I am Zhang Mei, 50 years old this year. The reason for the family's wealth was that I married into Inner Mongolia at an age when I was not very sensible. After marriage, my husband did not care about me and was inconsiderate, people were also lazy, there was no man's responsibility, and those years were extremely painful. In 1992, I began to approach Christianity and found spiritual sustenance in the Bible.
However, there was an unexpected storm in the sky, and the cult "Almighty God" organization set its sights on me. They lured me to a place arranged in advance by way of restocking, told me a few heavenly ways (brainwashing), they talked about the three-step work of "God", they talked about the second coming of the incarnate Lord Jesus, they talked about the book of Revelation, they talked about the coming of all kinds of disasters in the eschatology, they talked about the five wise virgins who greeted Xinlang and were saved, and the five foolish virgins were shut out of the door without greeting Xinlang... Under the brainwashing of cult followers' eschatology, I accepted "Almighty God." In the special circumstances of the time, there was also the psychology of fear, and I was afraid that I would become five foolish virgins and be shut out by Jesus and forced to accept the theory of the cult "Almighty God".
Under the brainwashing of the eschatology of "Almighty God", I completely ignored the persuasion of my family. In 2005, I left my family behind, leaving my parents, husband, daughters, and young sons behind to spread the so-called "gospel." In the days of obsession and unenlightenment, the wind and rain came and went, vigorously propagating propaganda for the cult "Almighty God," and also thought that he was enthusiastically preaching and saving people, thinking that he was doing the will of "God," thinking that he was giving up his small family to save everyone, thinking that he was doing good things in the eyes of "God," thinking that he was accumulating all kinds of good deeds for his own destiny, and thinking that he should suffer and temper himself, and that "God" was testing us.
In the past few years of preaching life of the cult "Almighty God," I have also seen and heard many people and things that do not conform to the concept of humanity, and although I could not think of it in my heart at that time, the theory of the cult made you have to obey and accept, because they said that "God" doing things is not in line with people's concepts, and disobedience and acceptance is the Antichrist, and so on. In this atmosphere, year after year, although I miss my family, I continue to suppress this thought, obscure, diligent, and think that I am doing my duty.
Until one day, we were caught for illegal acts. At that time, I did not know that "Almighty God" was listed as a cult, and I only thought that people in the new era of work would not accept it. In fact, I have never had the heart to oppose the Communist Party (the Great Red Dragon), and when I heard Zhao Weishan talking about how bad the Great Red Dragon was, I was very disgusted in my heart. At that time, I thought of a "myth" that said that "God" is doing work against people's expectations and against people's wishes, then you must also be absolutely obedient to be called obedient; another place says that "God" will raise up a country that worships "God" to punish countries that do not worship "God". In those years, I only knew about prayer, reading, preaching, and gatherings, but I didn't know anything, and the world was isolated from me.
With the patience and guidance of the police, I gradually calmed down, and during the initial period, my heart was extremely painful, like the waves of the ocean, and my heart was tortured to death, like purgatory.
Reflection begins with a little bit of memory.
In those years of cult lifestyle, I got up at 5:30 a.m. every day to pray and read the book of "Almighty God", received my aunt and aunt to cook food and eat breakfast, I would ride a two-hour bicycle to "water" the new person, and then come back, eat lunch and go to another place to "water" the new person, and go to the third place in the evening, until eleven o'clock in the evening to return to the receiving family. Day after day, year after year, in the wind and rain, do your duty.
But as soon as the leader gave us a meeting, he repaired and dealt with us, saying that I was not right or that. I couldn't figure it out, but the "myth" said that unconditional obedience, accepting the repair and dealing of the leadership, could be saved, and then silently accepted. Now that I think back to leading that tone of voice to speak is really oppressing people with power, doesn't the "myth" mean that brothers and sisters should care for each other and be considerate? There are two sisters, leaving the family for more than ten years, because there is no benefit in the work, they will give thirty yuan to eliminate people, the sisters pleaded bitterly to say how many years there is no home, first live here temporarily, find a job to earn money for a good life, lead and disagree, but also let us not talk to her contact, saying that she is the evil person is the antichrist ...
