A third letter to the woman I love dearly

My dear:

It's late at night, when thoughts are flooded, endless thoughts occupy my mind, countless words want to say to you, but there is no way to say, the first letter is occasionally remembered to write on the mobile phone, telling how I fell in love with you, hurriedly told the story of being together and separated, but unfortunately there is no way to deliver, had to be posted on their own account, many people looked, said I am unrequited love, do not understand love, should not be silly, anyway, what is said, I do not care, that is, to pin my thoughts, Up to now, seven or eight thousand people have read my letters to you, so sorry, I don't know how to send them to you, and I don't want to hear back from you, because I don't know what attitude you will have, I think more should be angry, but I have no way, if there is no outlet, I am afraid I will collapse.

The second letter was also written and sent out, which means that after the breakup, I quietly loved you for a long time behind everyone's back, yes, separated for almost a month, I can't let go of you, greet you warmly, send you something, it's a pity, I can only silently put everything on the doorman, I don't dare to see you head-on, this pain really can't tell others.

Today I wrote you a third letter, a mutual friend sent WeChat asking me what I was doing, I don't know how to say it, I didn't do anything back, read the book, do what I want to do to do a simple self, and then there is no then, friends may not know how to reply to me, only I know, I may be in the robbery, break myself open, smash, and shed water and then pinch myself again, there is a busy daytime during the day, in the store, in the car, there is a scenery on the road, even if I have no intention of appreciating, but the scenery is there They filled my blank empty eyes, but how should I live at night, the cold room, the cold bed is the whole stage of my performance, the repertoire is all the past with you in this year, the tears wet the eyes, the pillow is wet, I can only change the posture, change the pillow, how the weather in early winter is so cold, as if I can hear the heart being frozen into ice, and then fall from a high place, the bang shattered into a slag of the ground, today is two months apart, I can't help but miss having broken off contact with you for half a month, to quote a passage I saw

I wish you a spring blossom without having to go to the sea,

I wish you the company of not having to be displaced

I wish you didn't have to stay up through the night and had waited for a good night

If these are difficult, I wish you peace and security,

Forgive me, I can't wish you happiness, I can only wish you peace and security, and I will continue to write to you in the days to come, and I also wish me to reinvent myself and get out of the darkness as soon as possible.