About author:Li Shuwei, pen name: Huilong, born in April 1958 in Huanghua, Hebei Province, now lives in Chengde. He is a member of the Communist Party of China, a senior engineer, a member of the Writers Association of the Ministry of Natural Resources of China, the Chinese Essayists Association, the China Old Writers Association, the Hebei Writers Association, and the vice chairman of the Chengde Writers Association. More than 2 million words of literary works are occasionally published in newspapers and magazines such as Poetry Journal, People's Literature, Land Literature, Geological Exploration Herald, Great Wall, Hebei Daily, Chengde Evening News, Hebei Geological Survey and so on. He is the author of: "Huilong Anthology", "Huilong Miscellaneous Essays", "Selected Short Stories of Huilong", and "First Entry into the Career". He has won the first prize of the "Dahan Cup" National Essay Competition, the first prize of the Tao Yuanming Essay Contest, the second prize of the Hebei Provincial Bureau of Geology and Mineral Resources Staff Essay Competition, the second prize of the Essay Category of the Second "New Horizons" Cup National Literature Competition, and the Fourth Literary and Art Prosperity Award of Chengde City.
Feeling life in the hospital [outside one]
Wen Li Shuwei
The disaster from June to August of the year of Gengzi made me deal with the hospital for three months. In these three months, the doctor changed the rules of my sixty-two years of life, so that I had a deeper understanding and understanding of the hospital.
The happiest place in the world is the hospital. Some people were surprised to be parents, grandparents, grandparents; took the relatives who had recovered from a long illness home for reunion; the operation of the relatives was successful, and as expected, all the relatives and friends were congratulating each other...
The saddest place in the world is also a hospital. Loved ones leave us forever; fetuses die in the delivery room; things that are empty of money often happen........... A cry and laugh; a drama, in the hospital, every day is staged, the kind of sadness and joy in the world. The two subjects we cannot escape as human beings are life and death. After I was hospitalized due to illness, I saw the medical staff, tired of receiving patients every day, and wrote a small poem "I am not an angel" with feelings, which made many medical staff cry, so the medical staff told me the story of what happened in the hospital. As a sincere realist writer, he saw the current situation of patients and the medical system with the eyes of mortals, so that the human nature of people who came here for medical treatment was exposed in the hospital. I saw in their stories the flaws of the system and the desire and respect for life. Government officials told the people: Minor illnesses do not leave the village, and major illnesses do not leave the village. If you go out of the country, you have to reflect on how much medical insurance can reimburse...
Feeling three, the story that happened in the hospital is more real, more lamentable, and more full of sad and joyful meanings. Hospitals are the closest place to death, and here, heaven is within reach. Life and humanity are transparent and fragile here. Lonely souls hovered over the hospital, coldly watching the world's most painful cries, the most heartfelt joys, the most pathetic helplessness, and the most isolated indifference.
The "Cancer Diary" I wrote has exceeded 50,000 words, and many friends who have seen it have been extremely moved by the story inside. I don't know if they were confused because of guilt or because of my understanding of human nature. Just like I sincerely said to Director Zhao: I like to make friends with your doctors the most, and the story you casually told about the cow and the civil servant getting cancer at the same time made me unable to sleep for several nights, especially the cow was in the late stage of cancer, and the civil servant was in the early stage of cancer. However, it didn't take long for the cow to recover miraculously, and the civil servant died of cancer, and your sentence: the patient's mentality, deciding on the cure effect, made me think for several days... You told me that in the hospital you found a very real phenomenon, the vast majority of vegetative guardians are mothers, and the spouse agrees to give up treatment...
A child who dies for his parents is usually not the child that his parents love most at home. I often hear the escort shouting on the phone very angrily: Our mother used to hurt you the most, the result? My mother has been hospitalized for more than a month, and you have not been here once...
There is a little girl who has just opened her heart sinus has uterine cancer, when preparing for hysterectomy, we must catch the first young and handsome man who sent her to the hospital, do not let him run, otherwise the person who paid for the medical expenses in advance can only be his parents... That's why I say that hospitals are the most authentic places to test human nature. Here you can see not only some of the real face, but also naked humanity.
When an old man was discharged from the hospital, his son came to pick him up, and the old man happily closed his mouth and said: You are so busy, you don't have to come to pick him up personally? The old man boasted every time: Look at how filial my son is, he came to pick me up and discharge me. In fact, our patients know best, the elderly have been hospitalized for more than half a year, and this is the second time that my son appears, and the first time is the day of hospitalization. For half a year, his daughter was taking care of it, even so, the old man still blamed his daughter every day, and no son had a chance...
Another time, a girl came to do a miscarriage, just after the operation, the girl said to the nurse: My boyfriend is waiting for me outside, please tell him, I have finished the operation, let him not worry. But in fact, the door was already empty. The girl couldn't help but cry, pale face, biting her lower lip hard, from the time she found out that she was pregnant and told the boy, the boy played the game head and did not look up to tell her: Hit it immediately, she actually should know... However, the doctor told the girl that such boys are not one or two, almost half of the boys, after the operation, are not waiting at the door, some people choose a new partner, some people calculate when it is more appropriate to break up with the girl. Irresponsible people are like this, please young and beautiful girls, be sure to control yourself, don't let yourself be a wild dog of love. Don't scold the dog, this kind of man is not as good as a dog, you know? There is a saying in the hospital: outside the delivery room, it is the grandparents who are anxious, the grandparents who are excited and anxious, and the father who is glorified by the king. Speaking of which, I know that many people have been unable to hold back and want to say: what you are saying is a case, indeed, a lot of love, affection, before the test of life and death, but why when the operation is over, the door opens, some people go to see the child first, some people go to see the mother first. Almost everyone subconsciously thinks that the first to see the child must be the grandparents, and the first to see the mother must be the grandparents, because too many people do this. Some people are reluctant to admit it, but it is true that families that adopt children are overwhelmingly infertile by men, and the vast majority of women's infertility end in divorce.
