The recent news is particularly lively, the entertainment section continues to get married, divorced, debunked rumors, social news in addition to "what garbage are you", the headline content is mostly worrying.
In between entertainment and social news, Marnie often sees "XX admits depression" and "XX because of depression...".
Summer is really a season of easy mood swings, happy, angry and even depressed random play, just like the weather, rainy and rainy, drifting positions.
But as an adult, the first meaning of walking the rivers and lakes is to "control your own emotions", and expression management is also an essential skill.
Today, when we talk about a Japanese movie that is "discouraged and healed", the young protagonist does everything in his power to get along with his emotions.
"Only Love Can Keep Me Alive"
Perish in silence, erupt in pain
When faced with the "torture" of life, some people will face the difficulties, some people choose to escape, and the heroine of the film, Ning Zi, chooses the latter.
Ning zi is a bipolar disorder patient. Although bipolar disorder, like depression, is a mental illness caused by out-of-control emotions, there is a fundamental difference between the two.
Bipolar disorder is a bipolar disorder, while depression is a one-way affective disorder, and people with bipolar disorder often present a state of depression or mania at the onset of the disease, and extreme emotions are randomly played.
Ningzi's appearance is presented in an extreme, even crazy state: a person standing in the bathroom, shaving all the hair on his body with a razor blade. Asymmetrical eyebrows, potholed hair... The whole person is breathing with manic breath.
But then the picture turns, Ning Zi becomes a quiet and irritable kitten, curled up in the quilt waiting for the "owner" to feed.
But more often, Ning Zi would use sleep to combat these negative emotions. She does not work, the clutter at home is scattered on the ground, and at a glance, she can only use the word "decadent" to describe the past.
Fortunately, Ningzi has a "good boyfriend" - Tsunagi. The two met at a party and resonated because of the chat.
During the three years that the two lived together, she maintained a state of "dormant volcano" for a long time, although it did not erupt, but it inevitably collided with some small sparks.
Why is Coke screwed so tight?
Why not wear the mask I sent?
Why didn't there even have time to clean up the room...
Ningzi often asked Tsunagi questions like this, as if she had deliberately provoked her boyfriend to be angry.
But whenever this happened, Tsunagi always replied to her calmly, or apologized.
She was sharp to him, and he tolerated her like a strange circle, and neither side showed the bottom card, perhaps waiting for some moment of reconciliation.
Ning Zi is also trying to cheer up, she wants to find a job, but because she can't get out of bed, she directly missed the interview.
After being spat at by her sister for doing nothing, she tries to cook for Tsunagi. As a result, the meat was sold out, the onions were all broken, and the eggs were shattered because others bumped into them.
I thought it was bad lucky enough, I went home to prepare to cook, but found that I forgot to buy important spices, sent a message to Tsunagi, and the other party was relieved: no seasonings can also be.
Ning Zi wanted to smoke a cigarette to calm down, but the lighter couldn't hit, and the electric gate in the house also jumped.
She finally broke down crying and dropped things...
It's all tiny details of life, and every shot is understated. But it is this little accumulated sense of disappointment and frustration that is particularly empathetic.
Ningzi's life is like a mirror, driving all the emotions of the audience, with time and pictures passing frame by frame...
Reminds you of a similar experience, and then licks your wounds with you bit by bit.
Love is the only "tranquilizer"
Although the mood swings are extremely large, sometimes it even annoys the people around you like a hedgehog. Ning Zi is still a "pleasing" heroine.
This is not only because her sensitivity to life makes people feel empathy, but also because at any time, Ning Zi is trying to find a way to save herself and try to live.
In the three years she has lived with Tsunagi, Ningzi's bipolar disorder has gotten much better. She stopped hurting herself and began to learn to think of others. Cooking for your boyfriend, going to a convenience store for an interview...
Ningzi's illness slowly turned around, but Tsunagi's life fell to the bottom.
He was a young man with literary dreams, but he worked as an editor for a gossip magazine. The magazine often made peach news for money, and even committed suicide because of exaggerated reports.
The taciturn Tsunagi has been trying to endure, being smoothed out of edges and passions, and living like a robot.
Finally one day he couldn't stand it, smashed his computer, and quit his job. But just then, he received a call from Ningzi—she broke down again.
At the end of the film, Ningko runs like crazy and undresses, while Tsunaki chases after her while picking up clothes.
This run, mournful and burning. The couple also took off their last masks on the same day.
On the rooftop, a naked Ningzi leaned back against the railing and shouted to Tsunagi with all her might, the words she had restrained for three years:
If you want to leave me, you can be separated from me, but I can't be separated from myself for the rest of my life, so I envy you, Tsunaki, you can leave me, how good!
Tsunagi recalled the scene when the two first met: "When I ran through the road with you, the blue skirt flew with the wind, hoping to see such a beautiful thing in the future." ”
He lived like an island, because he felt that he could not change anything, so he closed his heart. NingZi was the antidote to his "numbness": he had never seen someone so crazy, obviously depressed but with a kind of ostentatious vitality.
When calming Ningzi, Tsunaki also draws strength from her extreme emotions and activates herself: don't do this, continue to endure in the magazine.
Ningzi needs the calmness and gentleness of Tsunaki, and Tsunagi needs The vitality of Ningko. They are both "attacking poison with poison" and antidote to each other.
Cherish the mood and yourself at this moment
Ningzi and Tsunaki represent two extreme emotions released by some young people in the face of a repressive society: Ningzi has been battling her own bipolar disorder, and Tsunaki, although calm on the surface, has become desolate inside.
Extreme emotions, and numbness without emotion, are typical of contemporary young people.
Although the director of "Only Love Can Make Me Survive" has been debuting for a long time, there was only one short film work "Fit", which tells a story about obsessive-compulsive disorder.
The debut feature film chose the topic of bipolar disorder, he said that it was because he had had a similar experience with Ningzi, and wanted to use the girl's story to explore this topic that is regarded as taboo in Japanese society, hoping that more people can pay attention to emotional problems and the plight of young people in society.
Haruki Murakami said, "You're going to be a silent adult." No emotion, no secret thoughts, no looking back. Go live a different life of your own. You have to obey that not all fish will live in the same sea. ”
But isn't it too boring for a person who is not strange and never reveals his true emotions?
Occasional collapse is not a bad thing, find your outlet, even if you experience a landslide-like emotional loss of control, the next day the sun will rise as usual.