#2021 Cheering Leader #2021 is destined to be an eventful autumn, this year, I am 53 years old, many years ago, a fortune teller, said that I have a threshold at the age of 53, it will be very uncomfortable, although there is a palpitation, but also not too much to pay attention to, just like this, the days are not alarming, to May 22, 2021.
Before this, in the past few years, I experienced the heart-wrenching pain of several people in my mother's family who all got cancer and left, they died, leaving me alone in this world, fortunately, the meticulous care of my husband and son gradually came out of the grief of losing my relatives continuously.
Such trauma, only I know the fear in my heart, the family inheritance of cancer, had to make me feel inexplicable fear, and none of them lived past the age of 53.
On the one hand, I am sad about the departure of my family, on the other hand, I am afraid of the unknown future, in 2021, I am exactly 53 years old, and I even feel that I am already unwell all over my body, and I feel that cancer is opening its blood basin and mouthing at any time, and in this case, I am forced to stay in the hospital for a period of time due to severe depression.
Under the patience and care of my family, I was able to overcome my inner demons and cheer up again, a few years ago, due to family fatigue and hospitalization, the business was seriously damaged, serious illness and poverty alleviation, I changed from a former rich sister to a negative sister...
In order to survive, in order to take responsibility, the 53-year-old had to raise the sails of entrepreneurship again! Over the center acid is difficult, only experienced to know, fortunately through a year or so of efforts, I started from the stall, to open a community physical store, participate in community group buying, during which I also actively participated in many public welfare activities in the community, the most gratifying thing is that we do the community market, flash mob, in the local has a small reputation, life is full of sunshine again,
On the morning of May 22, 2021, I was full of ambition to go to the flash mob site, my heart was still counting, and I was striving to create a new sales high today, but I never expected that a phone call from a police station pressed the pause button of my free life
This stop is a full six months, more than 180 days, these 180 days in my life feel like 1800 days, 18000 days... In the detention center, the word "living like a year" is absolutely appropriate.
On the morning of May 22, 2021, misfortune fell from heaven because of a business transaction eight years ago, and he was reduced to a prisoner. My sky was completely gone, and my only perception at that time was unconscious, and everything felt like a dream.
"Suspect", a word that can never appear in my life dictionary, but in the Mayday of 2021, ruthlessly swept in, whether coincidental or not, the fortune teller's words in a word, I am 53 years old This threshold is too high and too high...
Fate opened the blood basin and opened its mouth, in a vain attempt to swallow me [tears], after more than half a month of struggle between life and death, I have been white-headed overnight, people have lost more than thirty pounds, in the 37 days of arrest on the night, the wind and rain, still strong, I finally can't hold back, fainted in the detention center.
Then I searched for death twice, I naively thought that death was unjust, but as everyone knows, as a criminal suspect, you don't even have the right to die, painfully think about it, since God doesn't accept me, where I only have a humble life, in the second half of 2021, I am better off alive than dead, living in the detention center!
Thanks to Lawyer Liu, the lawyer gave me great encouragement after meeting, thanked my family, and the unwavering trust of my family let me rekindle the hope of life!
There is a saying in "The Shawshank Redemption" that hope is a good thing, perhaps the best thing in the world, good things are never lost, and I finally understand that only with hope and self-redemption can I regain my freedom and return my innocence! Even if you live in the dark, you must try to live a bright life!
Confused after the sober, I myself told myself, I am this age, what storms have not seen, although 2021 this time is like a storm, but my own life carrier, only calm and calm, face this bleak life, the last time I cry I remember it is the Mid-Autumn Festival, every festive season to think of relatives, I secretly swear: before I regained my freedom, I will no longer shed a tear ...
Since then, I have cleaned up my sadness and planned my daily prison life. How not to waste time, do something yourself...
There is no free day, doomed to nothing, the only thing that has is your body and mind, I silently formulated a set of daily feasible physical training plans and writing plans.
Every day when everyone was lying in bed watching TV, I myself jogged in a very small range, and later created a good set of finger 剑️ fists according to local conditions, rain or shine, and insisted on exercising every day, so that in the coldest days of November, I didn't have thick clothes and only wore a thin coat and didn't feel cold, and the young people in the number said that I was in good health [like] Before I came out, the whole number was driven by me to develop habits and exercise every day.
The idea of writing ✍ this experience out became stronger and stronger, and the detention center did not allow pens and papers, so I wrote with my fingers on my legs, and when I finished writing, I memorized them, and most of this article was written on my legs inside, and I called them the leg diaries in the detention center [covering my face].
Every day about an hour of meditation time in the morning, from 2:30 to 5:30 in the afternoon for three hours of meditation, the prisoners are idly blowing in the sea and the sky, in my opinion, there is no nutritious topic, and I myself will use my legs as paper, hand as a pen, and write ✍ my own things!
After seeing too many people and things in the detention center, I know how terrible the legal illiteracy is, how urgent and necessary it is for the whole people to popularize the law, and seeing one sixteen-year-old child sentenced to two years for school violence; seeing an eighteen-year-old child sentenced to six months for borrowing a card from a friend; seeing that because of a few days of work, the salary is less than one thousand, and the company is sentenced to three years and six months in prison for suspected fraud...
I suddenly felt that I wanted to write, I wanted to write, I should write ✍ even if the article was not as gorgeous and moving as others, but what I wrote was the most real, personally experienced the pain of the skin, and a wake-up call with blood lessons! The world needs reverence too much!
The people and things in the detention center are the most wanted by the suspects and their families, I know my family's worries too well, we and the outside world are a vacuum, they have too many worries, there are too many overwhelmed, if I can tell them some of the things they want to know most urgently, for example, will we be beaten inside, how are we eating? How was the stay, what should I do if I get sick? How our day went by and so on...
Thanks to myself, in the detention center can also work hard to pick up the fragments of the heart, piece together a complete detention center life, I have 180 days with my hands as a pen, legs as paper, wrote out a lot of people and things in the detention center, I will continue to send out, hoping to help the unfortunate prisoners and family members, at the same time I also wrote about 100 real cases seen in prison, intended to let the prisoners abandon evil Yang Shan, the family members of the prisoners can feel at ease, the world has a reverence for the law!
In 2021, I did not have the highlight time as expected, some are after experiencing hardships, I have a deeper experience of life, freedom, and some are full of gratitude to my lawyers, prosecutors, detention center cadres, inmates who gave me the first apple, including my strong self...
The highlights in the good times are fascinating, the highlights in the adversity are still dazzling, 2021 is unforgettable for me, this period of time will not be erased, but it can not stop me from living well, as the sailor lyrics say: He said what is this pain in the wind and rain, wipe away the tears do not be afraid, at least we still have dreams...
2021 is like a Mercedes-Benz train, only a short January journey remains, and I will not investigate the past and indulge in the past when I regain my freedom!
After a week off, I started to get busy again, and yesterday's first flash mob set sail again! And it's not bad! Which confident me will be born again in the wind and rain!