If going to school is the starting point of a life race, I lost on the first day.
So more eager to be noticed, discovered, recognized.
My hometown is Ji'an City, Jilin Province, which is not large, surrounded by mountains on three sides, facing the Yalu River on the one hand, and the other side of the river is North Korea. Ji'an was originally only the county seat, because it was opposite the North Korean city of Manpu, so Ji'an later became a city. On the night of the upgrade from county to city, the whole city came out to celebrate and set off a lot of fireworks. I didn't see anything, and when I looked up, it was all big heads. I was six years old.
When I was young, there were only tens of thousands of people in the entire Ji'an urban area, so what was the concept? Basically my dad had to say hello to passers-by when he took two steps, and he was full of acquaintances on the street, and it was very difficult to go shopping. Once I witnessed a fight in which each of the parties called in some helpers to fight, and it turned out that not only were the people called the same group, but the two were distant relatives. At that time, most of the peers in Quanji'an knew each other, basically the same elementary school, the same junior high school and the same high school, I grew up in this small town, and I was wrapped up in a sense of security, so that later when I went to college to Changchun, I couldn't see the mountains, and I would panic. But everything needs to be adapted, and in the beginning, I will feel empty in Ji'an, because I can't feel the eyes of everyone looking at me.
I was single on my first day of elementary school. The teacher organized the whole class to sing: the sun was shining, the flowers were smiling at me, the birds said early and early..." I was stupid. More than forty students in the class were singing, and I couldn't, what kind of song is this? I asked my table mates, who were more surprised than I was: "You can't sing?" Didn't you go to preschool?
I really didn't go to preschool, for various reasons. Not being able to sing that song made me feel inferior, and the first time I felt that I might be missing something compared to other children, on the first day of school. In the days that followed, I became even less confident, and I found myself with more than just one song. Everyone also learned some basic arithmetic and Chinese in the preschool class, and I didn't know it, and my classmates were not very willing to play with me.
In order not to be ignored by everyone, I even weave a lie. One day in the first grade of elementary school, I suddenly said to my classmates, "Actually, I know Sun Wukong, he is my uncle." "At that time, Journey to the West was very popular, and children often played Sun Wukong to fight monsters, and I often played monsters. I don't want to be bullied all the time, just say that my uncle is Sun Wukong, and those stupid children actually believe it.
The first time I got the attention of my classmates was because of lies, but I was not ashamed and enjoyed it very much. Sometimes at the end of class, I would point to a mountain and say, "Look,
My uncle lives there. Occasionally, when smoke rises from the mountain, I'll say, "Look, my uncle is fighting monsters again." Later, the news reached the teacher's ears.
Later, I continued to play the monster.
There are not many elementary school things I can remember, but I am impressed by one thing. At that time, the class selection cadre, I was honored to be the flag bearer, that is, the person who raised the flag in front of every activity. I think it's cool, because people in movies and TV dramas are sacrificing for the sake of planting red flags. The red flag is a symbol, and the red flag should never fall, so when the class goes out to activities, I not only walk and raise the flag, but also hold it up when eating. Many classmates will laugh at me, I will be laughed at and will return the mouth, don't take the flag bearer as an improper cadre or something. At that time, a classmate said: "The health committee is in charge of health, the study committee is in charge of study, and the labor committee is in charge of labor. You're in charge of the flag, not the people. ”
I don't like the feeling of being ignored. Finally, one day, the school informed me that I could join the Young Pioneers and wear red scarves like my big brothers and sisters in the senior grades. They said that the red scarf was dyed with the blood of martyrs, and that it was a recognition to be a Young Pioneer, and I was particularly happy.
My mom prepared a red scarf for me. The ceremony of joining the Young Pioneers was held in the afternoon, and before going out that day, my mother touched my head and said, "When you go out of the house and come back, you are a Young Pioneer, you are different." Unfortunately, it rained that day, the ceremony did not take place as scheduled, and I returned home with a red scarf. I especially didn't want to disappoint my mother, so I tied a red scarf around my neck at the door of the house. Because I can't tie it, but I just tied a dead knot. I adjusted my mood and ran into the house and said to my mother, "Mom, the Young Pioneers are back, your son is different." My mom looked at the dead knot and smiled, not piercing me.
Why do I want people to pay attention to me so much? There may be another reason: I was born in January 1982, and january of this year is still the lunar year of the rooster, and I did not belong to the dog, so I went to school with the children born in 1981. From elementary school to college, I was always the youngest in my class. And because my birthday is close to the Spring Festival, every time I have a birthday, I am on winter vacation, and other students can receive birthday cards on their birthdays, but I don't have anything. I always fantasized about what my classmates would write if they gave me a birthday card. I have the illusion that I am not cared for by others.
I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me, I'm just trying to give myself a reasonable reason for the crazy stories I'm going to write next: it all comes from a nursery rhyme that I can't sing. If school is the starting point of a life race, I lose on the first day, so I am more eager to be noticed, discovered, and recognized. Later, I used various methods to get ahead and learn all kinds of skills to arm myself, all because I wanted to be different.
Did you find out? This article is only the first time that the word "you" is used as the beginning of a paragraph, and the previous one is all "I". Because I'm really afraid you won't see "me."