The most in the adult ward is the escort and nanny, and the most in the children's ward is the grandparents, grandparents, parents and mothers... Having said all this, I am not advocating the inherent evil of human nature, but when we see the "phenomenon", we can face it squarely before it becomes reality, change it with actions, since we are born as human beings, we must be worthy of the word "conscience", may our society, the old have some support, the young have some education, everyone will be gentle. The story in the hospital is always a story, but our life is still that life. There is cold and warm in the world, and it is precisely because we have seen a lot of thin feelings that we know more about the preciousness of sincerity.
Cherish the person who loves you.
See the warmth around you.
We must use our most authentic hearts to treat our relatives, lovers, and friends well, and cultivate blessings.
In this life, we can all fulfill our wishes regarding love.
The world has never been perfect, often filled with sadness and tears.
There is always the warmth of unexpected encounters, and the endless hope of life, which makes us tear up.
Each of us must strive to love and cherish, live well, and be kind to ourselves and others.
2. The perception of a daffodil painting
Zhang Chunying, vice chairman of the Municipal Writers Association and sister of the master, and Li Yaping, a famous poet, a teacher at a certain school in the city, and his sister Li Yaping came to visit his home, and Yaping's sister gave me a daffodil painting of my own creation. The head of this daffodil is umbel-shaped, the color is green-leaved white flowers, the petals are oval-shaped, the filaments are short, the peduncle is long, and the leaves are narrow and flattened. According to legend, Narcissus was the embodiment of Emperor Yao's daughter Emperor E and Nüying. The two of them are married to Shun, the sister is the queen, the sister is the concubine, and the three have a very good relationship. Although they were born into the royal family and were also imperial concubines, they were deeply influenced and taught by Yao Shun, and they did not covet pleasure, but always cared about the suffering of the people. When he heard that Shun had died on the southern tour, Emperor E and Empress Dowager Ying were both martyred at the Xiang River.
Heaven had mercy on the two people's love and affection, so they turned their souls into riverside daffodils, and they also became the flower gods of the Wax moon daffodils. Since I fell ill, Wenyou was very worried, they were engaged in all walks of life, each had a magical ability, and they all advised me: There are not many things in life that can fulfill people's wishes, and they will not go anywhere. If you want to embrace the sun, you only want to stand in the rain, who is also helpless. I looked at their smiling faces and remembered the words, "I've never seen a diligent, cautious, honest man who wakes up early complains about bad luck." ”
Oh, yes? As the saying goes: there are only three things in a man's life, the first is God's business, you have to follow him, you can't come hard with him, you can't get him. The second is other people's business, don't follow the blind mix, can save dim sum, just save dim sum, help more will become a wrongdoer, the third thing is their own thing? Be sure to make your own decisions, and you can't point to others. Because good character, good habits, and strong will will will not be easily defeated by the supposed so-called fate.
Looking at Teacher Yaping, since I knew her, I felt that she was her own sister, not because of her surname Li, but more importantly, her character of not accepting defeat! Although, she writes poetry well, but say to learn to paint? You can dive into your heart and draw like a mesmerizing. There is also the little sister Zhang Chunying, who is a humble, enthusiastic and loyal person, who has been working hard all their lives and are shaping a different version of themselves.
In fact, life is like this, the harder people work, the easier it is to meet unexpected surprises. Although they are all leaders and enviable strong women in their jobs, God still sprinkles some chili noodles in their personal lives from time to time. Originally, it was just a small opening in the hand, only because of the stimulation of chili noodles, which brought a chain reaction to their respective lives, or more accurately, a little unsatisfactory.
Thinking of this life disaster at the age of sixty-two, it seems that the world is a mirror that illuminates our hearts, what the heart is, what the world is. If you choose to complain about God's unfairness, your heart will be full of pain, darkness and despair; if you choose to be grateful, choose God to take care of me, let me taste all kinds of life, you will feel that the world is full of sunshine, hope and love. Therefore, I promised the two girls: face the reality, adjust the mentality, never complain, because the habitual complaint is to pour water into their shoes, and over time it will only become more and more uncomfortable.
The ancients often said: Seek inward inwardly in the heart, and seek outward in the Tao. The best way to change your life is not to complain about things, face them correctly, and think more about ways to solve them. If people want to mature, they can't just paint wrinkles on their foreheads, and they can't carve wrinkles in their own hearts. Instead of complaining about the injustice of god, it is better to change your attitude towards life; instead of complaining about others, it is better to reflect on yourself. Just like this disaster, in the words of the doctor: as long as you pay attention three years in advance and make a colonoscopy to remove the polyps, where is the pain today? Therefore, in the future life, we must do less complaining and more responsibility; we are not afraid of loneliness and strive to precipitate. At all times, you have to believe that the only person who can really heal yourself is yourself. The reason why people have to work hard is to take their fate into their own hands. No one can help you all the time, no one can grow for you, rely on your own strength to move forward step by step, you can get closer and closer to the life you want. The best noble person in life is always the hard work of himself.