So angry!
#1
The original opening was attracted to Wilde's beautiful and poetic writing, especially the decisive, sharp and decisive temperament revealed in it, and more importantly, the deep recognition of the ideas conveyed in it.
For example, this passage:
"I blame myself when I sit alone in my prison cell in my prison clothes as a disgraced person; I blame myself in the tormented night of tossing and turning and waking up;
During the long monotonous days of pain, I blamed myself.
I blame myself for allowing an unethinkable friendship to dominate my life, a friendship that is not primarily aimed at creating and contemplating beautiful matters. ”
“...... As long as I have you around, I will be inspired and have no ideas. ”
"The real fools are people who lack self-knowledge."
"You should know by now that you're a person who lacks the ability to be alone, right?" Do you know that you are naturally attracted to occupying other people's attention and time? You lack any ability to maintain intellectual focus. ”
At first, he felt very happy, but when he saw that Posey was ill, Wilde took good care of him, and in turn, after Wilde was infected with fever by Posey, Posey fled, completely ignoring it;
Wilde satisfies Posey's high consumption and solves various thorny problems for Posey, but Posey is very mean to Wilde and often angrily in public;
Percy was always moody, wilde chose to forgive again and again, and almost every three-month breakup was compromised by Posey's forgiveness.
#2
When I saw page 40 of the book, I couldn't help but caption:
Make friends to see the character, stop the loss in time, and avoid greater harm.
I began to feel that Wilde himself had a problem, as he himself dissected: cowardly character.
But I have a more vague feeling that he is still obsessed with some things about Posey, so he can't give up, it is his own face of the abyss and does not retreat, not as passive as he says. Or maybe he didn't realize it himself.
My attitude toward Wilde gradually turned slightly unpleasant. Watching the whole story continue to complain like a woman, I can't help but ask in my heart: What are you doing? Friends are your choice, you can also choose to give up!
When you see the last 195 pages, sure enough. Wilde is involved in the resentment of Posey and his father.
Wilde was instigated by Posey to fight his father to the end, and Posey also said that the lawyer's fee would be paid by his family, and in the end, not only did the cost not come out, Wilde was also imprisoned for 2 years and ruined his family. At the same time as bankruptcy, the wife also divorced him, and he did not have custody of his own son.
The worst things in life come and go.
Yes, Wilde was in prison, Posey had not yet come to see him, not even a letter (it was said that the letter had been detained by Robbie), leaving Wilde alone in prison to wash his face with tears.
(Wilde stands on the left and Posey on the right)
Thinking that the matter was over, he could finally "successfully break up and leave Posey" as Wilde wished.
Pity, pity, so to say that "character determines destiny".
After complaining, Wilde began to talk about Christianity, about the fraternity advocated by Christianity, "The only explanation for the suffering of this world is that there is a kind of 'love'.
Then at the end of the article, he naturally transitioned to the fact that he still wanted to meet Posey after he was released from prison, and told Posey to "not be afraid of the past" and "re-understand each other".
He even gave his own value, saying, "You came to me to learn the joy of life and the joy of art." But God seems to have a secret arrangement, and has chosen me to teach you something much more wonderful: the meaning of sadness and its beauty. ”
Fainting, this is the rhythm of compounding again.
Yes, Posey was Wilde's lover and also a man.
#3
The article did not say follow-up, I deliberately went to check it again, and then the two were reunited, but finally for economic reasons (it is said that Robbie broke the economic resources of the two) the two broke up.
Wilde died 3 years after his release from prison, so poor that he couldn't afford a cup of coffee.
Poseidon, who later married and had children, was mentally ill. In his later years, he was imprisoned for defamation of Churchill (Reading Prison, where Wilde had stayed) for 6 months, only to realize that Wilde was the love of his life.
If he hadn't met Posey, if he hadn't been entangled with Posey, perhaps Wilde's life would have been better.
Without meeting Posey, Wilde's career was in full swing, his wealth was considerable, his status was prominent, and his wife and children were all there.
When he met Posey, he was separated from his wife, imprisoned, and fell to his death.
It can be said: dating accidentally ruins a lifetime.
If you change the perspective, from an emotional point of view, if what you want each other is the kind of unforgettable, life and death, entanglement of love, in order to live up to this life, then they can be considered to have done it, and other regardless of status, wealth, and family affection are like smoke clouds, not worth mentioning, can be sacrificed.
If they hold such values, then they can be regarded as uncomplaining and regret-free in this life, and it is enough to confirm their deep love for each other.
Remembering that Zhang Ailingzhi met Hu Lancheng, it was probably unladylike, and then ran away from home, and finally ended up in the end of the apartment that was only discovered a few days after death, which made people sigh.
"From the Depths" is also known as "From the Abyss", and I personally think the latter is very appropriate.
Because it's easy to think of this sentence:
You are staring into the abyss, and the abyss is staring at you.
BTW: Finally, I would like to praise the translator: Liang Yong'an, the translation is rarely fluent.
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