Jin Yong wrote in "Yitian Slaughtering Dragon" that Zhang Sanfeng witnessed Zhang Cuishan's self-murder, and Xie Xun heard Zhang Wujie's "death", and he used extremely poignant language to describe the pain of losing his son.
But when he heard that his son Zha Chuanxia had committed suicide, he understood that no matter how powerful the pen was, he could not write one-ten-thousandth of the pain of losing his son.
"It wasn't like that in real life, because I didn't understand it at the time."
The pain of losing her children was personally experienced by Cheng Liangfang during the Wenchuan earthquake in 2008.
Her youngest daughter, He Nan, was unfortunately buried in reinforced concrete because of her rescue. This is not a personal catastrophe, nor is it a personal self-defeating self-determination, this is an unstoppable natural disaster. Some have lost their children, some have lost their parents, and some have lost everything.
Five years after the disaster, Cheng Liangfang chose to have another child. While slowly healing the pain, Cheng Liangfang's life has gradually entered the right track.
Death will not end the lives of survivors, but it will push the living forward.
Just after Mother's Day, the earthquake struck, and Cheng Liangfang unfortunately lost her daughter
May 11, 2008, Mother's Day. Cheng Liangfang still remembers that on Mother's Day, 12-year-old second daughter He Nan also made a greeting card to wish her a happy holiday. Every year on Mother's Day, her daughter He Nan will send her holiday blessings.
At that time, the second daughter, He Nan, was still in elementary school. She is a very sensible little girl with excellent academic performance. She also enjoys dancing and has served as the leader of the dance team at Yingxiu Primary School. Cheng Liangfang still remembers that the day before each time she went to the dance, her daughter was very excited.
She would chirp around her, say that the teacher praised her for dancing well, and begged her mother to buy her beautiful dance costumes.
As long as it is not too much of a requirement, Cheng Liangfang will fulfill her daughter's small wishes. But the daughter never made excessive demands, she was not a wayward child.
She will take the initiative to take care of the housework, and on holidays, she will also make a special meal at home to send her over. Every day when she comes home from work, she will come forward to talk to her mother about homely things.
These details of getting along with her daughter on weekdays, Cheng Liangfang did not deliberately remember. At that time, she felt that the days were long, and as long as the family was safely together, it was the happiest thing under the heavens.
"At that time, only the Tao was common", but who can say for sure what happens under the heavens. When the earthquake struck, her daughter unfortunately died, and Cheng Liangfang realized that the bits and pieces of her relationship with her daughter had long been engraved in her mind.
No need to recall, it is as clear as yesterday. Gained and lost, this kind of pain carved into the bone marrow, Cheng Liangfang as long as he thinks about it, he can't help but feel sad from it.
Before the earthquake, Cheng Liangfang's family was an ordinary and happy family of four in Wenchuan Yingxiu Town. She and her husband are honest and honest people, and after years of hard work, they finally bought a shop and a house in the town.
Life is thriving, and the two daughters are well-behaved and sensible, especially the second daughter He Nan, who is still a good seedling for everyone to go to school.
Life has a head, the children are motivated, and Cheng Liangfang and his wife are even more energetic. Seeing that life was about to take it to the next level, it was May 2008.
On Monday, May 12, 2008, Cheng Liangfang got up early in the morning to make breakfast for her children, and after watching her daughter carry her school bag to school, she quickly picked up her things and went to a relatives' wedding feast with her husband.
But Cheng Liangfang never expected that such an ordinary morning would be the day she and her second daughter He Nan would never say goodbye.
When I returned from a relative's house to eat and drink, it was already afternoon, but it was not yet the time when the children were out of school. At that time, there happened to be a neighbor visiting the door, and Cheng Liangfang chatted with the neighbor about home. But who knew that before the two of them could say a few words, the ground under their feet began to shake left and right.
"Broken, it's an earthquake." Between the electric light and flint, Cheng Liangfang did not think about it, and directly pulled his leg and ran. After a few seconds of kung fu, Cheng Liangfang, who ran outside the house, did not have time to catch his breath, and the house behind him collapsed violently.
Cheng Liangfang escaped safely, but her in-laws failed to run out in time and eventually died.
