"Look at these little bits." In the small conference room of the Shanghai Football Association on the 16th floor of the Oriental Sports Building, Pu Wei opened his mobile phone calendar, "Because the memory is not very good, I am used to arrange all the schedules in the mobile phone first. She said she was really busy, but at the same time she was convinced, "Doing what you like." ”
Since joining the Football Association in September last year, she has been transferred to the technical department as the head coach of the Shanghai u11 elite team. A while ago, she became the press officer at the home of Shenhua in the Shanghai division of the Chinese Super League. "I have several roles on my side now and I have a passion for each one. I think that although I am busy, I am really happy to live! ”
Her shoes are so beautiful
She casually put on a pair of sports shorts and a sports jacket, all of which are the usual equipment issued by the Football Association. Only a pair of Loafer shoes on the feet, shiny and somewhat eye-catching. Pu Wei loves shoes, all kinds of shoes. The first time she earned money in her life was when she was loaned to Zhejiang to play the preliminary round of the National Games in the youth team, and incidentally represented them in the athletics competition. I got a gold medal and received a prize of 250 yuan. He immediately rushed to the Elle shop on Nanjing Road and bought a pair of shoes for himself. More than two hundred pieces, old and expensive at that time! ”
She often likes to share her new shoes in the circle of friends. When a friend goes abroad, she will let them buy shoes that are fashionable at the moment.
Legendary gymnast Komanech once told us that the highest praise for a woman is to praise her shoes for being beautiful. Shoes are important for women in the new era because they often walk a lot of roads and go to many places alone. The road in this world is not very easy to walk, there must be good shoes, many, many good shoes, so that every way forward is less obstructed and stumbling. Praising a woman's shoes for being beautiful means, to some extent, an endorsement of her independent spirit, the same as praising her for living beautifully.
Two months ago, Pu Wei stuffed three pairs of shoes in his suitcase and rushed to France. As a guest commentator on the sports channel, she stayed there for more than a month. From north to south, the song "l'hymne des femmes" (women's hymne) will ring out in the stands of every World Cup she has stepped on: "Our time has come, know our power..."
Just as Chastain's stunning departure after winning the World Cup 20 years ago symbolized the liberation of women's bodies at the end of the 20th century; 20 years later, Rapinoe and her teammates intimidated the president of the FA, which marked the women of this era. "The overall pattern of people shaped by each era is different." Pu Wei sighed. She thinks of the Chinese women's football team and feels sorry for them. "More than half of these kids have been teammates with me, and they are actually a group of players with a lot of personality, but in this game, their abilities and personalities have not been released."
Pu Wei thinks that when she is a player, she has never been afraid to express herself. "I used to be three in and three out of the national team, why? Because I saw the problems that existed in the team at that time, and I had no way to change it, then staying was equivalent to going against my original intention to do things, and I was definitely not happy and could not do well. Since the process and the result are already doomed, wouldn't it be better for me not to do it? ”
But forced by resistance, of course, because of reluctance, she always returned again and again. It can be seen from here that she has the spirit of awakening in her, but it is not thorough enough, and she is still limited by the times. She remembers that she is three in and three out, but there are media counts out, in fact, six in and six out. The memory has long been blurred, and in addition to the frequently changed manager's names, only a few impressions can be remembered.
The first occurred at the end of 2003, a brief exodus. "The Shanghai team played in the league in Yiwu, and at that time it was signed a long contract, and the annual league was put there to play. After we finished the championship and runners-up, we were immediately pulled to a meeting. At that time, the leadership team and the coaching team were rotated, and Xue Li, vice chairman of the Football Association, and Zhang Haitao, the new coach, were all there, and the players who were selected for the national team list were called to a meeting at the scene. I just thought, the game here has just ended, there is a meeting over there, and the pressure is so great that I am about to explode. The Shanghai team's game was over, there was no time and channel to release the pressure of the game, and I was about to face the pressure from the national team again. ”
Within a day or two after the meeting, the national team will be concentrated, "I can't bear it, not that I have ideas about changing leaders and coaches, the first reaction is that the pressure is too much." Still wanted to ease up for myself, slowed down for two weeks, and went to Guangzhou in the middle. They trained in Guangzhou and communicated with Xue Li and the head coach. After the communication, I came back, adjusted for another week, and thought clearly and decided to go back. ”
She sometimes looks back on her nearly 20 years of playing career and thinks it would be interesting to draw a graph. "The starting point is at the top, after the 1999 World Cup. And then all the way down, down. It wasn't until the last time I went back to the national team, by the time I retired, that the line went up a little bit. Because my ideas have changed, I no longer demand myself from my grades. And the coach doesn't rotate so quickly and is relatively stable. After retiring, the line has been flat. ”
I just feel cold
'I retired in 2014, it wasn't physical at the time, I could have played again.'
I just feel cold.
"The last time I went back to the national team in 2012 was when Hao Dao (Hao Wei) took it. After going this time, my mind changed, and I really wanted to help these children, lead them to take fewer detours, and learn more things from me. In this way, even if I leave completely one day, I can leave some useful spiritual wealth for the team. ”
But something happened in the process that made Pu Wei feel disillusioned.
She said goodbye and there was no next training session. "The coaching staff is also relatively young, probably inexperienced, and haven't interacted with me further. So that's it, retired. In fact, it can be continued, including playing another World Cup. ”
In early February of that year, the Chinese Football Association held a retirement ceremony for her. She feels that this is a recognition of herself and of the women's football team. "The FOOTBALL ASSOCIATION has never held such a formal retirement ceremony before. I was still in the U.S. and came back. It happened to be a match between the women's soccer team and the North Korean team, and I greeted all the team members before I finished the ceremony, and I had a feeling that I didn't dare to look at them head-on..."
Between the in and out of the national team, she became in contact with a society that had no previous opportunity to contact. "I know a lot of people, people who have nothing to do with football, but all pay attention to women's football. Although the team's performance has plummeted, their attitude towards me and the Chinese women's football team is tolerant and respectful. My own mentality has also changed in the middle of this, looking down on many things, and my heart has gradually calmed down. In the past, I used to put pressure on myself with results, why did the Chinese women's football team suddenly have such poor results, is there something I have done badly? I put a lot of responsibility on myself, the burden is too heavy. But in the end, I just want to give the children more things and create more wealth in life for them. ”
So we can imagine that the experience in Australia was enough to completely discourage her. In the year before leaving the national team, she had communicated with relevant leaders and hoped to fight for more welfare benefits for everyone.
At that time, the national team also planned to refer to the standard of U.S. women's football welfare, and the national team members were divided into three levels: main force, substitute and super substitute to do salary distribution. But until the time I left, it hadn't been implemented. Later, when the leader still talked to me about this, I said, 'I've been back to the national team for more than a year, and I've heard you talk a lot, but everything hasn't changed in essence, so let's leave this welfare to my sisters.' ’”