I often wonder, if I am old and there is no benefit in my work, is it the same ending? We do our duty in the cult and do not make money, but just give 50 yuan a month to buy some daily necessities, wearing ordinary clothes donated by our brothers and sisters at the grassroots level.
I believed in 2004 that the "Almighty God" had ended, but why have so many brothers and sisters left their homes and work not yet over? It is also said that 2008 is the limit of the big red dragon, but there is no big limit for travel. Isn't it a lie to say that in 2012 the Lord's work was over, but it was still not over?
The "myth" itself is also very contradictory. The "myth" is described in The Mystery of the Incarnation II that God's second incarnation work is very fast, and the work is over after the words are finished, unlike Jesus Christ, who finished three and a half years and then preached for two thousand years. He also said that she had gone away after she had spoken in the flesh and had not lived with people for twenty-Chinese New Year's Eve years, but why hadn't she left yet? It is also said that the business plan of "God" is over in six thousand years, it has been six thousand years, but the other place says that the age of law is 2000 years, the age of grace is 2000 years, and the age of kingdom has just begun, there is no six thousand years. It also says that "God" incarnated into the flesh is the work of doing the word, not the work of starting a family and having children, and if a family is established and has children, it is not a "god" who has become incarnate, but the high priest Zhao Weishan said that the incarnate "God" who becomes a family and has children is still "God" in essence. It's so contradictory...
My heart turned over and over, I thought about it, and then I looked at the believers of other religions in society, who were also very religious and kind, and those who did not believe in "God" and did not believe in were also very upright and kind. Looking at medicine, science and technology, science, psychology, philosophy, they are all making continuous progress for the good life of mankind. If humanity is destroyed by calamities, it is left with theology of how to survive, and most of the people who believe in "God" are people who are ignorant and ignorant.
At the end of 2012, the "Almighty God" cult used Mayan prophecies to claim that the so-called "end" was coming, and openly took to the streets to pull people into the religion
After introspection and combing my heart, I decided to get lost and return to being a person again.
In 2016, eleven years after leaving home, I finally returned home and learned that my husband had died in a car accident in 2009! My life really had nothing, a pair of children living with an elderly woman in those years without a father and mother. The daughter is very inferior in her heart, the son has no feelings for me, I am not in this ten years, the son does not eat well and wear well, there is no happy childhood.
Seeing all this, my heart was tearing my heart out. All this is due to the consequences of my belief in the cult of "Almighty God"! In order to fulfill my mother's responsibilities and obligations, make up for my debt to them, make up for my inner guilt and self-blame, and make up for the maternal love they once lacked, I can only work hard wholeheartedly to repay. In order to live, in order to be able to make my son start a family, I do my best to give. Although sometimes I feel bitter and difficult, I feel tired and regretful, especially the eleven years of no return, but people can not live in pessimism and disappointment, can not live in the past, should cherish the present, look forward to the future, because parents need me, children need me even more, and there are many compatriots who believe in "Almighty God" need to be saved. So I set my mind straight, work hard positively, and strive for a better tomorrow. The children saw me giving everything for them, and the children's feelings for me slowly repaired, but what I always left for my dead husband was endless regret.
I advise my brothers and sisters who believe in "Almighty God" to calm down and calmly think about the contradictions in the "myths," to think about the "myths" that have broken their promises again and again, to think about the ends of those who have worked for the Lord for many years, to think about the people and things that do not conform to the concept of humanity in God's family, to think about the consequences of confrontation with the country and the nation, to think of your parents, husbands, and children, to think of your parents, husbands, and children, to think of you, to love you and you need your heart! Don't blindly pursue those vague and unrealistic fantasies, get lost, turn back to the shore, don't cling to it, wake up! Wake up! Compatriots.
Source: China Anti-Cult Network
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