"My son is dead."
On January 9, legendary singer Sinead O'Connor sent three eulogies announcing that her son Shane had committed suicide.
He is only 17 years old.
"My blue-eyed angel, you are the light of mother's life."
"I live only for you, and after you're gone, life is meaningless."
A few days later, she wore a fluorescent powder sportswear and stepped on fur slippers to attend her son's funeral.
When she turned around, Curie almost cried out in fright.
How could the woman, who was called "the most beautiful bald queen in the world", be reduced to a big mother?
Sinede O'Connor? You may not have heard of it.
But Cui Jian, the godfather of rock and roll, unabashedly called her "idol of idols."
Faye Wong has repeatedly covered her god list in concerts to pay tribute to her.
In 2010, she came to Suzhou to perform, which alarmed half of the Chinese music scene.....
In the past, she shaved her head, her body was thin, and it was as cold as the flower shadow washed by the moon waterfall.
Only those blue pupils were like the evening stars, killing and setting fire to people in the night wind.
But don't be curious, type her name in the search bar.
You will meet an old, blessed, broken woman crying in a broken hotel:
"Everything about me was ruined by me."
It was 2017, and Heined was 51 years old and had just had her uterus removed.
A few months later, she was put on a psychological show to bring her 50 years of wounds public.
"My mother is a complete devil!"
Born in Ireland in December 1966, Sinid's mother called her "evil seed."
In her memory, her mother only had two things: drug use and abuse.
Mom would put her foot on Sinid's head and cook porridge on the phone with her girlfriends.
Mom would strip Sinid of her clothes, press her to the ground, and kick her down the lower body and lower abdomen.
"She doesn't like me to be a girl."
If Sinid wanted to run, her mother would twist her hair with her hands and beat her violently while making her repeat:
"I'm waste, I'm waste..." until Mom's hands got tired.
When her parents separated, Sheinid was imprisoned by her mother in a wooden shed in the courtyard for 20 days because she called out to her father.
She had just turned 8 that year.
"But it's not without happiness." Sinid wiped her tears and said with a bitter smile.
"When I was in kindergarten, I won my first prize – curled up in the smallest ball."
Nobody knows.
That was the painful position she was in when she was abused by her mother.
You will ask: Silly girl, why not run away? She tried, to no avail.
At the age of 13, she ran to find her father, but found that he had a new family, and Heined tiptoed to her feet and hugged the man.
"Don't bother."
She was back with her mother.
This time, her mother didn't beat her much, but instigated her to go to the store to steal something.
Heined was caught squarely and sent to the infamous "Magdalene Laundry.".
Although this place is called "laundry room", it is a multi-functional place that integrates a torture ground, a black workshop, and a mental hospital, where girls are mercilessly sexually assaulted and sleep with corpses.
Or to describe it most aptly in Hinid's words— the abyss.
However, she found wings from the abyss.
On her 15th birthday, a nun gave her her the first guitar of her life.
When she played the first note in the mental hospital, the whole hall was shocked, and there was a music bigwig sitting in the audience.
The rest of the story, in a word: A Star is Born.
Sinid escapes from the laundry, signing, recording, and releasing albums.
In the same year, her mother was in a car accident and lost her breath on the spot.
Sinid recalls: "Her life was hell, and no one wanted to be like her. ”
At that time, she did not know that the gates of hell had quietly opened for her.
In 1987, the company decided to package Hinid into a big beauty debut, but she flatly refused.
This girl was so cruel that she found a hair salon overnight to cut off her long hair.
The barber cried and said, "Please, don't force me..."
Then Sinid grabbed his hand and shaved himself bald.
The next day, the company saw this slippery head and thought, "This time it's the street", but no one expected that as soon as Heined appeared, the music scene exploded.
It is said that "the inch is the only criterion for testing handsome men", and that "bald head" is the absolute miracle of beauty in this world.
With a kind of beauty from the otherworld, The beauty of the audience took a breath of cold air and also amazed the music scene.
Far away in the universe, she is the infinite spark of that sigh.
A thousand rivers have water and a thousand rivers and moons, and she is the yin and sunny circle between the pitches.
Even if it looks good, her first single shot is directly nominated for the Grammy.
Killed to the red eye, in 1991, she won the Grammy Award for Best Alternative Music Performance.
