In the early morning of January 24, 2022, a living life, a young heart, stopped beating in warm Sanya, on the endless blue seashore.
15 years old, this is a bud-like age, waiting to bloom. His owner, Liu Xuezhou, has frozen his life here forever.
The last sentence in Liu Xuezhou's suicide note is: I want to give an account of my life and pour out my pain into the sea.
A 15-year-old child, to give himself an account of the action, turned out to be an overdose of drugs, and the object of the conversation was an endless ocean!
Behind this seemingly calm, how much pain, helplessness and sadness are carried? In his heart, what kind of pain had accumulated to make him feel that only the ocean could accommodate it?
Such a lonely burden, such a desolate determination, is actually the same person as the boy who bravely went online to find his biological parents more than a month ago?
On December 6, 2021, Liu Xuezhou, a boy from Xingtai, Hebei Province, appeared on the Internet platform, and the purpose of his video was to find his biological parents.
Liu Xuezhou, who appears on the Internet, is very young and very young. There was a light in his eyes, and that light was a longing and anticipation for affection.
Liu Xuezhou said he was a sophomore at a junior college in Shijiazhuang. When he was four years old, his adoptive parents died in an accident.
After the death of his adoptive parents, Liu Xuezhou has been living with his grandparents, uncles and aunts, relying on government subsidies to live a difficult life.
The changes in the family, the identity of the orphans, and the hardships of life have made Liu Xuezhou develop a sensitive and sensible character.
If Liu Xuezhou does not know his origins, he will not look for relatives. Then his life may have regrets, his personality will not be very cheerful, but he will not suffer such an earth-shattering change.
However, Liu Xuezhou knew the fact that he was adopted. For a child who has not felt the love of his biological parents since childhood, you can imagine how long he longs for that long-lost family affection.
I think in Liu Xuezhou's imagination, he is a baby who was accidentally lost by his parents. His parents were also somewhere in the world, looking forward to his return.
The driving force that supports Liu Xuezhou's network search for relatives is not only his own bravery and desire for family affection, but also the determination of imaginary family affection.
Unfortunately, not all adopted children have a hateful trafficker behind them, and not all children who leave their parents are accidentally separated.
Liu Xuezhou was touched by Sun Haiyang's insistence on finding his abducted son, so he decided to go online to find relatives. It shows that in his heart, he thinks that he also has a father like Sun Haiyang.
This kind of presupposition is the happiness that Liu Xuezhou most expects in his heart, and it is also the foreshadowing that causes Liu Xuezhou to be extremely disappointed in the end.
The powerful and omnipotent network did not disappoint the teenager Liu Xuezhou. His family search soon came to fruition.
Just nine days after Liu Xuezhou released the online search for relatives, on December 15, 2021, the police in Linfen, Shanxi Province, found the family of Liu Xuezhou's biological father through DNA comparison.
And Liu Xuezhou expected, his parents saved every penny of thrift, like Sun Zhuo's parents, tirelessly working hard, not letting go of every clue to find their own difference.
Liu Xuezhou's parents have long been divorced, and they have re-established their families and have their own children.
Dad has a home, Mom has a home. This was the first accident that Liu Xuezhou faced. But in the heart of the teenager, these hazes cannot stop his yearning for family affection.
On January 19, 2012, Liu Xuezhou traveled to Wulanchabu, Inner Mongolia, to meet his biological mother living here.
The biological mother was young and beautiful, with no wind and dust on her face and no anxiety in her eyes. This seems to be very different from Liu Xuezhou's imagination, such as the vicissitudes of Sun Haiyang and his wife.
This is probably another disappointment after Liu Xuezhou searched for relatives, it seems that his parents did not feel anxious because of his departure.
But Liu Xuezhou still feels very happy. Because he felt the warmth from his mother— "Very happy, my mother held my hand all day." ”
Moreover, his mother also invited Liu Xuezhou to stay in Wulanchabu for the New Year. Reuniting with the mother and feeling the warmth of the mother is the most luxurious satisfaction of the teenager for family affection.
But the good times did not last long, and things changed: Liu Xuezhou's wishful thinking in the search for relatives gradually revealed a vicious truth in the face of reality and truth.
It turned out that the reason why Liu Xuezhou left his biological parents was not that he was abducted. Instead, he was sold by his father to repay the dowry he owed when he married his mother.
A young life wanders, waiting for a dowry that should have been cashed out long ago. Liu Xuezhou's beautiful imagination of family affection was originally parted ways as early as he was still in his infancy.
Knowing that he was not abducted but betrayed, this fact should be the biggest disappointment for Liu Xuezhou, which cannot be endured.
We in the universe are small and cannot prevent natural disasters, but it is difficult for us to forgive man-made disasters. Being ruthlessly abandoned is the most ruthless blow to all living beings.
Knowing the real reason for leaving his parents became a watershed in the relationship between Liu Xuezhou and his parents. The flame in Liu Xuezhou's heart was directly smashed into an ice lump by reality.
And the parents have no remorse for the behavior of that year. On the contrary, he thought that it was the best arrangement for Liu Xuezhou, and he wanted him to get the happiness he couldn't give.
Blame only Liu Xuezhou's adoptive parents for dying too early. If he had known that they were so short-lived, he should have given Liu Xuezhou to someone else. You can get a little more money. Liu Xuezhou's mother said so.
Perhaps standing in the position of Liu Xuezhou's mother, this is the best arrangement for Liu Xuezhou; but in Liu Xuezhou's heart, he will definitely think that as long as he can feel the breath of his mother, it is happiness.
From the perspective of outsiders, it is inevitable to think that the arrangement of Liu Xuezhou's parents that year was inevitably cold-blooded. No pair of parents can guarantee that they will be able to give their children an absolutely perfect living environment.
