Early this morning I saw a nerve-wracking news.
Liu Xuezhou, a boy looking for relatives in Hebei, took dozens of antidepressants and died in the rescue.
The hemp rope only picks the small points and breaks, and the bad luck only finds the bitter person.
This boy who was abandoned at birth, bullied at an early age, and grew up to be subjected to Internet violence, said goodbye to the world after leaving a suicide note on the Internet in the early hours of this morning.
"Born light, but also clean" This is his final summary of his 15 years of life.
He would probably never know that when he was hurt by fate, there were countless strangers who had tried their best to save him.
When the suicide note arrived on the home page of netizens, someone immediately used resources from all sides to try to find him hovering on the death line;
But it was too late.
Liu Xuezhou's life, which ended completely at the age of 15, stopped at 4 a.m. on January 24.
He has also felt the love of this world, and he has also been full of expectations and yearning for everything.
But life gives him too little feedback, so few that those beautiful experiences and feelings are easily swallowed up by the hardships of life, and his will to survive is worn away little by little.
"Strong" is the only label that Liu Xuezhou gave himself, and it is precisely because of these two words that he has endured the hardships and tribulations of life until now.
Just after he was born, in order to prepare for the dowry of the two people's marriage, his parents sold him for thousands of dollars without nostalgia.
Because of the money, the birth parents abandoned him as if he had just fallen to the ground, perhaps it was revealed in the dark that this time the way to find relatives would be abandoned twice due to economic problems.
When he was four years old, his adoptive parents died in an explosion accident at a fireworks workshop.
In Liu Xuezhou's memory, in addition to the burned ruins of his home, there is also the sense of displacement that cannot overcome campus violence and is forced to constantly move around multiple schools.
Without the protection of his parents, in school, he was always the one who was often bullied.
In elementary school, the classmates were instigated by their parents and never played with Liu Xuezhou.
Not only that, but they also robbed him of his stationery and framed him for no reason.
Even the teacher could not allow Liu Xuezhou to distinguish, believing that it was all his fault.
He should have been the most carefree age, but he had endured too much coldness.
This situation has not improved because he has changed to a new environment.
In the sixth year of primary school, Liu Xuezhou transferred to school five times, and in each school, he suffered bullying from others to varying degrees.
He was robbed of food by his senior classmates, and was bullied because of his worn-out clothes, and he was beaten by people riding on his body in the dormitory.
Even the restaurant staff had to pour a handful of oil on the flame that isolated him.
When the eggs were distributed to everyone, everyone in the school had them, except deliberately not to give them to them.
From classmates to workers, when they see soft persimmons, everyone wants to step on them.
Is it just because he is Liu Xuezhou that he deserves to suffer all this?
Finally, before the end of elementary school, he gained the trust of the teacher and had the opportunity to show himself and become a class committee member.
Liu Xuezhou began to become outgoing, talkative, learned to refute bravely, and fewer and fewer people bullied him.
Everything is moving in a good direction, but life is not willing to give him more sweetness.
In junior high school, he was molested by a perverted male teacher, and he was threatened, in a state of collapse all day, and even had a tendency to depression.
And he has no one to talk to, he can only rely on his own strength to heal himself.
The humiliation gradually became a festering scar buried deep in the heart, never healed, never seen.
No one knows except himself.
Liu Xuezhou's heart has long been devastated, but he still does not forget to be kind to the people who bring light to his life.
Her aunt died many years ago, and Liu Xuezhou still feels good about her.
The adoptive mother lay in the hospital with severe burns, and the aunt supported the bed with one hand and covered her eyes with the other, afraid that he would be frightened;
He would tell his aunt about his soft heart, and after her aunt's death, he would take the initiative to take care of her grandmother.
Even at the last moment of his life, Liu Xuezhou did not forget to arrange everything properly.
Comforting the family optimistic about their departure, she advises them to take good care of the four elderly people who love them with heartache.
The savings on the account, the half of the money he earned was left to his grandmother and grandfather, who only had one child left, and the other half of the money funded by netizens, let the love continue to be passed on and donated to the orphanage.
Liu Xuezhou thanked everyone and said sorry for everyone, but he forgot himself alone.
He should be thankful that he had experienced so much and had not been defeated by the suffering imposed by the outside world.
He should say sorry to himself, sorry that he didn't make it to the end, giving his biological parents a second chance to hurt themselves.
Some time ago, the news that Sun Haiyang found his own son Sun Zhuo kept brushing the screen, and after 14 years of searching for a son, the story wrote a happy ending.
