Emotions (suffocating marriages)

Yalin's marriage has always been a problem for her parents to worry about, in desperation, 26-year-old Yalin was introduced to Zhang Mou, who was one year older than herself, and the parents of both sides met and decided to get engaged to the two.

Yalin in order to cope with the parents agreed to the engagement, the engagement banquet was held as scheduled, the two sides talked about the marriage process and the guest list of the banquet, Yalin did not talk about love, nor did she have the experience of love, thinking that all girls at a certain age are the same marriage experience as themselves, she did not oppose the parents' decision.

The following spring, Yalin got married, married Zhang, and after marriage, she and her husband came to Guangdong to work.

Married life is not as beautiful as imagined, because she does not understand the man's family situation, she does not know that this man is a mother, the man has no mother, and the mother died when he was still ten years old.

Ya lin only has a Chinese, her husband is also a junior high school graduate like her, the two people who have Chinese can only go to the factory to do general work, a month down to two or three thousand yuan salary, her husband does not go to learn technology, nor self-motivated, life is very poor.

Yalin's parents wanted him to learn a technique, but he couldn't eat it for two days, and yalin's parents couldn't help it.

In the second year of marriage, Yalin became pregnant, because she gave birth in the local rural health center, because the fetus was too large to suffocate and lack of oxygen, the child was born and rescued ineffectively, and the doctor who delivered the baby asked Yalin to give birth without certainty.

Originally, Yalin wanted to go to the county to produce, but the man's grandmother said: "It is not that she has not given birth to a child, so many people have given birth to children in the health center before, how can you be so squeamish, giving birth to a child and dying";

When the child was born, because it was the winter of the Waxing Moon, the delivery room had no air conditioning, it was very cold, because the child was born with lack of oxygen, the doctor was busy rescuing the child, and threw Yalin a pregnant woman in the delivery room, and even a quilt was not given to Yalin.

Yalin was cold, and her body was colder. She called out to the doctor and said it was cold, but in exchange for a female doctor's insult: "Didn't you see that we were rescuing your child?" It's all because of you, when you use force, you don't use force, and now the child's lack of oxygen is because of you."

Yalin was silent, and she lay on the operating table in the delivery room, counting the time, one minute, five minutes, ten minutes, half an hour, an hour, an hour and a half, two hours, two and a half hours.

Finally the door to the delivery room opened, and the female doctor came in, grabbed a quilt and threw it on the operating table. He said, "The doctor is still rescuing your child, I hope you don't have to be mentally prepared," and left.

Yalin didn't say anything, just tears flowed silently, and she couldn't feel anything except her heartache so much that she couldn't breathe. She touched her stomach, and there was nothing left, empty.

How long has it been, Yalin does not know, as if a century has passed, the hellish door has only opened, it is Yalin's husband, his grandmother has also come in, Yalin has no one to pay attention to, he does not want to talk to anyone in his family.

They are like the devil, constantly telling themselves, repeating themselves. It was these people who made themselves like this, she closed her eyes and fell asleep, she was so tired, she had not slept until now, she was afraid that as soon as she closed her eyes, she would be forever.

She had been here for six hours from six o'clock in the morning to twelve o'clock in the afternoon, rubbing shoulders with the god of death, and she had never imagined that she was so close to death.

She thought that getting married was a happy thing, but she didn't feel happiness, but she felt death first, and the distance between life and death was a line apart, and marriage was so terrible. Marriages without love, without feelings, are even more frightening.

The child still did not rescue it, I heard that it was a boy, Ya Lin did not care anymore, the in-laws and grandmother heard that it was a boy and called it a pity, it was really ironic! No one cared about Yalin's life and death, and Yalin saw the face of her husband's family.

After the wound was sutured, Yalin was discharged from the hospital. A month passed quickly.

Yarin's life was still the same, and she became more silent.

In the blink of an eye, a year has passed, because there is no feeling, Yalin is very painful, in the in-laws' house, the in-laws' grandmothers provoke thorns every day, she runs to her mother's house, her mother lets her go back, she does not know where to go.

She felt like a driftwood, floating around, and she went back to swallow her breath for a year.

This year she really can't go on, and his husband proposed to divorce, her husband is too loud, was heard by the in-laws and grandmothers, it is a burst of chicken flying dog jumping, the next day is his grandmother's family are called over.

His grandmother said: "You didn't go to work last year and I didn't say anything, now you want to get a divorce, you don't even have a child left for me, you want to go away" "Pay back the money spent this year." "Marry you still owe so much money".

In fact, marrying Yalinga's mother's bride price to hold a banquet, the man only gave nineteen thousand, plus a thousand yuan for the meeting gift, which was exactly twenty thousand.

Yalin has no way, she has no money, divorce can not be separated, she is embarrassed, and do not want to trouble her parents, and then do not know whether the mother's family has money, will give her, she also has a brother who is not married.

Marriage and inseparable, Yalin can only stay in her home, the next year, Yalin gave birth to a girl, the in-laws grandma liked it very much, said to find a fortune teller to calculate the first birth of a girl, Yalin did not refute, because she is an outsider in this family, no one takes her seriously, she is like a fertility tool in this family, that's all.

Four years have passed, the second one Born to Yalin is still a girl, Yalin does not care about giving birth to boys and girls, gave birth to two children, Yalin did not give birth, she left the child in the countryside, the in-laws and grandmother said that she took it, let Yalin and her husband go to work to earn money.

In the blink of an eye, ten years have passed, Yalin in addition to going home every year for the New Year, and children generally do not speak, the husband is not a person who talks a lot, the two children are 8 years old, the youngest is 6 years old, because there is no communication between the two children and Yalin is not close, just with the grandfather and the grandmother.

The relationship between Yalin and her husband has reached the freezing point, the husband takes a bath and sleeps every day after work, the two people have no communication, they are playing with their mobile phones, no care, no greetings, and even no talking, try to ask whether such a marriage makes sense?

This article describes:

The combination of marriage without feelings, it is not only the husband and wife who are hurt, but also the children, so those who want to marry each other must carefully consider, do not be impulsive, feelings are the long-term spiritual sustenance of marriage, love and beauty, in order to be happy and happy, may all lovers in the world eventually become dependents.

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