The first year of resuming the college entrance examination is the year that Chen Ni is most sure to be admitted to the university, the brilliant road of life is ahead, and the clarion call for departure has been blown! Perhaps in a few years, she will be the backbone of the country and the successor of the construction of the socialist motherland. She wants to inherit the glorious traditions of her revolutionary ancestors and take up the banner of communism and charge into the battlefield. This is the education she received from an early age and the boat of her ideals. Under the pretext of "failing the political trial", her "admission card" was seized, and she lost her only chance to realize her dream, and her sky collapsed. Just like the moment last year when the great man died, the sky of the whole country collapsed, and everyone was helpless, just like a young child who lost its parents.
Curled up at the top of the hill that night, if the black bear could take her away she was willing, never to fight back. The "heavenly burial" in the novel is like this, the difference is that most of the heavenly burials are large eagles pecking at food, while here are black bears sucking blood, eating meat, and gnawing on bones. Anyway, she was already numb, what was the difference between a black bear and a big eagle? The temperature had dropped below freezing, and earlier her brain had been active and slowly stiffened. She didn't think about it, she couldn't think about it, and just lay like this, waiting for the smell of the black bear, which was the most primitive, the most natural return.
She didn't know exactly how Xiaoyan and Hongbo got her back, but what she remembered was drinking a glass of very good water, which was the sweetest thing she had ever drunk in her life. She also knew that Xiaoyan slept with her that night. Many days later, she learned from Xiaoyan's mouth that "scared me to death", drinking the "ginger brown sugar" water that her father brought back from a meeting in the big city, and the next day Yingying gave her a fever reduction injection, but Xiaoyan said to "keep it secret", so no one knew about that night.
For a long time to come, she rarely spoke, liked to be alone, and preferred to go to the top of the hill, but she would go back to the dormitory, and never wait for the black bear again, because the black bear betrayed her. She often immersed herself in her own thoughts, recalling the piles gathered from the door of the county party committee to the present, scene after scene, like a movie, or like a long novel, replaying again and again.
Finally, a scene of intense replay before her eyes. It was one day shortly after the opening of the highway, and the "female agent" took the initiative, smiled at her, and said, "Chen Ni, come to my house at night, and discuss something with you." She felt strange, and when she met her on the road, she always nodded respectfully, shouted "Good scrivener" and left, without saying a word to her. She is the second in command of the forest farm, and the old man is not the boss in her. I had never seen her participate in labor, and it was impossible to work with a "little one" like Chen Ni, so there was almost no need to contact her except to see her on the stage during the meeting. And no matter how long she talks on stage, Chen Ni will always live in the story of the novel. Even when she was required to speak, it was just an endorsement reading, and endorsement and poetry recitation were her strengths, and did not need to be conceived or drafted. Every meeting is also a regular sitting, and no one knows whether you listen to the lecture or not. I hadn't been to her house for more than two years, and although I knew where she lived and knew her husband and son, I only knew her. What's going on today? What's the matter? She pondered. "Okay, I'll go over after dinner." Chen Ni arrived on time for the appointment. When she arrived at the secretary's house, she was a little restrained, and stood still after greeting everyone in the family. The "female agent" enthusiastically moved the stool for her to do, and poured a cup of hot tea. He said: "Tomorrow a group of young intellectuals will go back to the ancient city for a vacation, so you should also go back and rest for a few days." Chen Ni said: "I just finished my vacation last month, and I won't be my turn until next month." She said, "It's okay, I'll let you take a vacation and you'll take a vacation." Then, chen ni listened carefully, and suddenly the conversation turned and said, "Eh, I heard that your father has implemented the policy and returned to the city, and he is still working in the previous unit!" Okay, that's good...". Chen Ni answered truthfully. She also said: "You see our children are not old, that is malnutrition, alas, really pitiful, adult malnutrition can be counted, the child is too pitiful, do not know what to do?" His father and I are in the forest farm, and my hometown is also in the mountains, and the child is really bitter...". Chen Ni glanced at his son, it was indeed like "salted garlic head", I don't know how old he is, I guess he should be four years old. She saw her glancing at her son and said, "He's five years old and hasn't gone to school, so the children in your city should go to middle school...". Chen Ni didn't know what to say, so she listened quietly, nodding her head from time to time to show her approval. After talking for a while, he said, "You can go back tomorrow and see if you want to find a way to help your child get something nutritious, okay?" Thank you all for our family." Chen Ni said, "Well, then I'll go back tomorrow and find a way, do I want to write a leave slip?" She said, "No, I know." Chen Ni resigned, and the next day she went to the medium-sized tractor with zhiqing to visit her relatives. Someone got in the car and asked: Didn't you go back last month? How to go back again? Chen Ni did not comment on the perfunctory. She thought: What should I think? The child is indeed malnourished, and I should help him. But I myself am malnourished, so who can help me? Alas, the child is important, the child is the flower of the motherland.... There's always a way, go back and talk about it.
