What "homosexuality" needs is mutual affection

Two loves are not love at first sight, two loves are two people's affairs, and love at first sight is a person's business. "Homosexuality" is a different kind of love, and it is an indispensable color in this worldly society.

01

I just started my freshman year of college this year and majored in nursing. In my opinion, nursing is a sacred profession, but unfortunately, I am surrounded by girls. In the liberal arts of high school, the only few boys in the class were also provided by the teacher as "pandas", but the baby was gone. I don't resent or dislike "homosexuality," but I never thought it would happen to me. Roommate T is a college native, medium long hair, very quiet a girl, talking very quietly and very softly. I have the impression that there is a cool girl in the class, we call her Y, short hair, cheerful personality, do not look carefully there are always people who mistake her for a boy.

02

T suddenly cut his hair short and changed his dress style, cool, a bit similar to Y. The two people who thought there was no intersection were somehow together. In this way, T and Y go to class together and eat together, and T sticks to Y all the time, and we all know their behavior. T is a repeat student, older than us, and after getting along for a long time, we found that T was not as calm as it seemed on the surface, in fact, her heart has always been terrified. T likes Y very much, every time in the dormitory, she will praise Y from time to time how handsome, in her eyes I see a different color, I think that is love! Sometimes, expectations are always drowned in the backfire of this deep sea, like a meteor shower, it only takes a second to cross the sky, and before it can catch it, it has disappeared. Once I went back to the dormitory, I found T and Y arguing, but on the surface it was calm, and the only thing that made me hear clearly was the sentence "I think it's good to be a friend, you are you, I am me, I have the right to freedom, you have it too." ”

03

Since that fight, T has become less talkative and unruly, and their story has reached its climax. It was an ordinary weekend, my roommates slept late, and I still went to bed early and got up early. T's departure made the night no longer ordinary, two roommates went out to look for T, "ah-" a sudden intrusion into my mind, in a light sleep I was awakened, my heart beat faster, I realized that something had happened. I put on my coat and ran out of the dorm room, and finally found T on the roof, and T crouched in the corner, wearing a hat and holding her head, unable to see her expression clearly. The roommate was comforting her, and I knew that T was crying, crying heart-wrenchingly. Standing not far away was Y, shouting all the time. Time seems to be particularly boring in this instant, passing very slowly, and we are all very difficult to survive. All the relevant personnel rushed to the scene, how the matter ended I can't remember, only the suicide note on T's desktop I can't forget, the note is "Only the family and Y can be taken apart." ”

04

None of us ever mentioned what happened that night as a trivial matter. T's situation is more difficult, and finally she proposes to go home herself, T and Y cut off contact, not that they do not meet, but T can not face reality, T has always had fantasies about Y. It was the end of a semester, and we don't know when the next time T and Y meet, but take your time, time will always give you the answer. T and Y are lovers of the "gay" relationship, I think T hurt it very thoroughly, and Y did not take this seriously, just surprised and puzzled, after all, Y only included T in the column of friends. "Homosexuality" is also love, love needs two feelings, what is needed is the effort of two people, not I only love you, but you have already defined me - we are just friends. In the end, it is I who is lost in it, and it is I who cannot get rid of it, and you have become an outsider who should not have fallen into it.