfy their desire to conquer, they do not cherish.
If Dong Xiaowan understood this truth, perhaps he would not have loved so humblely in the future. Unfortunately, I understand the reason, but when I encounter it, I will always throw myself in. This is Dong Xiaowan's greatness, but also her tragedy.
It is also the greatness of the women in the world, the tragedy of the women in the world.
Mao Peijiang made one last attempt the night before leaving Suzhou.
This time Dong Xiaowan returned, but he was drunk.
Since it is to open the door to do business, there is no reason for guests to eat the closed door soup, not to mention that the other party is a well-known venture, a dream lover that thousands of young girls can't ask for. Dong Xiaowan, who was half drunk and half awake, was supported by Ya Gui and saw that he had ventured to break through the border under the Qu Orchid Flower.
Dong Xiaowan, who had seen Him in the past, had rosy cheeks and a face of spring between Ruoyin and Ruoxian; he was like a willow, between standing steady and unstable; looking around, between sleeping and waking up. Dong Xiaowan didn't say a word, and he only knew how to look back at Dong Xiaowan's mother and exclaimed, "Oh my God! OMG! ”
He came to visit Xinjiang, and Dong Xiaowan had already heard about it. The first meeting between the two people is silent, much like the lyrics in "Peony Pavilion": "Where have we met, we look at each other, and there is no word about whether the benefits of meeting each other earlier." It is also like Bao Dai's first meeting in "Dream of the Red Chamber": "I have seen this sister before." ”
The beauty is intentional, and the prodigal son is ruthless
We met again, but it was already three years later.
In these three years, Dong Xiaowan traveled around the mountains and rivers, risking the frontier but under the influence of his friends, he met another world-class beauty and made a marriage contract. This person was Chen Yuanyuan, who was also one of the eight Yans of Qin Huai and stirred up the storms of the late Ming Dynasty.
Mao Peijiang described Chen Yuanyuan in this way: "Like a cloud coming out of the clouds, like a bead on a plate, people want to die." "A good one wanted to die, so he directly made a marriage contract." It's just a pity that Chen Yuanyuan's reputation is outstanding, his fate is uncertain, he was robbed before he got married, and the marriage contract with the risky frontier naturally became an illusion.
In order to catch up with the exam, he came to Jinling again. Originally, I was determined to get it, but I didn't fulfill people's wishes, and I just heard the news that Chen Yuanyuan was robbed, and my depression was difficult to extend. He was on a boating trip, but inadvertently passed by Dong Xiaowan's residence.
Mao Peijiang remembered the wonderful woman he saw three years ago, and he forgot About Chen Yuanyuan, who wanted to die. For a moment, he "couldn't help but be ecstatic" and stopped the ship to visit.
However, at this time, Dong Xiaowan was already dying. Also among the Eight Yans, Chen Yuanyuan was kidnapped, and Dong Xiaowan was not spared. Serious illness, coupled with the loss of his mother, at this time Dong Xiaowan has been for eighteen days without staining his teeth, closing the door to thank guests, just waiting for the incense to disappear.
However, he was paranoid and obsessive. No matter how much others tried to persuade him, he just knocked on the door. After three times, someone finally came to open the door. Dong Xiaowan slept in the sickbed and asked weakly, "Who?" ”
Mao Peijiang replied, "Three years ago, you were half drunk and half awake, and you saw someone under the Qu Orchid Flower. ”
Dong Xiaowan remembered the adventurous frontier and had mixed feelings for a while: "Although we have only seen it once." My mother said that you are a rare good person, and it is a pity that I did not spend a long time with you. Now my mother has just died, and when I see you, I think of my mother. ”
The two of them chatted in front of the bed. Unconsciously, it was already the middle of the night. Dong Xiaowan suddenly said to Mao Peijiang, "In the past eighteen days, I can't eat or sleep, I was originally a person who was about to die. When I saw you today, I felt refreshed. You saved my life, how can I not repay? At this moment, I am committed to myself and will never leave. I hope you don't shirk it. ”
Dong Xiaowan's directness and frankness frightened the frontier. He had no choice but to say, "Where in the world is there such a deal?" You've only seen me twice, last time you were drunk, and this time you were sick and confused. Before I knew it, it was too hasty to give in to me easily. He immediately hurriedly resigned on the grounds that he still had to rush to Xiangfan to see his father the next day.
Originally, Dong Xiaowan was dying, and if he had stopped taking the risk of breaking the frontier, everything would not have happened. But he was obsessed.
Don't think that he has a deep love affair, but he is just thinking about that side of three years ago. All men can give up their lives for a sexual encounter. But when women get serious and want to give up their lives and forget about this life, all the men are instigated again, and they just want to run away.
I was ready to sneak away like this. Friends who have good things say that Dong Xiao is like this, and it is really not good to live up to it. He had to resign.