When I got home, I realized that my father had really been reinstated and returned to work in important departments. But her father, who had always been cautious, could never have opened the back door for her, even though he held the power of the county's supplies. He has always been afraid to cross the thunder pool half a step, he has often been criticized, and now that he has just resumed his work, how can he do something illegal and disorderly? Chen Ni knew that there was no need to tell her parents about this matter, but what to do? She thought of someone who might be able to help. That person N years ago was his father's subordinate, "Root Red MiaoZheng", has always been in a leadership position, and often helped their family when his father was in distress, more importantly, he is not the leader of the ancient city, and now he is not his father's subordinate. Chen Ni stayed at home for one night and the next day bought a long-distance ticket to find the uncle, who asked her to take the car to his hometown, a small fishing village, to find another person. After several trips, Chen Ni finally got a few pounds of bacon, a few salted fish and a bottle of lard, which cost her a whole month's salary. She did not return to the ancient city again, she turned around and went directly back to the forest farm, returned to the forest farm and went straight to the secretary's house and gave her all her things. She was very happy, kept thanking her, and her eyes, which had been squinted into a line, could not see the eyeballs. Chen Ni wanted to tell her several times how much money she spent, but every time she wanted to open her mouth, she was diverted from the topic, and finally had to go back to the dormitory. During this time, every time she met a "female agent", she was very enthusiastic, and she did not have the expressions and movements of the meeting. Chen Ni thought: In the past, I would occasionally hear Zhiqing scolding her for how bad she was, and it seemed that she wouldn't either. Once she was so enthusiastic, always smiling... Maybe everyone misunderstood her.
The time soon came to the next batch of vacations, if the last time was a business trip, then this time it was a normal vacation, and Chen Ni was ready to go home again. The "female agent" came to her again and said, "Thank you last time, this time you go home and help me get some more, the child really needs nutrition." Chen Ni didn't know how to answer, and smiled and got into the car. You can't go to that uncle anymore, who are you looking for? My mind turned over what I could find, and I remembered a person, a long-distance bus to find him, another bag of milk powder, a few pounds of salted pork, and i did it on a holiday. The "female agent" was very happy again, the smile on her face was brighter than the last time, and she still did not mention the matter of repaying the money. The third time, Chen Ni really did not have a trick, looking for Uncle Bin to find a way, Uncle Bin had to go home and persuade his wife to kill the only old hen in the family to lay eggs, cook it, pickle it with salt and then bring it back to Chen Ni. The fourth time, Chen Ni was going crazy. When she came back, she told her directly: there is really no way. Her face was gloomy and she didn't say a word. Chen Ni thought that the matter had come to an end, and she did not take it seriously. Later, when I met her, I was still respectful, and she nodded paradoxically. outcome...... outcome. The resumption of the college entrance examination will mean "unqualified political examination.". Chen Ni finally understood why the "political trial was unqualified." Who do you blame? Who else can you blame but your father? She wondered: Why did her father implement the policy and reinstate the official? The implementation of the policy is also implemented, is it not good to change a post? Do you want to be in this position? Since you are in this position, what about helping a bunch of daughters? ......。 Alas, why are there so many? It is useless to complain about no one, no one is wrong, what is wrong is only the times. The people of the earth are only the epitome of the times, the embodiment of ugliness and goodness. All sentient beings can not be separated from the hatred and hatred. Ugly and kind, mean and sublime, hypocritical and frank, dark and light... Everything just shows the true nature of human nature.
