Leng Xinhan: Fate is to stomp Du Zimei

Author: Chengdu Shude Experimental Middle School Leng Xinhan

Perhaps only those who have witnessed the collapse of their beloved land in an instant will sigh: "Where are the bright eyes and teeth now?" Perhaps only those who see last night's new marriage and leave at dawn will groan: "Farewell to the twilight marriage morning, there is no hurry"; perhaps only those who have experienced disengagement will cry out: "The old wife draws paper as a chess game, and the child knocks on the needle to make a fishing hook"!

But all this is not "maybe" for you, but real! When you were a teenager, you read a lot of poetry and books, and you wanted to "go to Jun Yao Shun, and then make the customs pure!" So, you came to chang'an, which was unprecedentedly prosperous, and held this lofty ambition to meet the examination, but unexpectedly, it backfired, and you had to fall behind in Chang'an. "You've given so much, but all you get is a cup and a cold burn."

However, instead of complaining about the injustice of fate, you vaguely feel that there is a huge crisis behind the seemingly powerful empire in a conscription. "The county official is in a hurry to ask for rent, where does the tax come from?" You say so.

But after all, you are a man of few words, and it is difficult for you to reach the holy hearing. Sure enough, the Anshi Rebellion came, the rebels attacked Chang'an, your dreams shattered, your country fell to the bottom, and your people drifted everywhere. You yourself are precarious, your life is on end. However, in the face of the strangeness of "the world is chaotic and the life is accidental", you still have your heart set on the imperial court and comfort your father and elder: "Don't weep blood when you send off, and the servant shoots like a father and brother." In Tonggu County, in the face of the tragic scene of "three years of famine and deserted mountain roads", you still did not abandon the imperial court.

Finally, you have come to Chengdu, where life is relaxed and comfortable. You are not happy, and when you learn that the official army has recaptured Henan and Hebei, you occasionally "go crazy with poetry and books." Because you are worried about the Thieves in the Western Mountains, you are telling them that "the Arctic Court will not change in the end", and you can see that you have deep worries in your heart. "Cong Ju opened his tears twice, and the lonely boat was tied to the heart of the old garden." After all, you still want to return to the beautiful Chang'an! Therefore, you took a boat down the river, stepped into the White Emperor City, recalled the past Emperor Wudi of the Han Dynasty in Kunming Pond to train the water army, and sang loudly: "Kunming Pond Water Han Shi Gong, Emperor Wu Jingqi in the eyes." "You shed a drop of muddy old tears, how much you want the motherland to rise again!" But you are overwhelmed, and at this time you are just a small fisherman full of rivers and lakes.

You never returned to Chang'an after running all the way, and quietly closed your eyes with an infinite sigh... All your life, you have served the Confucian officials, worried about the country and the people, and wanted to contribute to the country. After all, the times are not good, and you with great ambitions have not realized your dreams, but you have left us countless gorgeous poems. Your work is like a history book, which profoundly reflects the suffering of the people. In the prosperous world of Taiping, you have the ambition to send a tribute to the king Yao Shun; when the country is in trouble, you still do not abandon the imperial court. Moreover, writing all this into a poem, remembering my heart, and inspiring my people, this may be the true meaning of the heavens sending you to the human world!