But Sinid, not uncommon.
Yes, the new and old singers in the European and American music scenes have to compete for the Grammys, she felt that it was "too kitsch" and refused.
Why drag it so much? Listen to her song and you'll understand.
She covered Prince's "Nothing Compares 2 U", which was a shock and completely overshadowed the original song.
At the concert, the crowds were crowded, the long night was windless, and she closed her eyes and sang, like a distant island, but also like a lonely planet.
But Curie's favorite is her A Pecfect Indian.
In my freshman year, I traveled alone to the island, encountered typhoon "Rainbow", water and power outages, in the dark, the ear has been circulating this song.
It was then that I understood why someone said that Hinid's voice could touch the soul through the skull.
Henide was so red that she flew up and landed in Time magazine, the album sold out, and even Faye Wong used her song as the finale of the concert.
But she won the whole world, only to lose to bad temper.
Madison Square, 10,000 people sang together, and rock star Old Cannon sang lively on stage.
She stood in the crowd without uttering a word, and smoked a cigarette alone amid the cheers.
It didn't matter if he didn't fit in, but since then, Sinid has "ruined" himself.
It was called the scariest 5 minutes in the history of television.
In 1992, Henide went so far as to tear up a picture of the Pope in public on live television...
Within 24h, the television station received 4,400 complaint calls, and the crowd was so angry that some people even drove a tank, crushed Sinid's CD, and threatened:
The next crush is you.
However, Sinid did not respond in any way and became more and more "crazy".
She tears up with Madonna, calls in the middle of the night on live shows to make extreme remarks, collapses and cries at a superstar tribute concert...
The most bloody thing is that she angrily spewed the original song "Nothing Compares 2 U" that made her angry, Prince, who is a walking demon.
She broke the news, and after the cover song became popular, Prince drove a luxury car to invite her to her home.
Prince said she was talented, but wished she would say less swear words, and Sinid replied, "I'm CNM!" ”
Subsequently, Prince disguised himself as Hauser and punched her deliberately, and she spat at him all the way.
Finally, Sinid fled into the street, and when it was daylight, she knocked on the door of a house to save her life.
However, Prince's wife retorted: There is no such thing!
What is true and what is false has long been dead and has no proof.
But during that time, Sinid's mental state was feared by anyone who saw it.
On the night of December 8, 1999, Sinid's 33rd birthday.
Instead of eating a birthday cake, she swallowed 20 sleeping pills in one gulp, almost never recovering them.
That morning, she fought with her second husband for custody of her daughter in court, and the judge ruled that she was an unqualified mother.
"I just wanted to be a good mom, but my kids were leaving me."
In a word.
Heined had 4 marriages and gave birth to 4 children, but none of them ended well.
She married and left, left and married, abortion and gave birth to a baby, and gave birth to a baby and then fought a lawsuit.
The last marriage was even more jaw-dropping, and in 2011, Heined was married online and registered with a brother a few weeks later.
But 18 days later, the two announced their divorce.....
At this time, people realized that the pain caused by childbirth and love injuries had already made a generation of fairies look different and their hair was out of shape.
Netizens owe: This big mother, who are you?
The face is no longer there, the husband is scattered, and Heined has also been diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder and PTSD.
But God, I didn't intend to let her go.
In 2017, a video of Heaned sparked a hot discussion on the Internet, and she collapsed and cried in a dirty hotel.
She had a hysterectomy, she was suffering from mental illness, she wanted her family and mom.
She didn't want to die...
People found her first time and put her in psychotherapy.
She was still a head, her white hair was like unclean ice floes, and she was only 51 years old, but she was too old to look like it.
At the end of the show, the doctor asked Sinidd a question: If you only had one last minute left in your life, what would you say to your mother?
Her lips trembled and tears flowed down her face.
"Mom, my life is too bad, too bad."
"I want to be mom's mom."
"I want to hug my mother..."
At the end, a photo of Hinid's debut flashes on the screen
The sun was just right, the summer breeze was gentle, and she smiled carefree on the stage.
That year, she wrote a long poem to introduce herself to the world—
"My name is Sinid O'Connor.
I'm learning to love myself. ”
Will she remember?
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Responsible editor丨 Honey
Edit 丨 Happy Little Fairy
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