After experiencing the "black bear betrayal" incident, Chen Ni thought: Since even the black bear does not receive it, then live well and live like a person. Overnight she grew up and matured. Uncle Bin's teachings she must firmly remember: "Don't make trouble, don't be willful, pretend that nothing has happened, work well, live well." At the top of the hill, she filtered over and over again, and finally filtered out another person—her sister's dry father. The sister's father, a former friend of her father,had only given birth to a boy and longed to have a daughter. Half of the time my sister spent less than fourteen years from birth to the time she went to the mountains and countryside on Hainan Island was raised in her father's family. Although my sister has been going to Hainan Island for many years, the two families have always been in contact, and they are quite close, and they are also very fond of Chen Ni, and Chen Ni also likes to follow her sister and call him a father. He was the station manager of the fisheries station in their commune, and his brother and son were fishermen. By 1978, the material management on the southeast coast was not as strict as before, and they should have a way to get some fish and do something, "really stupid" Chen Ni scolded himself fiercely. It was another bi-monthly vacation, and Chen Ni did not go home, but went directly to her sister's dry father's house. She told her father what she had suffered in the past few months, and asked him to find a way to get her some dried fish, anything she could do. On the same day, she brought back a large bag, about five pounds, she left two pounds at home for her mother, the remaining three pounds were taken away, she left one pound, and two pounds were sent to the "female agent" home. She also made an appointment with her father to let him send three pounds of dried fish or dried shrimp or dried oysters every two months, and anything could come to her house, to pack and write "Chen Ni Kiss Qi" and tell anyone not to open it privately, including her mother. After arriving at the sub-field, every time I go home, I can get the package of dry daddy, and every month the "female agent" can also receive a bag of two pounds of dried fish, and occasionally secretly give the big brother of the sub-field a small bag, of course, this is saved from between his teeth. After a few years, her mother thought that she was "living a good life" in the forest farm, but what could she do except smile bitterly?
The young boys and girls in the green onion years have slowly grown up after several years of tempering. They have experienced hardships, harvested growth, and also harvested friendship and love.
When they first arrived at the forest farm, they met some local "youth team" members, and one of them, Zeng Jingrong, became a good friend of Chen Ni, and she was the aforementioned Ah Jing. Ah Jing was about the same age as them, also short and short, very strong, although average looking, but very warm and kind. On the first day of the work of beating the soil embryos, she told everyone that there were more than a hundred people in the "Youth Commando", who were organized by the commune to come to the "general battle", recorded the work points, and brought their own lunch. They had been fighting here for more than a month, splitting the mountain to level the land and building thatched huts. They still have to continue the battle for a while, to help the Zhiqing build houses, and to let the Zhiqing move into the earthen embryo house before the winter comes. Driving roads is also their task. Later, after becoming acquainted with Chen Ni, she said: Each of them wanted to enter the forest farm as a glorious forestry worker, but the commune leader said that she had to perform particularly well, and only those who were rated as "model workers" had a chance, so she worked very hard and worked hard, so that she could become a glorious forestry worker. It is a pity that "the ideal is very full, the reality is very bone", no matter how hard she tries, she has not become a glorious forestry worker. Soon after, however, she married an honorable forester and became the wife of a forester. Later, I also went to the ancient city, although I did not have a job and did some small business, but after all, I also became a city person. Later, her three children, two men and one woman, were admitted to college and became "the pillars of the country", which can also be