Before the boat had docked, he saw dong Xiaowan already dressed in a beautiful costume, standing in front of the upstairs window, looking at the river in a daze. As soon as he saw the ship of the invasion of Xinjiang docked, he ran all the way downstairs, ran to the ship, and told the ship indisputably: "I am ready." Let me give you a ride. ”
This gift is twenty-seven days. Every day, He said the same thing to Dong Xiaowan: "You go back." ”
It wasn't until Zhenjiang that Dong Xiaowan said, "My determination to marry you is like a mighty river flowing eastward, vowing never to go back." "I'll send you" became "I'm going to go home with you."
He didn't know what to do for a while, so he had to tear his face and tell the truth: "I'm busy with scientific research now, and I don't have time to think about our affairs." My father has been an official outside for many years, and the family is supported by my mother alone, and I have not fulfilled my filial piety, and now I have to go back to help take care of the housework. Moreover, you owe so much money to so many people in Suzhou, and you are a prostitute who has registered in Jinling. These things must be considered in the long run. ”
Meritorious name and filial piety are all excuses, Dong Xiaowan owes too much debt, and it takes a large amount of silver to redeem himself, which is the true feeling. Dong Xiaowanmei is beautiful, but whether to spend such a large amount of money for her is very hesitant to venture out of Xinjiang.
Such a clear rejection did not make Dong Xiaowan flinch. He had no choice but to make a wish and say, "When I go to Jinling in the summer to take the exam, I will come to you." ”
Cruelly refusing to add a blank check to the coaxing, Dong Xiaowan hid his face and cried, saying goodbye. Relieved, he breathed a sigh of relief.
When you love, men are the most irrational animals, rushing to the crown and getting angry, fame and fortune, all of which are abandoned like grass and mustard. When he does not love, men are like the most shrewd businessmen, and they will fight for everything and never make a loss-making business.
From beginning to end, He only regarded Dong Xiaowan as one of the countless sexual encounters in his adult life. Dong Xiaowan, who has been in the Wind Moon Place since childhood, naturally understands. It's like a moth throwing itself into a raging fire, knowing that it will be extinguished, but still unable to extricate itself.
This is love. Sweet and painful, great and humble, noble and dirty, survival and demise, irreconcilable contradictions, seamless harmony, endless charm.
Dong Xiaowan, who returned to Suzhou, was worried that he would forget himself, and could not help but send someone to his home to state once again his determination not to marry him. Dong Xiaowan's messenger was received by His wife Su Shi, who had ventured out of Xinjiang. Although she was virtuous, she suspected that Dong Xiaowan was a liar, and gave ten silver to send the messenger back, and did not give any promises.
Dong Xiaowan's behavior made Mao Peijiang feel more pressure and disgusted. When he went to Jinling in the summer to take the exam, he did not mean to see Dong Xiaowan, and he did not even carry a letter to her.
It was Dong Xiaowan again, who bought a boat from Suzhou to Jinling to find a risky frontier. Unexpectedly, he met a robber on the road, hid in the reeds, and as a result, the ship broke down again, did not eat for three days and three nights, and almost died in the middle of the road.
It was not easy to get to Jinling, and I was afraid of affecting the exam in Xinjiang, so I went to look for him after the exam was over two days later.
Dong Xiaowan risked his life to come, which not only touched Mao Pujiang, but also touched the people around Mao Pujiang, and urged him to accept Dong Xiaowan.
On the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, a group of students feasted for Dong Xiaowan to suppress the shock, and did not reject Dong Xiaowan again.
If you don't forget it, there will be an echo. Originally, the story should have a beautiful and happy ending at this point.
It's a pity to be moved. In the face of reality, moving is always worthless.
He did not go to high school as scheduled, and he was already unhappy. What made him even more embarrassed was that everyone thought that he was Dong Xiaowan's husband, and the creditors came to collect debts one after another, and there was a large amount of redemption fees placed there.
Emotion is touching enough, beauty is seductive enough, but the account is always clear. Once again, he "cold-faced and iron-hearted" rejected Dong Xiaowan and slipped away.
Fortunately, touching is useless for venturing out of the frontier, but it is useful for his friends. At that time, celebrities Qian Qianyi, Liu Ruyi and others came forward to pay off dong Xiaowan's debts, redeemed himself, and also purchased funds for boats and horses, and directly sent Dong Xiaowan to the home of Mao Peijiang.
Low to the dust, it may not be able to blossom
Dong Xiaowan, who married into the impostor family, washed the lead Hua, and the hands that used to play the piano and paint and drink wine have only sprinkled with spun thread embroidery since then, and they have been doing housework for several months.
In the cold winter and hot summer, everyone else sat and ate, and she stood by to serve her mother and original wife. Everyone advised her to sit down and eat together. After only a few bites, he stood respectfully aside, pouring water on the vegetables, more humble than the slaves.
The children born to The original wife of The adventure and the original wife did not have good schoolwork, so she changed articles for them, tutored their homework, and stayed up all night without sleep.