Because the earthquake came too suddenly, it took half a day of hard work for Cheng Liangfang to come back to his senses. As soon as her mind became clear, her mind flashed the faces of her daughters and husbands in an instant, such a terrible earthquake, she herself survived, what about them? Are they still alive. For a moment, Cheng Liangfang didn't dare to think about it.
The daughter who saved the sacrifice: She is the eternal little hero in my mind
Cheng Liangfang's eldest daughter He Yuren was fine, and her husband He Minghong also survived. As soon as several people converged, everyone found that He Nan had no news.
When the earthquake occurred, the children were still in school, and after Cheng Liangfang and her husband settled their eldest daughter, they immediately rushed to Yingxiu Primary School.
Along the way, the earth was shaking. The usually wide and flat road has become a mess, full of potholes and rolling stones and silt. The road was blocked, Cheng Liangfang and his wife could only rush to the school on foot, she walked in a panic, while praying in her heart: Heaven bless, the child must not have an accident.
By the time the two hurried to the school, the building had already been razed to the ground. Cheng Liangfang saw the situation, almost did not breathe in one breath, his legs were weak, and the person directly collapsed on the ground. Although her husband He Hongming was in a better condition, he couldn't help but blush.
He staggered two steps, looking a little dazed at the ruins in front of him, and he couldn't see where his daughter's classroom was.
Rubble, rubble, cries, and a small corpse that had been lifted out. Cheng Liangfang, who stood up again, looked at all this, anxious and powerless in his heart.
Under the advice of the school teacher, Cheng Liangfang found the approximate location where her daughter He Nan was buried. Most of the children buried under the rubble have already suffered misfortune.
But as long as he didn't see his daughter's body, Cheng Liangfang felt that there was still a glimmer of hope in his heart. She hoped that her daughter would be found immediately, but she was afraid that her body would be found.
There are firefighters digging around them day and night, and Cheng Liangfang and his wife are also helping. The long time is like a sharp knife, mercilessly stabbed into the heart of every anxious loved one. The longer time passed, the tighter Cheng Liangfang's heart tightened.
Finally, one night after the earthquake, Cheng Liangfang saw her daughter He Nan.
Her body was buried in the rubble, covered in mud. The small fist was clenched tightly, the thumbnail was covered with black blood, and the skin on the surface of the hand was rubbed by sand and stones, and the wound was stained with mud.
He Nan's eyes were tightly closed, and he had long since lost his voice.
That cute little girl with excellent grades and love to dance, she can't wake up again, she hasn't had time to say a few kind words to her mother.
This scene was like a heavy hammer, mercilessly smashing into Cheng Liangfang. This kind of impact is extremely strong pain, Jin Yong can't write, even the best writers in the world can't describe it. Without experiencing this suffocating pain, others simply don't have enough empathy to empathize.
The night wind is a little cooler, and the air is accompanied by the sound of stones colliding from time to time. In addition, only Cheng Liangfang's heart-wrenching cries remained. Her kind of crying was not a wailing cry, nor was it a hysterical cry, that kind of miserable sobbing, so that the people present could not help but look sideways.
Who sees such a scene and does not shed tears?
What is the most painful thing in the world, other people's Cheng Liangfang does not know. But for her, the most painful thing was to see her daughter's corpse. Obviously, she was still a lively and active child before, so why did she suddenly stop talking?
While taking care of his daughter's affairs, He Nan's surviving classmates came to tell Cheng Liangfang. They said that He Nan was tall and had been sitting in the back row of the classroom, particularly close to the back door of the classroom. When the earthquake struck, He Nan instinctively wanted to rush out.
But when she saw that the classmate in front of her was about to be hit, she resolutely ran back to pull the classmate.
When the two turned their heads, the classroom collapsed. Children, school bags, tables and chairs, all mixed with cement rubble. Some children are lucky to survive, but others close their eyes forever.
When she first heard about her daughter's rescue, Cheng Liangfang's tears, which were hard to stop, flowed out again.
Her daughter, who can still think of saving people in the face of danger, is a great little hero, and Cheng Liangfang is relieved and sad in her heart.
Take a new step in life: Cheng Liangfang chooses to get pregnant again
Although the disaster has long passed, the wounds in the heart will not disappear in an instant with the departure of the disaster. Every night before going to sleep, as soon as Cheng Liangfang closed her eyes, a dark void would appear in her daughter's small hand exposed outside the ruins.