regarded as changing the fate through efforts, changing the future and future of their children and grandchildren. In the days and nights of the first "100-day conference battle", she liked to be with the Zhiqings and always ran inside the Zhiqing pile. She told everyone that her hometown was an "old revolutionary area" and that there were many people in her hometown who were working as officials outside. Chen Ni was very interested in the old revolutionary area, so on a rest day Chen Ni and Xiaoyan were invited to her hometown and stayed in her hometown for one night. On that day, she walked a long mountain road to her hometown, the hometown is called Zengcuo, and when she arrived at her hometown, she realized what is called "there is a family in the depths of the white clouds", which is a small village hidden deep in the depths of the white clouds and hidden deep in the lofty mountains. She talked to grandpa that day from dinner until midnight. The old man used to be the secretary of the brigade. He told the children that when the Red Army passed through their village during the Long March, a small detachment lived in their village for a while, and one of the fighters who lost a leg in the battle stayed in their village, and later under the guidance and education of this soldier, many young people in the village participated in the revolution, so it became an old revolutionary area. These people later became people of the state and did not live in their hometowns. The old man also talked about the living customs of farmers in the mountains, their lifestyles, marriages and dowries, observing weather changes, predicting wind and rain and cold tides, and so on. Because Chen Ni had read many revolutionary novels before, she listened to them with relish, and really liked this simple and enthusiastic great-grandfather.
In addition to daily labor, the young people often tell Jing Rong and other youth team members many stories in the novel, such as Jiang Jie, Xu Yunfeng, and Hua Ziliang in "Red Rock". There are also "Wildfire Spring Wind Fighting Ancient City", "Tunnel Warfare", "Mine Warfare", "Song of Youth", "We Walk on the Road" and so on. Lao Qin also often told them jokes, fairy tales and stories inside, telling them about "Avanti", "Ma Liang's Divine Pen", "Sima Guang Smashing Cylinder" and so on. Of course, Chen Ni could never have told her about the characters in foreign novels, because those places were "imperialist reactionaries" at that time. For example, "How Steel is Made", "Gorky Trilogy", "Anna. Karenina", "Les Misérables", "The Mermaid", "The Old Man and the Sea"... Wait, these can only be shared privately with the intellectuals. The people of the youth team especially liked to hear the young people tell "stories", although she had never read any of these novels. Ah Jing's education level is probably the second and third grades of primary school, basically recognizing words. During that time, she was very admiring of the intellectuals, and she said: How can you know so much? I really don't understand.... The days of the battle were her honeymoon period with Zhiqing, and if the Zhiqing didn't understand or couldn't do it, they would help, Chen Ni was responsible for cooking for the first time, if it wasn't for Ah Jing's guidance and help, they would have gone out of the ocean. Unfortunately, she was rarely seen after the end of the battle, so who did she marry in the future, and how did she come to the ancient city? Chen Ni didn't know anything, and everything that followed was told to her by Zhiqing's friends at a gathering a few years later.
The driver who sent Chen Ni to the commune bus station and returned the dried sweet potatoes was also a local youth team. He has also had a good relationship with the male intellectuals, and it is said that a few years later he also jointly developed small hydropower in mountainous areas with a male intellectual, and became a business partner. Working together on common tasks, getting along day and night, Zhiqing and local youth have thus formed an indissoluble relationship.
The total number of the first batch of young people was thirty-seven, and there were six couples who married, accounting for one-third of the total. There are also six or seven people who will become soldiers in the army after a year and a half, and this success rate is enough to explain the problem. Hard life, heavy labor is also a hotbed for building friendships and generating love.
