1.
The rain was still falling, and the sky seemed to be leaking. I looked out the window at the quiet city, tears pouring out unconsciously.
The table was filled with barrels of instant noodles, and the oil and water inside had long since turned white, like a hairball on a cotton coat. The yellowing green plants in the bedroom hunched their leaves and looked very weak. I suppose this monotonous room is less lonely just because there is one person living there.
Through the glass window, I stared into my bloodshot eyes.
Missed her?
Maybe.
2.
"Look, the Muppet Cat Muppet for you," Wan Qing took out the cute gift from behind, "you one, I one, black eyes, exactly the same." ”
"Muppet cat Muppet, how does it feel weird?" I frowned.
"What's wrong, don't you like it?" She pursed her lips and reached out to take the gift back.
"Like," I winked mischievously at her, "it would be nice if the eyes were blue." ”
"You, ahem! Worthy of being a Virgo, giving you gifts is still so picky. ”
"Haha, I heard that a Taurus girl can give someone a gift, which means..."
"What does it represent?" WanQing's eyes widened in momentum.
"You're a rich woman, and you want to take care of me..."
"Go, talk nonsense..." She said as she gently punched me in the chest, "I also heard that if a Virgo boy is picky about gifts from a girl, it means that he likes this girl." Wan Qiu touched my head.
She and I laughed in unison, like an actor who had forgotten his lines.
"How are you?"
"The resume is submitted, and it should be able to be hired." What about you? ”
"Leave next week, and then you'll send me, or I'll be angry." Wan Qing made an angry expression, with a milky and fierce look.
"Definitely."
3.
That year, Wan Qing went ashore to go to graduate school in other provinces, and I fell behind the list and chose to go home to direct employment.
What kind of person is she?
Beautiful, lovely, ashore, a bright future...
And me?
Melancholy, inferiority, failing to make the list, the future is dark...
Distance, education, level, vision... These factors add up to make me think of a breakup. Honestly, I didn't have to ask for more, and now that she's going to go to a higher platform, I feel like the gap between them can no longer be made up exclusively by the beauty of love. It's ridiculous, I'm still so inferior.
"I'm sorry..." I gave myself a slap.
4.
Early in the morning of the separation, I sent Wan Qing to the high-speed rail station, and our conversation time was limited.
"Be careful on the road, pay attention to safety, on the way to school, don't be greedy and cheap to take a ride alone..."
"Got it, you're like my mother." Wan Qing interrupted my nagging.
"Well, goodbye."
"Don't you have anything else to say?" She looked at me with a wicked smile, "Huh? ”
"We... Break up..." Damn, the dialogue that was practiced repeatedly last night is still hard to open.
The hall suddenly reminded passengers to check in, the staff told passengers to wait at the designated location on the radio, people picked up packages and lined up, and the noise filled the silence between us.
I didn't have the courage to look at her face, and I was afraid she would cry.
"What are you talking about? What happened to you? Are you kidding me? You're talking! Wanqing's tears were like a fountain, and she shook my arm frantically, like a drowning person clutching a life-saving straw.
"I'm sorry, forgive me."
I broke free of her and ran away, dashing out of the station in a trance. The crowd of people kept pouring backwards from the blurred vision, and by the time I suddenly stopped trying to see wanqing's last side, she was already indistinguishable from the surge of people's heads...
5.
I secretly came to wanqing when she was a freshman in graduate school. The reason is simple, I regret it.
After proposing to break up, Wanqing sent WeChat to call me many times, and I ruthlessly deleted all her contact information. Like a couple who broke up very much, I imitated it very realistically.
That day I was in the square holding the ragdoll that Wanqing had given me to me, and I was staring at the teaching building in a daze.
"Xiao Qing, forgive me, I don't have the courage."
"I still have low self-esteem, you know."
"I don't want to delay your future."
"I didn't cheat on your feelings. It's just..."
"I'm a little pessimistic, and when I can't be with you very often, many factors will naturally become a hindrance to us."
……
I didn't dare wait for her to show up after all. At the early morning stop, I watched the passers-by hurry, and at the moment of getting on the bus, I looked left nostalgically, as far as I could see, I sighed and left the city...
6.
Unconsciously, the sky cleared, and I looked back and took a deep breath as I looked at the sunlight that broke through the haze. Restrained the overflowing feelings, he had to go on to work in the evening. I drank a cup of coffee, rubbed my temples, packed up and dressed and went out.
I have mixed well in publishing houses over the past three years, and have recently published several articles in magazines. I think I'm living a pretty comfortable life.
The air after the rain felt particularly refreshing, and there was still tear-stained water on the road. In the city high school, students came out one after another, and they played with each other, which was not a scenery. I stopped at the intersection and aimlessly looked at the flow of people. The light and shadow of the distant sky overlapped, and the sky drifted with red-stained clouds, like a red halo that appeared on each other's faces after casual contact between lovers.
"Teacher, are you so pretty, do you have a boyfriend?"
The crisp voice of a female high school student caught my attention.
I quickly looked up at the group of high school students who were surrounded by a teacher, only to see the teacher in the middle wearing a high-profile ponytail and wearing a white shirt. She nodded lightly at the girl and said, "Yes." ”
"What does he do?" The students asked eagerly.
"He's a small editor-in-chief and has recently written several articles in magazines." As the teacher spoke, he pulled out the magazine from the stack of textbooks he was holding in his hand and flipped through the articles at once.
"Teacher, why did you take a fancy to him?" You are so good or graduate school, you can find a better boyfriend. ”
"I still owe him something." The teacher smiled and held up his bag and pointed to the blue-eyed ragdoll hanging on it.
"It's a fairy cat, so cute..."
For an instant I jerked my head up, looking across the crowd and finally fixing on the teacher. It turned out to be you, and I thought...
She seemed to be aware, and with a slightly angry look, she was ready to turn her head and look at the voyeur.
In the crowd, I saw that the smile on Wanqing's face was completely lost, her eyes were red, and I thought that it might be that the wind was blowing on both sides of the street.
The green light was on, and the crowds of people rushed in all directions like a broken embankment.
"Teacher, what's wrong with you?" Who is the man who is staring at you, so rude! A girl said.
WanQing did not answer, she lowered her head and secretly wiped her tears. She took off the doll and held it tightly in her hand, crying and smiling at me. The wind on the side of the road gradually stirred up the bangs in front of her head, slightly gentle, like the caresses of lovers.
I plucked up the courage to run to her with all my might, and wrapped my arms around her tightly in my arms, afraid of losing her again because of my inferiority. Wan Qing leaned her ear to my chest and listened to this heart beating strongly. I saw the group of high school students get into melon eating mode, and they envied me for doing a bad demonstration.
"To you, this is a muppet with blue eyes."
"I feel that the blue eyes are too sad..."