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Zuo Xiaoxi's childhood memories do not have the touch, hug, and kiss of his parents, his mother is busy and strong; his father is taciturn and strict. She rationally knew that they loved her, but not in the way she liked.
Without the rational cognition of soft touch, its shape may be beautiful, but it lacks the firmness of bone and blood.
When Zuo Xiaoxi was young, she read a science fiction story, so much so that she seriously doubted that her parents who lived with her were also dropped, just looking the same. Of course, that's another story I'm going to tell.
Zuo Xiaoxi did not ask her father later, was she disappointed by her willfulness of feelings at that time? Do you feel her growing desire to grow up in a depressed quilt?
Because of the unprepared battle, Zuo Xiaoxi, who was forced to pretend to be calm, pounced fiercely twice, and then returned from the shallow waters of love to the shore of a person. She went shopping alone, went to the restaurant alone, watched movies alone, and sang K songs alone. Zuo Xiaoxi enjoyed herself, but her father began to panic, and his father thought that she was sick in her heart and began to introduce her to the marriage partner through various channels.
Then, Zuo Father suppressed the inner thoughts of "all the blind date boys are not worthy of my girlfriend", while watching Zuo Xiaoxi and them one by one, out of his range of eyes, alone.
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Looking back at zuo Xiaoxi's parents at that time from the perspective of zuo Xiaoxi' current vision, they got their own titles because they gave birth to her, but they did not obtain the skills of parenting at the same time, they went through thousands of dangers on the way to practicing skills but never thought of giving up, especially their father, who did a lot for her wordlessly, but she only cared about her own emotional sadness.
Zuo Xiaoxi imagined that in the face of her sudden growth, her parents were helpless, her heart was very sour, and she was willing to accept her parents' inadequacies, give them enough time to see, and gradually be able to look at her with them.
Zuo Father was worried about Xiao Xi's emotional path, but when he was about to be able to lower his eyebrows, he suddenly left, very, very suddenly.
So at the wedding ceremony not long after, relatives and friends did not see the handover full of fatherly love, and Zuo Xiaoxi walked to the groom by himself.
In order to continue to live with laughter, Zuo Xiaoxi would rather believe that her father could not bear to watch her get married, and escaped "coolly", or that her father wanted to force her to grow up quickly in this extremely cruel way.
Zuo Xiaoxi became the reliance of her almost collapsed mother, but also on her husband, the young man whose father helped her find.
After his father escaped from his eyes, Zuo Xiaoxi obediently obeyed for a while. It was just that the thought of no one laughing and listening to her calling out to her father was unbearable, and she did not dare to attend anyone's wedding.
When a new life was conceived and formed in Zuo Xiaoxi's belly, the mother began to take care of the pain of holding her, and when the little grandson was born smoothly, Zuo Xiaoxi's arms were even more rarely idle.
At this time, in addition to the title of wife, Zuo Xiaoxi also became the eldest daughter-in-law, the eldest sister-in-law, and the mother of the child. Until she heard the dream "mother", she really became a mother again.
The reorganized family of four, due to the husband's profession, the small couple gathers less and more, but because time and space are magnified, the occasional friction between the two is insignificant. Taking care of the little one became the focus of Zuo's mother and Xiaoxi's life until Zuo Xiaoxi's maternity leave ended and returned to work.
Detached from the world of the whole body is a baby, Zuo Xiaoxi began to compete with the work, but it was not a sense of existence that was riveted to make up for the absence during child-rearing, nor was it a promotion and salary increase with full riveting strength, but an urgent resignation.
To be continued...
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