Chen Ni also experienced a "love", but it was a misunderstanding of love. In the seven years of the college entrance examination admission letter came, only one person was admitted. He's leaving, fulfilling his dream. One night before leaving the forest farm, during dinner, he invited Chen Ni to the top of the mountain: "There is something to say." Chen Ni went to the appointment. It was the fifteenth day of the lunar calendar, and the moonlight was so bright that there was no need for a flashlight. After a walk at the top of the mountain, he expressed sympathy for Chen Ni's plight, encouraged her to take the exam next year, and sincerely offered to let her be his girlfriend. He said: I thought we could go to the big city together as classmates, but unfortunately the situation suddenly changed, and it was not subject to the will of people. He had to go first, hoping to meet in the big city next year.... Not to say that it was okay, Chen Ni could no longer listen to it, and her stomach burned with anger inexplicably. Because just yesterday, Xiao Tao told her: When the field department held a meeting to study the list of applicants for the college entrance examination, the "female agent" did not agree to your participation, and her attitude was very resolute. At that time, everyone was inexplicable, and Deputy Director Liu raised objections: "Why can't she participate alone?"? As the captain of Zhiqing, he did not say a word. Xiao Tao said: "Seeing that you usually have such a good relationship, I thought you were in love, but as a result, there was no word at the critical moment..." From yesterday to now, she had several times wanted to ask him the truth, but it was precisely because of the word "in love" that everyone agreed to make her not want to ask. Now it's good, but also proposed to "be his girlfriend", the ghost believes it! She was furious and said rudely: You will soon be a college student, the proud son of heaven! What am I? "Unqualified political trial" means that people who "step on one foot and never turn over." "In love"? Do you think it's possible? So they dispersed. That time was the stage when she was looking for death and life, the stage of emotional and emotional collapse, the stage of wanting to give her life to the black bear....
He did write her seven or eight letters in the first semester after school, and she threw them away without opening them, and there was no contact ever since. After a long period of reflection and "playback", she understood the mystery of "unqualified political trial", and also knew that she had indeed misunderstood him, and she felt very guilty in her heart. A year later, she wrote him an apology, telling him that she was very angry when she heard people tell her about the meeting (and certainly not who told her). She wants to have such a good relationship, many people think that they are in love, and in the moment of "human life is at stake", he not only has no reason to argue but also does not say a word. After this period of reflection, he knew that he was wrong and asked for his forgiveness. However, I did not receive a reply from him, and there was basically no contact after that. Until I heard that he had not yet graduated from college and got married. She was happy for him and silently blessed him in her heart. A few years later he was admitted to graduate school to study in a larger city, which was the most rampant period of smuggling in the southern region, and he needed a lot of things to "fight relations", and she also did her best to help him, what "big front door", "great China", "dual card recorder"... As long as he needed, she would find a way to support. It's innocent friendship.
Since the first day when he dug the "Fire Belt of Refining Mountain", he recited on the top of the mountain: The sky is high and the clouds are light, and the flying geese in the south are broken... Then she noticed him. Later, because of the relationship between the captain and the vice captain, she also had more contact, and then she found that he was very talented, his literary attainment was far above herself, and the words were particularly beautiful... She admired him. Their books were often circulated to each other, especially since he had a book with many famous sayings and sentences that she liked very much, and often borrowed them to copy word by word. For a long time, he was the editor-in-chief of the "propaganda column" of the forest farm, and all the art words came from his pen, and most of the articles in the "propaganda column" came from her hand. Many people think that they are "in love", but in fact, there is no. Perhaps the biggest problem between them is: he is really positive and she is fake positive. He loves politics, she loves math, physics and chemistry. He's a liberal arts man, she's a science woman.... So it can only be said: they are not all the way.
To tell the truth, if she stays up for a few more years, she may like Lao Qin, at least in the softest place in her heart, it may be Lao Qin's hotbed. Of course, there will definitely be many people who like Old Qin, and who knows who old Qin likes in his heart? The good thing is that there are no ifs....
"Little Radish Head" is her sea brother, is the big brother, buddy, eternal friendship.
Yingying, Xiaoyan, Li Jun, Shanshan... All were her good sisters, for decades.