Editor's Note
The growth that happens is the blossoming of flowers, the breaking of the shell, the swing of the second from 23:59 at the age of 17 to the zero point of 18 years old, the look back at the past, the moments that are frozen in memory.
On December 17, the youth psychological and emotional healing audio program "Time Gramophone", co-produced by China Youth Daily and Tencent Music, was officially launched.
Looking back on the green years of the past, telling unforgettable growth stories, and cherishing emotional ripples, a new journey of sound healing is about to arrive.
Netizen stories
I am a person who especially loves to compete with myself repeatedly. Exams always want to get full marks, work always have to compete for the first, everything strives to be perfect, even a pox on the face at some point can make me upset for a long time.
"Always pursuing the perfect self" seems to have become a spell that does not give me the slightest breathing space, and it has been a shadow in my life for more than twenty years, it has brought me a glittering resume; it has also made me physically and mentally exhausted countless times.
After talking with friends all night, I found that for so long, I seemed to have forgotten a very important thing: in fact, self-acceptance is also an important topic in the growth test, but the process is really difficult.
—— @Cat's name is Wangcai
Yang Qian shared
When I was a child, I always thought that I was omnipotent and afraid of a mediocre and dull life. When I grew up, I found that I could live every day more calmly by acknowledging the boundaries of my ability, not being bound by external labels and expectations, and daring to face my true self.
How did this change of mindset happen?
Next, you'll hear a story of how you struggle with your imperfect self and finally shake hands.
Hello everyone, I am Yang Qian, it is a pleasure to chat with the audience friends in this way.
First of all, a small episode, in fact, at the beginning, the program director felt that the theme of the story I shared was too "Versailles", but I would like to explain to you very sincerely here: I carefully recall my shooting career so far, and I really feel that being able to accept my own imperfection is the key to my growth as an athlete.
The story can start in 2010.
That year, I was 11 years old and was selected for the shooting team of Ningbo Sports School. Before all the curiosity and excitement could be digested, I was about to start confronting the arena of the clouds of masters.
If I am not nervous or afraid at all, it must be a lie to you, because I am often so scared that I want to turn around and run away.
At that time, it felt very humiliating, but now that I look back, I think it is also a very interesting thing to admit and face up to my fears.
In fact, in the early stage of training, unlike those happy novel plots, there is no addiction to bullets and no false hair, a hundred steps through Yang, only endless boredom and monotony.
At that time, as a junior athlete, I began to have the intention to observe and imitate the performance of my predecessors, repeatedly trial and error and run-in in the process, and summed up a set of training and competition methodologies suitable for me, thinking about how to take a step towards a higher level every day.
I have a habit that has been with me for many years, that is, I insist on recording the situation and thoughts of each practice and competition in a text in a training notebook.
Whenever I solve a new problem and make another old problem, I always go through the notes, look for similar situations, see how I solved them in the first place, and reflect on whether there is a more suitable way to face the same problem now.
Later, when I was in better and better shape and often won the first place, my requirements for myself slowly increased. Especially when I was just admitted to Tsinghua University, I could clearly feel an upward tension grabbing me and running forward.
Therefore, I told myself in my heart: Yang Qian, you are only allowed to move forward, not half a step backwards. However, it backfired.
When I was preparing for the Olympics with great ambition and pride, one day I suddenly found that everything seemed to be frozen. It seems that no matter how hard I try, I can't get the ideal results, and the terrible thing is that there is even a trend of gradual regression.
I have to admit that at that time, I was really panicked, and I didn't understand why I wanted to climb to the top, but instead fell to the bottom.
When all the frustration, anxiety, and doubt came running in a puff of smoke, I chose to fight anxiety with my harsh self.
If you can't beat the ideal ring at the peak, then demand yourself with the highest standards, train shot after shot, and practice until you are satisfied.
In exchange, however, it is a vicious circle of repeated setbacks.
At that time, the question that hovered most in my mind every day was: Yang Qian, why are you so bad now? Are you okay? When will it get better?
Obviously, I don't know the answer myself. Therefore, at that time, I often came out of the mood of chagrin and fell into deep self-blame and inferiority.
Now, after reviewing the bottleneck period of more than a month, I found that it was not that I was not good enough, but that the speed of progress at that time was not as fast as expected.
It was I who framed myself too much, paid too much attention to the perfection of every result and result, and tied my hands and feet, but it affected the stability of the play. Originally, I could have focused on a larger range and adjusted the comprehensive state, but I was limited to the details of the action by the excessive pursuit of perfection.
If I could turn back the clock, I would tell myself at that time that I might as well accept the fact that I was temporarily depressed, and I didn't have to be harsh on perfection and didn't have to demand that everything go smoothly.
Allow yourself to make slow progress, allow your grades to fluctuate occasionally, pursue overall stability, and go all out. As for whether I can win the championship, when I seriously finish the last bullet of my game, I will naturally be able to see the difference.
And after stepping off the podium, everything will be zero.
Shooting competitions are always about comparing myself, with my flaws, imperfections and imperfections.
Perhaps this life experience of mine can also echo the story shared by netizen @cat cat whose name is Wangcai at the beginning of the article.
I hope that in the days to come, we can all get rid of the shackles in our hearts, reconcile with ourselves, accept ourselves, and accept ourselves.
You can strive to chase the glory and glory of being placed on the top of the mountain, and you can also enjoy the temporary self-slump freely and calmly.
There is no need to be overly anxious, because "imperfect" is the natural state of life, and "imperfect" we are equally worthy of love.
Here is the audio program "Time Phonograph" co-produced by China Youth Daily, China Youth Online and Tencent Music.
In the end, I want to share a song "Into the Sea" with you, let time answer growth, let growth answer dreams, let dreams answer life, and let life answer the most real and lovely appearance of you and me.
Producer: Zhang Kun Shi Mechanics
Director system: Mao Hao, Zhao Qian
Total Producer: Min Jie Fu Haojie
Producer: Wang Junxiu
Planner: Ding Wangmin Guo Junkun
Director: Yuan Rui Huang Danwei
Coordinator: Fan Dongning, Li Xuejing, Zhang Shuishui
Copywriter: Huang Danwei
Announcement: Cai Jiaqi Huang Zizhen
Jiabin: Yang Qian
Image source: Visual China
Source: China Youth Daily client