She wanted to pull her daughter out, but no matter how hard she pulled and shouted, her daughter just wouldn't respond to her.
Day and night, unable to sleep at all, in desperation, Cheng Liangfang accepted psychological counseling for a period of time. With the help of the doctor, she began to struggle to get rid of the nightmare in her heart.
Gradually, Cheng Liangfang rarely dreamed of the scene when her daughter He Nan had an accident. She also began to find the confidence to live upwards, and she wanted to take her daughter's share and live bravely and strongly.
In addition to Cheng Liangfang, there are many mothers who lost their children in the Wenchuan earthquake. In order to get out of the pain and take a new step in life, many mothers have chosen to have another child, and they poured out the suddenly empty maternal love to another child.
After gaining the understanding and support of the whole family, Cheng Liangfang decided to have another child. At the age of 42, Cheng Liangfang became pregnant.
Choosing to have a baby at the age of 42 is a great but also extremely dangerous thing. In addition to the joy, Cheng Liangfang was also a little worried about the safety of the child in his belly. On weekdays, she is very careful when she eats and dresses. As long as it is beneficial to the fetus in the abdomen, she can persist no matter how difficult it is.
After a few months of pregnancy, Xu was the cause of the elderly mother, and Cheng Liangfang's pregnancy reaction was very intense, and she ate and vomited. Not to mention the puffiness of the legs, and the pain at night is unbearable. Even so, she gritted her teeth until August and September.
But during a maternity check-up, the obstetrician solemnly told Cheng Liangfang that the fetus she was pregnant with was very dangerous, and she had to be prepared for the worst.
Cheng Liangfang heard that her legs were soft again, and she and her family could no longer experience the blow of losing their children. Fortunately, with the joint efforts of doctors and family members, Cheng Liangfang gave birth to a healthy daughter with great difficulty.
Cheng Liangfang named this daughter He Meilin, she did not want anything else, she only hoped that her daughter could grow into a beautiful little girl safely and healthily. This seemingly simple wish is the biggest hope in the life of a once-devastated mother.
After all, what could make mothers happier than a child growing up healthy and happy?
In the blink of an eye, 14 years have passed.
In 2022, Cheng Liangfang is over fifty years old, and her youngest daughter He Meilin has become a beautiful little girl.
He Meilin was as good as her second sister. She has excellent grades, is sensible, and she also likes to dance. In his spare time, he would also pestered his mother to tell some interesting things that happened in school.
Cheng Liangfang's eldest daughter, He Yu, is married and has given birth to a cute baby.
Although everything in the family was destroyed in the earthquake, it was fortunate that there was also the help of the state and countless kind people. With their help, Cheng Liangfang's family, along with others, re-established their home in the midst of ruins.
Cheng Liangfang's husband has never given up the pursuit of a good life, and he takes care of his wife and daughter while working hard again. In the days after the disaster, he had to hold up a piece of heaven for his wife and daughter.
Her husband is working hard, and Cheng Liangfang is also actively running the whole family. Daily housekeeping, sprinkling and washing, although busy, but also busy with fullness and happiness. Especially after the earthquake, this kind of busyness is a rare happiness.
The eldest daughter, He Yu and his wife, are usually busy, in order to reduce the burden of the young couple, Cheng Liangfang offered to help them watch the children. Taking care of small children, she has always been full of patience and care.
Every morning, Cheng Liangfang would carry her little grandson on her back and send her daughter He Meilin to school.
The sun in the sky is just right, and the backs of Cheng Liangfang and her granddaughter are pulled by the sun, looking like an endless and beautiful future.
epilogue
An earthquake in 2008 that destroyed the homes of countless people and claimed countless lives. In the earthquake, Cheng Meiliang lost her second daughter He Nan.
He Nan, an excellent. zealous. Brave little girl. Although she has passed away, she also lives forever in the heart of her mother Cheng Liangfang.
After five years of suffering the loss of her daughter, Cheng Meiliang, a resolute mother, once again chose to be a mother.
Disaster can destroy the human body, but it can never occupy the spiritual realm of man.
Reference Articles:
Nanfang Daily: "They lost their children in the Wenchuan earthquake and reborn, the stories of these 12 "older mothers" made us cry..."