"Sabah's Cobia" is a true story in Sanmao's "The Story of the Sahara" about a special Spanish soldier stationed in the Sahara Desert, who is one of the few tragic characters in the book, and the tragic lessons and tragic deeds he experienced in this life are regrettable, and at the same time he is in awe of his last heroic act.
Sanmao's perspective and what she saw and heard revealed the character's heavy and depressing and contradictory and profound mental journey, in short, after reading it, he was still deeply shocked by his last-moment behavior, and his heart could not be calm for a long time.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" >01 "I have no name for my Saharawi friends!" </h1>
Once, Sanmao and Jose were walking on the side of the road near their home, and saw a Spanish soldier who was drunk on the side of the road, being mischievously played by the Saharavans, in order to save the drunken soldier and not be "insulted" by the local people, the couple carried the unconscious soldier to the desert army stationed there.
Later, Sanmao because he wanted to help his friends purchase a large amount of fresh milk, it was inconvenient to go to the town to buy, Sanmao went directly to the nearby military camp to purchase, just when he went back, he met the Spanish soldier who was escorted back by her that day, he was tall, the system was very fit, and people looked very spirited, which was very different from the appearance of the drunk man before.
In order to thank the cobia for sending Sanmao back, after arriving near home, Sanmao asked shaharawi from the neighbor's grocery store, Sharon, to help carry the milk, Sharon looked at the cobia with a wrong face, and his eyes avoided it, but the cobia looked at Sanmao with contempt, and prepared to drive back without turning his head back.
Sanmao felt very confused, and worried that the cobia mistakenly thought that he had bought so much milk for resale, and repeatedly stressed that he explained to him that he was buying it for a friend, not to resell it. Finally, Sanmao wanted to ask the cobia's name in gratitude, but the cobia replied with a sneer: "To the Saharawi friends, I have no name." ”
Sanmao was puzzled, and later asked his neighbor Sharon, a grocer with a particularly honest personality, and said, "This cobia, he hates all of us Saharawis." ”
< h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" >02" such a painful memory, when and what month can it fade in his heart? ”</h1>
"They used to be a camp of solidarity and fraternity, and I remember the cobia who woke up and shook like a madman on the corpse of his dead brother."
The cobia was the one who survived the massacre of the Spanish soldiers on the night of the Saharawi raids, but facing the best friends and brothers who had fought together, he may have to face the rest of his life, which is more cruel than the war, for him, the drunkenness of 16 years ago is a moment that he can never forget in his life, and it is also to let him spend his life in regret.
How could he ever think that just because he was greedy for the pleasure of drunkenness for a while, when he woke up drunk, he found that things were not human, and all the friends he had fought with were lying bloody next to him, and he was powerless, and who could understand the pain and hatred in his heart? Who can empathize with the pain of the cone in the heart and the feeling of beating the chest?
Perhaps only by wasting his life in a fog, punishing himself with numbness and a lifetime of swearing to live in this land that he loves and hates, in order to remember those innocent comrades and brothers who have died, can he be worthy of the reprimand and condemnation of his conscience!
But the words that Sanmao said stung his heart even more: "There are good people and bad people in this world, and it is not a particularly bad nation." Although Sanmao inadvertently said a heartfelt word before he knew the real thing, he did not know why the cobia hated the Saharans so much, but for the cobia who had been buried in his heart for 16 years, this sentence was as burning as salt sprinkled on the wound.
"Without the suffering of others, do not persuade others to be good", Sanmao uses his own goodwill and values to define the good people and bad people in the world, but he has not experienced the pain of others, how can he feel the disaster of others? Afterwards, when Sanmao learned of the massacre and war 16 years ago, she knew that her innocence and kindness were like a sharp sword that deeply stabbed the cobia's heart.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" >03 Protecting the enemy's child with his life, "Why? Never again did he think he would die like this</h1>."
For a soldier, heroically fighting and dying on the battlefield is their fate and their responsibility and mission, but 16 years ago, because of the cunning and treachery of the Saharawis, it was difficult for the lone souls of the warriors to rest in peace, and the actions of the Saharawis, the massacres and bloodshed, so that the souls of the warriors could not leave for a long time, so the cobia's hatred for the Saharawis was reasonable, and it was also unquestionable.
The lives implicated and endangered by a country's war are immeasurable, wars are terrible, and massacres are even more inhumane.
In Liu Cixin's book "The Three-Body Problem", there is an impressive description of "man and war":
"Three years ago, my fourteen-year-old son was in a car accident and I donated my child's kidney to a Palestinian girl with uremia as a way of expressing my desire for peace between two peoples, for which I could even give my life, and many Israelis and Palestinians are doing the same sincere efforts as I do. But all this is useless, and our homeland is still sinking deeper and deeper into the quagmire of retribution. ”
When the country has been in war or political turmoil, the people who suffer the most are the local fighters and people, who do not have high power and cannot enjoy a peaceful and free life, and they bitterly hope that the flames of war between the two peoples can be extinguished as soon as possible, get rid of the political crisis at an early date, and do not let more innocent people sacrifice in the war.
They even hope to pray for peaceful development by giving up their lives, but the reality is that no tiny human being can make such a huge change, especially if this change will involve the best interests of the upper social managers, so such expectations become extremely difficult and tortuous.
The weaknesses of human nature and the evils of human nature are infinitely magnified at this time, and many people may go to extremes and violence, and since our desire for peace cannot be fulfilled, let us die together, so as to stop the disasters and misfortunes caused by war. The final result can be imagined, and it will certainly be lamentable.
And what the cobia experienced was such a "fish death net", the extremes and violence of the people, although the hatred that had been rooted in his heart for 16 years, he had used alcohol to anesthetize himself countless times, just to forget the pain and regret of the past. But no one ever imagined that this cobia, who regarded the Saharawis as an enemy, would save several of the children of the enemy with his own body at the last moment.
I began to cook for Jose in a daze, but my heart kept thinking about the morning, a man who had been nibbling at hatred for sixteen years, but in the most critical moment, he threw his life to death in exchange for the lives of these Saharawi children whom he had always regarded as enemies. Why? I never thought he would die like this. ”
The cobia named Sabah (sanmao only learned his name from his tombstone after his death), although he could not forget the hatred and disapproval of the past, but in his inner world, the child was innocent. Maybe it was out of the instinct and sense of mission of a soldier, maybe it was because he wanted to use his life to honor those comrades who had passed away, although he hated the killing, he was still a qualified soldier, a flesh-and-blood warrior!
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