Author:Sakura Haruno (Author of Tomishu)
An ordinary morning, Hangzhou Funeral Home.
An 86-year-old man named Jin Sexyong had just put away his wife's urn.
He felt his hands tremble and his walking legs tremble uncontrollably.
He chased away relatives and friends, and wanted to be alone with his wife for a while.
Or on this day, he dialed the local newspaper in Hangzhou: "Can you write the story of my son?" My son is a genius, he's in a mental hospital now, and his mom just left today. ”
● Hangzhou Daily report
The media accepted an interview with Jin Sexyong, a genius story that hovered between madness and sobriety, and after being buried for many years, it finally swept the whole network.
Lu Yao said in "Ordinary World": "People would rather care about the eating, drinking, and frivolity of a crappy actor than understand the turbulent inner world of an ordinary person." ”
The story of Jin Xiaoyu's family is like an axe that cuts into people's hearts.
At the beginning of 2022, 5 heartfelt truths about life are carved out.
Jin Sexyong (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
When disaster strikes, never ask the object
Haruki Murakami said: "Beyond a certain age, life began a process of slow decline. The things that are precious to you in life begin to slip from your hands one by one, like a comb with open teeth. ”
For Jin's family, this age is fixed at the age when their son Jin Xiaoyu is 6 years old.
On that day, Jin Xiaoyu's little playmate, the ghost made the god send a needle into his toy gun, and this needle shot into Jin Xiaoyu's eye, after that, he could only look at people obliquely with one eye.
For a family, it is a disaster, fortunately Xiaoyu understands things, and then has been excellent in school, and the teacher said that there is no problem in taking the key university.
However, before the son's blindness in one eye was completely dissipated, the family's second drastic change of fate came again.
When Jin Xiaoyu was in his sophomore year of high school, his temperament suddenly changed dramatically, and he appeared violent and directly announced to his parents: "Don't go to college, don't go to high school." ”
At that time, Jin Sexyong and his wife thought that they were rebellious children, but in fact, Xiaoyu was sick - manic depression, also known as bipolar disorder, is also a very tricky category in mental illness, the whole person's emotions are like a roller coaster, one will be extremely irritable and high-pitched, one will be depressed and negative.
In the words of the patient himself: "Always in heaven, always in hell, never on earth." ”
When the illness occurred, Jin Xiaoyu's violent behavior was difficult to suppress, he would push it to the refrigerator at home, smash the washing machine, and pour water into the TV...
Because of this, The furniture of Mr. and Mrs. Jin SexYong is no longer bought, and the house is surrounded by walls.
Image source: Hangzhou Daily
Because of repeated illnesses, Jin Xiaoyu always tossed back and forth between school breaks, classes, school and homecoming.
In those "muddy" days, he was arranged by his family to enter the bookstore, but he was incompatible with the clerks;
Inserted into the factory by his father, he saw that someone's hand was almost crushed by the machine, so he went on strike...
Xiaoyu's originally bright future is becoming more and more ambiguous.
"The hemp rope is specially picked and broken, and bad luck only finds bitter people." This cruel old saying is always fulfilled in life.
In order to save more money for their son, Xiaoyu's parents squeezed out their salaries to speculate in stocks, but the investment failed.
After that, her mother Cao Meizao's body collapsed suddenly, her health deteriorated, and she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease.
This family of intellectuals suddenly suffered from two kinds of mental illnesses that bound human beings.
Fate is like a boat, walking in the great waves, those who slowly deviate from the trajectory of normal life, like giving ordinary people the most cruel warning: life is alive, you may, without warning, suddenly suffer from the ruthless blow of fate.
Maybe you have to face the destruction of health, maybe you have to desperately earn money to support your family, maybe you have to struggle to maintain an ordinary life...
Just like Jin Xiaoyu and them.
However, impermanence found them and let us go.
Family photo of Jin Xiaoyu when he was a teenager (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
Those who embrace love will not succumb to reality
After Jin Xiaoyu went to college, his condition was still serious, and he tried to commit suicide several times at school.
At this time, Jin Shengyong and his wife completely suspended Xiaoyu from school.
The son does not want to die, they feel that nothing matters, do not study, do not go to college, do not work, can not become a family, can accept, as long as he lives.
The effects of illness are enough to destroy a person and a home, but they never give up on their sons.
Jin Saidyong: "Children have no friends in their lives. As a father, I have the greatest privilege of being my child's best friend. ”
Group photo of Jin Xiaoyu with his father when he was a teenager (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
In the media interview, others asked Jin SexYong: "What is love?" ”
He said, "Love is the most precious thing. ”
Xiaoyu, who is carefully cared for, also cherishes love and knows how to love.
