Li quietly told me that she had received the menstruation, and I was surprised: she was only 37 years old! Li is a disabled person, born in 1961. She contracted polio at a very young age and one leg began to shrink. Her family took her to Guangzhou for three surgeries, and the atrophy was finally brought under control. But the shrunken leg was visibly slower than the healthy leg, which prevented her from walking normally and necessitated the use of a crutch.
After graduating from junior high school, Li couldn't find a job and had to stay at home. Every day, she cooked a good meal and waited for her mother and brothers and sisters to come home from work. After three years like this, she was too scared, she had to work.
Li is actually a smart and beautiful girl who is also very capable, just watch her clean up the house so clean and tidy. The mother thought that if she let Li stay at home, others would not bully her, and she would be happy, but who knew that her daughter had so much bitterness! The mother shed two lines of tears.
After the Spring Festival, she left and right, and finally, someone told her that there was a state-run welfare factory willing to open its doors to women, on the condition that the woman consider marrying a disabled person fifteen years older than her. Li agreed without even thinking about it.
Li's husband was hunched over, dark and thin, and looked strange and frightening. On the night of the cave, Li looked at this ugly man who had only met twice, and his heart was extremely frightened. She curled up in the corner of the bed, and the man was also quite sensible, saying, "I'm sorry, didn't you?" Tonight you can sleep in peace, I sleep on the sofa. But how can Li sleep peacefully? She had been vigilantly defensive and had been sleepless all night.
The next day, the third day... A month passed, nothing happened at night, and we ate and worked together during the day. As he learned more about his husband, Li no longer felt that his husband was terrible. Besides, Li also wants to be a mother. So, one night, Li would not let her husband sleep on the sofa. The first time I slept with a man, Li was really unforgettable.
Things are very difficult to handle, both disabled people are for the first time, even posing in an ordinary pose is difficult... Li shed blood and tears that night. Although her mother had confessed before marrying, Li still felt that intercourse was a hard and uncomfortable thing. So, after she became pregnant, she refused to have sex with her husband. When her son turned one year old, she went to wear a ring, but she was unstable because Li's pelvic cavity was somewhat deformed, and she could only give birth to a son by caesarean section. Soon after, she became pregnant with another one and had an abortion.
Li vented his anger on his husband, who had to nod his head and rush to make up for it. In the future, the number of couples having sex together will be pitifully small. From the time she miscarried until her husband's death, the number of couples sharing sex did not reach double digits.
During this period, Li was highly valued and respected in the factory because of his higher education. She felt happy and wanted this life to go on for a long time. But who knows that fate always does not let go of the weak and stubborn Li. The husband died unexpectedly. On the day of the funeral, Li did not cry. Some people in the factory accused her of having no conscience, saying that her husband was so good to her that she did not cry. Li couldn't tell either—she was bleeding in her heart.
When her husband died, his son was not yet six years old. Soon, Li's factory also changed from the salary paid by the previous superior to self-financing. When there is no work, they only have 90 yuan a month to live on. My son went to preschool, and as soon as the school started, there were hundreds less, where to get it?
At this time, the chief of the administrative section came to her with a letter from the Civil Affairs Bureau: an old man from the north was looking for a partner for his son who worked in our city. His son is nearly forty years old, in addition to the fingers of one hand is not so flexible, the body is still quite solid, that is, there are some problems in the brain, and the number of hundreds cannot be counted.
But he worked for his father, the cadre who went south, so the unit was good, and the salary and welfare were good. The condition for the elderly to open is to have a good brain, a disabled person with fertility. At that time, the disabled women in the factory were all married except for the stupid ones, and only Li was left with the conditions for several years who had not recruited young workers.
Li put the letter away for weeks, and hesitated for weeks: after all, her husband had been dead for less than a year. But she finally met the man, and finally became the man's wife. The reason is very simple: Li saw that the man was really honest, and even after playing the marriage certificate, he did not dare to "mess around", the most important thing was that the man had some savings, and the problem of his son's study was solved, so he was relieved to marry.
Since then, Li's life has changed a lot: she has moved to a new two-bedroom and two-hall house, installed telephone air conditioning, color TV refrigerator washing machine, etc., and even the hand-cranked disabled car bought for her by her husband has been replaced by a motor.
After marriage, Li is more open-minded and optimistic, has more friends, and is always idle on holidays, taking his son to the street to play. Her husband was not happy, but he could not help her. At home, the husband who earns the most money is the most statusless person, she and her son can shout at him at any time, but the mother and son will restrain a little when the father-in-law comes to live for a while.
But she didn't feel happy. She said she didn't know what happiness was. The first marriage was for work, and the second time was for the sake of having money and letting the son out. Still, she felt that if she had chosen, she would rather have a first marriage. At that time, although they were poor, it was still comfortable for two people to raise a son with a salary. Most importantly, her husband at that time talked and laughed with her and discussed, and took the initiative to take care of her during sex. The husband now is different, a guy who doesn't know how to temperate. Aren't you worried that the child you have with him will also have problems? Later, Li finally became pregnant.
However, since then, Li has stopped having sex, and she has slept in another small room with her daughter. Today, her daughter is only three and a half years old and she has received the scriptures. Li didn't know why he had received the sutra so early. Perhaps li who has been disabled since childhood is more sober than us, she does not have too many extravagant expectations for marriage, nor does she give up her rights, she neither complains nor fantasizes, but silently does some of her responsibilities, let herself and let the child live better, the vicissitudes of life, and it becomes less heavy in her casual encounter!