I don't know from which age I have self-examination, but I have been trying to keep a faithful record of words, deeds, and ideas over the years. Man is always fickle and complex, and although he has more than five years of records, he still dare not say that he has insight into the whole of himself.
It's just that every time the text in my hand is more spaced, it can always reveal a star and a half of the real idea - it turns out that I thought so at the time, and it turns out that this is insincere... All kinds of new and interesting discoveries have undoubtedly allowed me to get as close as possible to the 'unattainable' self in the mirror.
Beside the words, the process of writing down true thoughts is like breaking free from the shackles and escaping from a gray corner, free and free. Telling the truth to oneself will make people feel physically and mentally transparent, and besides, there is no reason for people to hide themselves.
Contemporary times are about to open up, and of course, human nature still needs time to slowly liberate. So much so that I often feel overwhelmed when I have the urge to think of women.
The rational side is always righteous, dragging this 'blushing thought' to the intersection and pronouncing judgment in public:
Turns out you're also a 'lustful' person? Are you only satisfied to be a visual animal? Content with just the pleasure of appearance? A pair of good-looking legs can't help but look at it a few times?
I can't argue with the rules of morality, but I like beautiful girls or like them, I have this in my heart, what can I do?
Therefore, when I saw Ji Xianlin write that after college classes, I ran to the stadium to see the girls' slender and beautiful legs, I couldn't help but think deeply. After all, I didn't steal or rob, just beautiful, beautiful things kept calling to me from afar, what could I do?
As for whether it is excessive desire or nature, let him go. In fact, carefully calculated, loving to see beautiful girls and heartbeats are two different things.
Some beautiful girls have an indescribable sense of distance, "You can only look at it from a distance and you can't play with it." "I don't want to know anything else, just look at the natural beauty and enjoy the beauty of the moment."
As for my heartbeat, I almost forgot this feeling, and it seems that I have cultivated more and more purely. I can only say it with a bit of hazy feeling and reading experience.
The experience of being attracted requires special 'situations' and specific moods, and when you see a certain action of the other person, suddenly, it evokes certain fantasies and hints in your subconscious or dream, and perfectly coincides with the other person.
At this time, it was like Baoyu said, "I have seen this sister before!" "Inexplicable sense of familiarity, each of them especially wants to be close to each other.
Without this touch of the time, that is, true love is around for a few years, people may be 'accustomed to it', slowly turn a blind eye, until they lose it. At this time, don't blame anyone, who makes your subconscious 'true love switch' can only be triggered by separation.
In the time when I was not yet enlightened, this side from time to time asked me to take the initiative, which was quite annoying. After all, this side of the anxiety on the one hand has the age as a cover, but on the other hand may just want to vent.
I can still perceive this at a glance, and it is probably not difficult to distinguish between 'it's a woman' and 'it has to be interesting'. That being said, when desire is extremely strong, it can also be confused.
There is a kind of unreasonable rebuke to yourself, you only find a need to take what you need, and then change it later. Have to endure?
His words are very reasonable, like men and women are consumer goods for each other, enough to use first, and then change when encountered, and the economic mind is at the top. Chen Shimei and the like are afraid to jump up and agree, the question is, do you want to?
After all, it involves deception, and I can't pass the level in my heart, but I also made concessions, and I can watch some beautiful girls quench their thirst. This side is also suitable for coaxing, if you are more oppressed, the more irritability in your heart will only become.
Stabilize at the restless threshold first, then find something to relax, transfer it, and don't make a fuss.
Usually very serious, but always very serious is to get sick.
This side is probably still a seven- or eight-year-old mentality, and some things that are often done are like:
Crouch at the foot of the poplar tree, watch the ants in the afternoon, catch crickets from the leaf piles, 'sneak' on the artificial lake, lean under the tree and raise your face, count the yellow leaves above your head, go to the park to dig soil, pinch the mud people... That's right, that's what I used to do when I was thirty years old.
When you are close to nature, your heart rejoices. The flowers that bloom on the side of the road, red, purple, pink... You have to take care of yourself to smell it, and the faint fragrance is pressed against your cheeks.
Today, in terms of age, he is also an adult. Just be careful not to just get intoxicated and forget about work.
It is not enough for people to laugh at themselves, but to be able to laugh at all the ridiculous people in the world.
Reading books presented me with a large and rich group of characters, and the thoughts, actions, mentalities, and emotions of various people became cells under the microscope under the pen of some people, and they were looked at by people outside the book.
Among them, fun, worldly reason, personal demeanor, emotional entanglement... I often miss it, and reading makes time leisurely. Every time I reread it in the future, it was a wake-up call to the time of sealing.
As for the consequences of really encountering the 'people in the book', there is inevitably a sense of absurdity and crossing, probably life is like a drama, inside and out.
The bad thing about this side is that it is quite delayed, it does not earn money, it cannot make a girlfriend, and it is not economically useful at all.
Addicted, this can not be put down.
I usually talk less, but writing here should be able to show that I am not 'implicit', the main reality is that there are fewer people who communicate speculation, and it is too difficult to find a speculative person.
It is better to behave 'only promises', be subtle, and make people look safe. But in my bones, I am a person who advocates expression and communication, whether it is history, culture, philosophy, or my own profession.
But in fact, the joy of communication is often mixed with a little vanity, and it is often blown up when it is said and said. My ideal side often restrains myself, don't say what you can't do, don't say what you don't know.
When people are serious, they must be subtle. After all, compared to the unknown things, I only saw a few chicken and garlic skin, where is the good intention to take it out and shout.
This refers to the "sentimentality" of not listening to 'everyone sweeping the snow in front of the door, and not caring about the frost on the tiles of others'.
I have met many good people, and it seems that I am slowly and a little 'affectionate', always thinking that others may have their own help.
I often say in my heart, what do you do to help figure something 'sneaky'? What does whether other people are good or bad have anything to do with me? Isn't that just blindness? I reject my thoughts on the grounds of trouble.
Sometimes it's okay not to help, one helps, the person only has ulterior motives, and the other is that bystanders say that you are stupid and young. Therefore, if you want to help, you have to help secretly and without leaving a trace, no one knows that you did it, the best.
This is reasonable, but occasionally I still can't help it, like lustful and good teachers, I want to help others have some nature, maybe I have it in my heart, and you are not good and always refuse.
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