No one expected that this boy, who was wandering in madness and sobriety, could support the family after his mother was seriously ill.
It is said that there is no filial piety in front of the bed for a long time, but Jin Xiaoyu has become the true filial piety.
Alzheimer's disease is not simply forgetting memories, but also eats up the health of the patient's body, the demented mother, almost losing the ability to take care of herself.
So, during the day, the son took care of it, bought vegetables to do housework, and washed his mother's face; at night, the father took shifts, cooked three meals, and fed his wife.
Life is divided in two by day and night, and although it is dull, it can still move forward.
Mom couldn't go to the toilet by herself for three years, and every 2 hours she had to prepare to excrete, and she could only carry it down to the toilet bucket - 80-year-old Jin Sex Yong couldn't do it, and these were all handed over to Xiaoyu.
"Without Xiaoyu, we might all be dead." Jin Saidyong.
Later, Mom's feet began to lose strength and only ate very finely sliced food...
Xiaoyu, who took care of his mother, did not have the slightest impatience, although he was prone to mania, he did not lose his temper with her once, and sometimes, he would look at his mother, see tears in her eyes, and hug her and murmur: "Mother, mother." ”
After losing an eye at the age of 6, his mother held him in tears, and later, his mother did not know how many tears and how many hearts he had shed for the child's hard life... These things, Jin Xiaoyu remembers.
Someone said, "This family seems to be unlucky, but this family seems to be lucky." ”
Because of the blind one eye, the son who suffers from mental illness, the mother who cannot survive with Senile dementia, the father who is unable to do so, and the father who is dying of old age...
They are all ordinary people, but they are willing to be heroes for each other.
This is the greatest light and warmth in this sad story.
With love in their arms, they have the courage to accept the present and do their best to make tomorrow better than today.
Family photo of Jin Xiaoyu in childhood (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
Reading has become the key to breaking the game in life
What would happen if you were a psychopath and had been "idle" at home for more than a decade?
It is simply unimaginable that most people will end up empty inside and abandon their lives, but Jin Xiaoyu has not sunk, and in the endless darkness, he has found a ray of light - reading.
Jin Xiaoyu has no friends, no hobbies, only loves to read, and when he goes out, he goes to the Zhejiang Library to read books.
For the sake of his son, Jin Sexyong began to buy a large number of books, and even when he was the poorest, he risked his son smashing things and took out twelve thousand yuan to buy a computer for Xiaoyu.
Xiaoyu's computer (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
Xiaoyu, who has always been cold, was very happy, and later fell ill, and he would never smash the computer.
He doesn't play games, he doesn't chat blindly, he just uses it to do two things: learn a foreign language and watch an acoustic movie.
In 6 years, Jin Xiaoyu learned English and began to learn Japanese and German.
Because of the large amount of reading, even if he did not receive a complete higher education, Jin Xiaoyu's learning ability was quite strong.
In his view, language learning is all the same, and the learning experience of one language can be fully borrowed from another language.
Fate finally waited for a turn.
In 10 years, my mother, who was not seriously ill at the time, went to NTU to open a classmate association, and the classmate suggested that Xiaoyu be an interpreter at home.
That day, Jin Xiaoyu translated the first book of his life, he was full of confidence, first quickly finished a short story in the book, and told the publisher when handing over the manuscript, if the review is approved, please leave the rest to me to translate.
Father Jin Sexyong was surprised: "Then how many novels have you read?" ”
Xiaoyu replied, "I finished reading all the foreign language novels in the library." ”
When God closes a door, he often opens a window, and what he has to do at this time is to find out where the window is.
Jin Xiaoyu found it.
Since then, Xiaoyu has thoroughly opened up the second vein of Ren Dou and translated 22 books in ten years at the rate of two books per year.
Part of Jin Xiaoyu's translated works (Source: Douban)
"If the spiritual problem is an out-of-control monster that has been pestering and torturing Xiaoyu for a long time, then the translation is like a light in the abyss of suffering, lighting up the flame of his life."
Reading is a way for a person to see the world, and this matter may not guarantee that you will be rich and wealthy, but at least it can support you and ensure that you will not fall into a worse life.
Xiao Yu, who was changed by reading, broke the inhibition of cognition and went to another, more vast world.
Fortunately, reading planted the seeds of change in his life.
Otherwise, there may be one less talented translator and one more patient in pain.
Fight against fate and become a long-termist first
Jin Xiaoyu's translation is excellent.
In ten years, he translated 22 books and 7 million words, spanning novels, films, music, and philosophy.
