My life is sad

My mom gave birth to an older brother who died, and then gave birth to me, and my impression on me was that my mom was neurotic, but it wasn't in my memory, when I was a child, my dad gambled on domestic violence, and it was very bad for my mom, and since I was born, he never hugged me, and when I was born, my dad took me by my dad and my dad drove me crazy When I was a kid, my dad came back from working in the fields, and my dad lost money and was in a bad mood, so he beat her, and I forgot when I didn't have a mom and no dad, and I hated her like this When I was a kid, he hugged someone else when he wanted him to hold me, I couldn't write my homework and I didn't have time to play mahjong when he taught me, so we had a bad relationship, so grandpa 05 left, he enlarged me at home, he went out to work by himself, and then he slowly changed not to be in a good blockage, and his temper was a little better, and he didn't scold me anymore, but I still hated him because he and my mother were gone, and now 27 years have passed, and now he is looking for a stepmother, but I hate that woman, who has a heavy heart to die, and first, she had a little disability before the stroke She said that living with my dad didn't cost my dad a penny, and the third was to let me go to her house with her because the woman was strong, which caused her son and daughter-in-law to be out of harmony, and there was a point why I said that she had a plan, because her husband was sick and paralyzed for two years, never took care of her, never came out, and when I was a child, she said to our father that if her husband died, he would talk to my dad, we all joked Oh who knows if it's true now, he and my dad are in a village, and in May I went back to live with my dad for a few days, and she was looking for things to argue with me everywhere, but I ignored it She went to call and my dad said I scolded her every day and argued with her, I didn't understand where I was arguing with her, and then my dad called me to get out and I didn't go, and she called my dad again and said I wasn't going to leave, and then my dad called me again and said I was not neurotic, how not to roll, even more ugly words, even cursed me to death, I don't know what deep hatred I have with you, I don't know what deep hatred I have with you, I provoke dissension, you want my dad to decorate your son's old house, you say it's even if he doesn't agree to spend money, you can't provoke things, say I don't like you, you get angry I recorded every quarrel if it wasn't for my dad not being at home, I really wanted to show him, I know you just wanted my dad to decorate your house with sixty thousand yuan, but my dad felt that you married over, there was nothing to do, why did you have to decorate the house, I wasn't at home, so you provoked me, I was really disgusting, 56-year-old people are still so disgusting, now I'm completely cut off from him, I don't believe you can raise him when you're old, oh, anyway, when you were a child, you didn't raise me, you didn't support you when you were old, I won't support you, even if you sue me for a big deal, I'm going to jail, I won't raise you