Watching my mother and mother-in-law reverently kneel in front of the Buddha statue of Guanyin, praying for me in the morning Takako, I turned my head.
Secretly cheer yourself up: don't give up your previous achievements! Even if I tear my face off with them, I will stick to my original intention of being a dink.
My name is Yuan Ruoxin, 30 years old. And her husband Qian Yuanyang is a college classmate, after graduating with a master's degree, the two of us quickly entered the marriage. Meet without children, happy and happy to live in the world of two.
Now we are both in the management of the company, busy working every day, a small farewell after a business trip, a warm storage after returning home, forming a symphony of life, he likes, I like.
But the good times were not long, in the second year after marriage, the parents of both sides saw that my stomach had not moved, looking for various folk remedies and asking for various doctors.
All mysterious, mother-in-law and husband nagging, my mother told me, not pregnant is not a physical reason or too busy work. Every time we both made excuses to prevaricate and say that we were still young and not in a hurry.
During the Mid-Autumn Festival of 2015, when everyone was having dinner at my house, I told my in-laws and parents that I didn't want to have children.
My mother turned her face to me and said, "You are just selfish, if you insist on not having children, you don't want anything from me and your father's property!" ”
My mother-in-law wanted to talk and stopped, and from the look in her eyes, I saw disappointment.
"Husband, why don't you smoke?"
"Wife, I think we are still vulgar, if we don't have children, our parents can't get through." You didn't see that most of our classmates have children, and it should be a very interesting thing to grow up with a child. ”
"You're not going to turn your back, are you?" Don't our initial engagements and vows count? ”
"Wife, I quit smoking and drinking, and I want to be a father!" My husband picked me up and walked to the bedroom.
After the frenzy, I felt very lost. My husband changed his mind, what should I do?
September in the north is lukewarm or lukewarm, but my mood is not refreshing.
Looking at the two red bars on the pregnancy test stick, my thoughts quickly flew: I want to contact the doctor immediately to do the abortion, child, I am determined not to give birth.
Giving birth to a child is terrible, pregnant in October bloated body, postpartum depression, the collapse of writing homework with the baby, the parents who are killed by the child, I have palpitations when I think about it.
I called my husband and told me I was going to fly to Thailand for ten days on a business trip.
That day, my husband deliberately took a leave of absence, returned home and first gave me a pot of silver ear lotus seed soup, and then sent me to the airport after a big fight in bed.
Along the way, he told me to eat and live, saying that in order for me to conceive a child as soon as possible, I must not neglect the details of life.
Listening to her nagging, I vaguely agreed, feeling particularly irritable inside.
When I came back from Thailand, I lost weight all over my body and took birth control pills every time in order not to get pregnant again. I even rushed to go on a business trip, and I also hoped that my husband would travel more.
I have never been pregnant. Gradually, my husband's needs became less intense, and I suppressed my desires.
In this way, I can find a suitable reason to persuade my husband to stick to our agreement and face the Dink life with me.
In the Spring Festival of 2019, my husband said that the unit was on duty, and I did not want to see the eyes of my mother and mother-in-law who wanted my grandchildren, so I chose to be at home alone for the New Year.
I lazily leaned into the sofa, looked at the circle of friends, gave familiar friends and colleagues a thumbs up, and said goodbye to the New Year. Usually too busy, I rarely pay attention to the dynamics of the circle of friends.
When I saw a circle of friends of women called "Rose Bubble", I was completely stunned.
Since September 2018, she posted the hospital birth photos of her precious daughter, every other week, she will post a woman and a man's hand, holding a photo of a cute daughter, holiday travel photos, baby birthday photos, each photo will be accompanied by warm text.
And the man's hand I am too familiar with, although the angle of the photo is tried to hide, the faint "Qy" letter on the wrist, is the embroidery of love that I and my husband do not abandon, this "rose foam" is actually my third-term student sister.
My heart instantly fell to the bottom, when my husband cheated, I didn't know, all day to avoid pregnancy. I felt ridiculous.
I drafted the divorce agreement, packed up my supplies, and left the home where I had lived for five years overnight.
On the third day of the Chinese New Year, I received a call from my husband at the hotel. He said only one sentence: "I have signed the divorce agreement!" "Without any explanation,
I said, "Congratulations! My daughter is so old! ”
I saw a sentence on the Internet: I said that I was born and died to the white head, but you baked oil halfway.
Whether it is the three views that determine the direction of feelings, or whether paranoia bends the straw of marriage, I am so confused.