In his spare time, he also accompanied Mao To read books, look at the stars, look at the moon, from poetry and songs to talk about the philosophy of life.
Even The adventure of the frontier also said that the whole family, from the old mother to the slave, no one did not miss her good.
Dong Xiaowan, who was once famous in the world, countless goddesses of the world who were fascinated by the wind and talent, just like haoyue was in the sky, all the men in the world were just the stars of the arch guard, why was it so humble?
She had to be so humble again.
Dong Xiaowan has a very clear understanding of his fate. "I have such beauty, so much intelligence, even if I just marry a mediocre person, I will feel like a colorful phoenix degenerating into a crow." Besides, what about being a prostitute now? ”
Even the best of the prostitutes. She didn't linger, but tried to get rid of it. And venturing into Xinjiang is definitely the best choice. There is status, there is power, there is talent, there is fame. Only by marrying Mao Pujiang, the people of the world know that dong Xiaowan is no longer a prostitute.
Not only that, but he also understood her. Her talent, her poetry, her everything, can only be understood by venturing out of frontiers. It was hard work for concubines, but it was pleasant. The two prided themselves on being gods and immortals that only in heaven.
Out of the impostor's family, no matter how famous, but also just a prostitute, Dong Xiaowan was uneasy in his heart, so he had to work day and night to seek the value of existence. Communicating with the spirit of Qinser and Ming, who dared to break through the frontier, made her unwilling.
This is not Dong Xiaowan's fault. If you are wrong, you are wrong in that era.
All this, if the Ming Dynasty had not collapsed, if the impostor family was still the original impostor family, it might have been able to be maintained.
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Unfortunately, under the wheel of the times, no one is immune. "Husband and wife are originally the same forest bird, and they fly separately when the great trouble is imminent", not to mention that Dong Xiaowan is only a concubine, not a wife.
Li Zicheng's army destroyed the city of Beijing, shattered the Ming Dynasty's thousands of miles, and also trampled on Dong Xiaowan's humble life.
As a powerful family in the dynasty, the Impostor family had to flee with their families.
Mao Peijiang pulled the old mother in one hand and the original wife in the other, looked at several children, and urged Dong Xiaowan: "You go faster, follow me." I can't keep up with it, and I can't help it. ”
After all the hardships and hardships to escape to the south, he ventured to break through the frontier and said to Dong Xiaowan: "I have no way to flee abroad." Instead of abandoning you in the face of great trouble, it is better to plan now. I have a friend who is sentimental and righteous, and I entrust you to him. If we can see each other again in this life, we will grow old together. You can also find your own way out, don't think of me. ”
Dong Xiaowan replied, "You're right. You have an old mother and a wife and children, all of whom are a hundred times more important than me, and they all depend on you for their lives. I'm going to follow you, which won't help you, and I'll be a liability to you. I'll go with your friend now, and maybe I'll be able to save my life in this chaotic world. I will surely wait to be reunited with you, and if I can't, I will jump into the sea and commit suicide. ”
However, the mother and wife who ventured out of xinjiang were grateful for Dong Xiaowan's goodness and insisted that she stay.
The turbulent and precarious life has caused serious dysentery in The frontier. In the chaotic world, there is a shortage of doctors and medicines, and even if you risk xinjiang, you do not have the money to prolong the doctor's medicine, and you can only wait for death. Fortunately, Dong Xiaowan took care of him incomprehensibly, and he could escape from death by risking the frontier.
In the next two years, He became seriously ill twice, and each time he survived thanks to Dong Xiaowan's care. Mao Peijiang himself also sighed: "If there was no Dong Xiaowan, my life would definitely not be so hard." ”
Dong Xiaowan himself became ill in the turbulent displacement, died young, at the age of 28, and only lived with Mao Pujiang for 9 years.
After Dong Xiaowan's death, he found out that she was good, and couldn't help but sigh: "The blessings of my life have all been enjoyed in these 9 years." "What will I do in this life to repay Xiao Wan?" She is definitely not a woman on earth. Xiao Wan is suddenly dead now. I couldn't figure out if she was dead or if I was dead. ”
After Dong Xiaowan's death, he took the risk of recalling the bits and pieces between the two of them, and wrote the "Ying Mei An Memoirs" with the same name as Shen Fu's "Six Memories of Floating Life". In his own words, the book was written in blood, tears and ink. But it is a pity that at this time, Dong Xiaowan is already dead, physically and mentally destroyed.
"The soldier's hesitation can be taken off." Women are shy, and they cannot be taken off. ”
True love, of course, is somewhat humble. As Zhang Ailing said: "When I met him, she became very low and very low, low to the dust, and flowers bloomed from the dust." ”
It's just low to the dust, and it may not really be able to blossom.
What blossoms is comedy; what turns to dust is tragedy.
Comedy and tragedy are both love.
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