Trapped by love 1

I want to keep myself busy, to enrich myself, and once I am quiet, I will think wildly. In the past three months, I have experienced the darkest moment of my feelings, and I am really sadistic, thinking that deleting WeChat and phone can cut off contact. Hide yourself and escape from all reality. Don't want to face emotions, think about yourself for 5 years. From betraying his marriage, holding a playful mentality and gradually indulging in the game of love, hovering between one woman after another, enjoying the process of being loved and loved. Loneliness after the carnival, emptiness after passion, guilt and self-blame after happiness. Much like drugs, resisting thinking it's bad and desperate to get more. The once spirited teenager has now become a tired youth, and his heart has changed from a passionate and passionate old man. There is no interest in anything and no heart to invest, and it is enough to stop at it. There is an idea, since I am trapped by love, I will simply let go of myself, liberate myself, love it indiscriminately, and make myself numb. Stop dwelling on one person, because the next one will be better.