Translations by Jin Xiaoyu (partial)
The books he translates, the words are infused with a sense of natural strangeness, almost perfectly fit the content of the story.
Readers described his writing as "accurate and delicate, better than the original text."
Over the years, Jin Xiaoyu's translation has only been singled out for one mistake...
After Jin Xiaoyu was reported by the media, he was even crowned with the title of "genius".
People tend to overestimate the changes in a year and underestimate the achievements of ten years, even if there is any genius myth, but it is because of Xiaoyu's long-term self-discipline and hard study.
"When I learn every language, I read at least 20 original novels, and I read more than that number of English novels."
He went to the library, saw his past borrowing records, and felt that "it is even more infallible."
To learn German, he first read German textbooks, then read translation textbooks, and so on, before he began to read the original German novels.
At the end of the work, he has a stubborn seriousness, the details are never spared, and the notes at the end of the translated text are also very true...
As Xiaoyu's father said, "Opportunity is really for everyone who is prepared." ”
Jump out of the story of "Genius Xiaoyu", this truth has been fulfilled again and again in our lives:
There are many smart people, you can think of it, others can think of it, but you can win among smart people, just because you are more determined than others.
Jin Xiaoyu touched the whole network, not because he turned over 22 books, but also because he still maintained long-term self-discipline and diligence in the torment of illness.
Jin Xiaoyu's first translation of "Ship Fever"
In this world, there are very few lucky people who are born with a crown.
But the other part of the people, from mediocre and humble origins, have a heart of a king who will never say a word, and they will climb to the top by their own efforts and crown themselves with their own hands.
Their name is the long-termists who are willing to do it.
Image source: Beijing News
Jin Xiaoyong's latest translation of the "Benjamin Letters" Douban entry, there are countless messages.
One of the most highly praised was: "Words will remember you, and there will always be your footnotes in books." ”
Perhaps, we cannot change our origins, we cannot influence our circumstances.
But at the very least, through our own efforts, we can let the initiative of life be in our own hands little by little.
Jin Xiaoyu recently got a sample book of Benjamin's Epistles Photo/Yin Shenglin
If the hope is there, anything is possible
A few days ago, Xiaoyu, who was hospitalized with a seizure, went home, and he still wanted to "take care of his mother like a child" as before.
He learned that when he was hospitalized, his mother was no longer there.
His father was afraid of intensifying his illness, so he hid it from him and went to his mother's funeral alone.
Because of the perennial medication, Jin Xiaoyu has always been in a cold mood when he was not sick, and this time, he hugged his father and cried.
He was not good at communication, and only wrote down his thoughts about his mother with a pen.
After his mother died, Jin Xiaoyu always remembered a sentence that his mother loved to say when she was sick: "The car does not fall, just push." ”
This means that even if she is sick and cannot walk, she must be pushed out and cannot always stay at home.
As long as people live, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, life must go on, and everything must look forward.
This is Xiaoyu's mother's belief in survival, and it is also the belief engraved in the heart of this family.
As long as the "little car" of Jin Xiaoyu's father and son has not fallen, they will continue to push.
Jin Xiaoyu and father Jin Shengyong (Source: Hangzhou Daily)
Speaking of which, The Jin Xiaoyu family cannot be said to be a complete "inspirational story".
They suffer, they suffer, they suffer, they suffer... But what is moving is that even in the quagmire of life, they also live out an upward force.
In their hearts, there is one place that cannot be locked, and that is hope.
Hope is a seed in the heart, and although it is particularly small, it has extremely powerful power.
Despite the hardships of life, as long as there is hope in our hearts, we still have choices, and this is the case with Jin Xiaoyu, who has been blinded and has been plagued by illness for many years.
He used the pen as a spear and the book as a shield to transmit the power of words to more people—the world kissed him bitterly, and he returned it with a song.
The same is true of Jin Shengyong, who is dying of old age and losing his wife.
He created a pure land for his autistic son, and spent most of his life working hard and complaining, but only to give his family a dependence.
Isn't that a phone call made at a funeral home another kind of life to die?
After Jin Xiaoyu exploded, the books he had translated were turned over and reread again and again.
What impressed me the most was the passage that was screenshotted by CCTV in his translation:
No one is easier than anyone, but after you try your best to survive it, you will find that the end that cannot kill us will make us strong.
As Romain Rolland famously said: "There is only one kind of heroism in the world, that is, after recognizing the truth of life, you still love it." ”
Perhaps, fate is unfair, perhaps, the road ahead is bumpy.
On the track of life, Jin Xiaoyu has been insisting, so why don't we?
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