Is it because there is not enough money and the environment is not good enough, parents have a reason to give their children to others to raise? And then in the name of it, is it responsible for the child?
More than a decade ago, Liu Xuezhou's parents' abandonment of Liu Xuezhou, no matter how gorgeous the whitewash, could not hide the truth that was cut and despised.
The accusations of netizens are not surprisingly overwhelming. In the face of accusations from netizens, Liu Xuezhou's parents are not reflecting on their past and trying to bridge the family.
Instead, he chose to throw the pot again, and it was still Liu Xuezhou who chose. On January 16, 2022, Liu Xuezhou said that his parents could not stand the condemnation of netizens and had blocked their WeChat.
Although Liu Xuezhou's death is very sad, the author still can't help but laugh helplessly - what kind of logical thinking does Liu Xuezhou's parents have?
Netizens condemn them, they should not explain the netizens' doubts; if the netizens' remarks are extreme, they can also choose to call the police and let the police define and restrain the behavior of netizens?
But what they chose was to block Liu Xuezhou's WeChat. What was the way for the biological son who was looking for them with enthusiasm and had just felt affection? The author is puzzled.
After thinking about it again, I can only retreat to the second place and reluctantly convince myself: also, the swaddling son is equal to the bride price, and this brain circuit is really not something that ordinary people can understand.
According to Liu Xuezhou's parents, Liu Xuezhou, who originally said that he only wanted to find his parents, changed and became greedy. He forced his parents to buy him a house because his younger siblings had a house.
Liu Xuezhou responded that he did not have to buy a house. It's just that he has been living in a classmate's house, and he wants to have a home.
Liu Xuezhou hopes that his parents will either buy or rent him a one-bedroom house so that he can have a place to live.
Is this a request too much? From Liu Xuezhou's point of view, it is not excessive. A 15-year-old, underage child who has the right to claim that his parents give him the necessary capital for life;
From the perspective of Liu Xuezhou's parents, it may be difficult to accept, first of all, they have never thought of embracing Liu Xuezhou's son again.
Liu Xuezhou's appearance caught them off guard. It was a huge impact on their psychology and family. This is an objective fact.
But there is a more important objective fact: Liu Xuezhou is only a 15-year-old child, he is not yet an adult; and his parents are adults.
Liu Xuezhou's thinking and way of doing things, or there are extreme places. But as a child who was born shortly after being ruthlessly sold and became a dowry from his parents, shouldn't he have a knot in his heart?
If Liu Xuezhou's parents could exchange their debt to Liu Xuezhou fifteen years ago for tolerance fifteen years later, communicate more with Liu Xuezhou and reach mutual understanding, then today's tragedy will not happen.
Liu Xuezhou went from bravely appearing on the Internet to looking for relatives, fortunately successfully recognizing relatives, falling out of harmony with his parents, and becoming an orphan again, all under the witness of the majority of netizens, open and transparent.
Liu Xuezhou's affairs, into the network, defeat also network. As the saying goes, "A person's mouth has two layers of skin, and it is reasonable to say it." "A lot of mouths shoveled gold, accumulated and destroyed bones".
For Liu Xuezhou's experience after looking for relatives, and the grudges that occurred with his parents later, it is difficult for netizens to agree, which is a reality and human nature.
In particular, Liu Xuezhou hopes that his parents will solve the matter of residence, and Liu Xuezhou's parents have also spoken out on the Internet to guide public opinion, and the rhetoric is extremely unfavorable to Liu Xuezhou.
Netizens have expressed different views on this matter, either mildly or fiercely, or in favor or against. Are these remarks an internet riot? To a certain extent yes.
But is the remarks of netizens the most important reason for overwhelming Liu Xuezhou and causing him to choose to take his own life? I don't think so.
Looking back at Liu Xuezhou's experience, we will find that in Liu Xuezhou's short life course, there are many tribulations.
Because his age was mistakenly remembered as two years old, Liu Xuezhou went to school earlier than his peers. As a result, he was the shortest in the class.
Coupled with the loss of parents from childhood, the lack of protection and care from the elders. Liu Xuezhou has experienced many school bullying in schools.
However, none of this left a mark on the face of young Liu Xuezhou. Liu Xuezhou's deepest impression is his sunshine and bright smile that belong to the teenager.
It can be seen that Liu Xuezhou is a strong and brave teenager. The most important factor that overwhelmed Liu Xuezhou was the cruel truth of being sold for a bride price, and the disappointment of his biological parents was once again an outcast.
Liu Xuezhou left, with deep disappointment, confusion and pain. When Liu Xuezhou decided to look for relatives online with great ambition, he must not have thought that there would be such a result.
The biggest sorrow of the young Liu Xuezhou is not to find his biological parents, but to place too many expectations on family affection, thus sowing the seeds of great disappointment.
Liu Xuezhou is too young, he does not know, not all the discrete in this world is forced, not all the discrete behind, is waiting for the reunion.
Liu Xuezhou did not know that many roads in this world would have to be walked by himself after all. More than ninety percent of the pain in life should be swallowed by yourself.
If Liu Xuezhou's age can be older, his experience can be richer, and his understanding of life can be more full, he may be able to calmly face the changes in life.
Why doesn't the brave teenager Liu Xuezhou give himself more time to grow up, grow up enough to see the true nature of life?
At that time, Liu Xuezhou will find that although the world is not as perfect as he imagined, it is not lacking in warmth. And a lot of warmth, has nothing to do with blood.
A young life, just disappeared. May Sanya, the warmest of this season, let this lonely and cold life embrace the warm sun from now on.