This incident has encouraged many people on the road to find relatives, and Liu Xuezhou is also one of them.
But his process of finding his biological father went a little too smoothly.
Because he was not abducted by human traffickers, but sold by his biological parents.
The vaccine book kept by the grandfather had his own father's name on it, and it took the local public security bureau less than three hours to find Liu Xuezhou's biological father.
This incident can be directly proved, but if the biological parents have the slightest intention of recognizing Liu Xuezhou, there is no need for him to wait for more than ten years.
None of this warmth and joy belonged to him, his biological parents were still alive, but from the age of four he had to live on orphan allowances and elderly dependent grandparents.
After the misfortune occurred, many people said that they knew that this was the end, and it was better not to look for these so-called relatives.
In this way, he may have regrets in his life, but his grandparents who hurt him and the uncles and aunts who have been helping him can also start over.
When he thought he had found his dearest love, his biological father and mother regarded him as a burden that could not be shaken off.
In an interview, he relayed the chat with his birth mother:
Mother said, don't force me, I can't buy a house;
Liu Xuezhou said, I don't want a house, I want to have a home;
Mother said, I can't give home, you want to force me to die;
Liu Xuezhou said, how have you thought about how I have lived in the past ten years?
Mother said, this is not caused by us, it is the adoptive parents who want to buy you, and if they don't buy it, there will be better people to buy you.
When his biological parents accused him, the media added to the news, claiming that "the birth mother blackmailed Liu Xuezhou just to regain a peaceful life."
The cold arrows of the onlookers shifted their targets and began to "educate" and insult Liu Xuezhou from the perspective of God.
First of all, he said that he was "unclear, did not recognize good villains", "could see through his mind at a glance", and said that he "sold miserably and sold people";
Who forced whom to die?
After Liu Xuezhou confirmed his death, these clamorous sunspots and water troops scattered, and even the Weibo account became a state of cancellation or "the user does not exist."
Online violence is rotten and deep-rooted, and these people in Liu Xuezhou's death are all executioners who are demanding their lives.
What is even more infuriating is his biological father Ding Mou and his birth mother Zhang Mou.
How can such a selfish person, who can sell his own son, be worthy of being a parent?
- "I want to accuse my parents."
- "Why?"
- "Because they gave birth to me."
In the movie, 12-year-old Zane stands in court to sue his parents, and in reality, 15-year-old Liu Xuezhou chose to end his life in Sanya.
Art gives people the power to embrace light, while reality makes people see the sadness and powerlessness of life.
Having a child is necessary to raise a child well, which is not even common sense, and it is the nature of mammals to lick the calf.
But reality tells us that those who once thought that nature and morality were not taken for granted.
Not all children can be loved by their fathers and mothers, and not all are worthy of parenthood.
Being born without nurturing is the greatest evil of parenthood.
On the other side of reality, there are also many people who are willing to give everything for their children.
Sun Haiyang, who has not given up in 14 years of searching for his son, faces countless clues, countless setbacks and encounters but passes by the torment, he relies on a father's deep love for his son to the time when he keeps the clouds open and sees the moon.
There is also Jiang Ge's mother, Jiang Qiulian, who insisted on the Jiang Ge case for more than five years, and finally waited for the court's verdict against Liu Xin (Liu Nuanxi) on January 10 to get a little justice for her daughter who died in vain.
You can't expect all fathers to be Sun Haiyang, and all mothers to be like Jiang Ge's mother.
However, the act of giving birth to children without raising and abandoning children is not only a violation of the moral bottom line, but also a contempt for the law.
Filial piety comes first, but parents do not love how to filial piety and compassion.
The birth of life is an extremely sacred thing, it should be the crystallization of love, the continuation of civilization.
The pain that parents leave on their children is much more serious and far-reaching than the harm that others have done.
From "being abducted and sold" to "abandoned by his parents", Liu Xuezhou saw the reality clearly but let the psychological construction and values completely collapse.
In this tragedy, his biological parents have an unshirkable responsibility.
There are too many places in the world where the sun can't shine, and too many fragile lives quietly wither away in the thirst for love and care.
From the gradually forgotten rose teenager Lu Dawson, to the B station up main ink tea that died of poverty and illness and severe malnutrition;
Then to Liu Xuezhou, who "the sun shines on the sea, I also return to the sea", their parents have different degrees of absence in their lives.
Young and short lives carry too much pain and depression.
Even if I can't empathize, I hope to retain a little respect and understanding.
Born without love, how can it be home?
Or do you want life to be like the movie says:
- "May every brave child be treated tenderly by the whole world."