If you love, say it out loud

When I was in junior high school, I liked my own table, his sunny handsomeness deeply attracted me, every time I looked at him, it would make me blush and beat, and several girls in the same class were in love with him.

We love to learn, always the top three in the class, every weekend I will leave him a note full of motivational words, hoping that we can get into the same high school, the same university, be good friends for a lifetime...

Then one day, I came to the great aunt, on the way to class suddenly found myself uncomfortable, he noticed my abnormality, asked me what was wrong, I directly said that the great aunt came, he suddenly blushed, after class quickly ran to find someone to help me buy a pack of aunt towels, at that time let me be so moved, thought he had a good feeling for himself, because after this incident, every time I will save my pocket money to buy some valuable stationery or notebook to him...

Just like this feeling of ignorance began my yearning for love, hoping to be with him forever. We worked hard for a long time, and finally ushered in good news, we were admitted to the same key high school, but not in a class, the busyness of studying made me and his only contact information become a mobile phone, sometimes encountered happy and interesting things will be shared with him, but he will always let me study well, play less mobile phone, in fact, I am not playing mobile phone, just want to break contact with him. Every expression he sent me, every sentence made me think about it, firmly remembered in my heart, sometimes I saw him and other female classmates talking and laughing, I would be jealous, I would be sad, and my simple reply to him was more lost, but I still insisted on saying to him every night before going to bed: Good night!

Time passed quickly, three years of high school life ended, we ushered in a long summer vacation, some people let go of themselves, some people were anxious, we waited for the college entrance examination results, and suffered a lot. Suddenly QQ came to the news, a look is his, I can't wait to click open, a simple sentence in, let me be happy, immediately replied: "In it"

"What have you been busy with lately, I haven't heard from you for days"

"Oh..." I suddenly remembered that I had never said goodnight to him again after returning home from the end of the college entrance examination.

The next time we went on a date, had dinner alone with him for the first time, watched a movie, and wanted to say to him: I like you, I want to be with you. But he never said anything, and before leaving, he bought me a box of chocolates, and he said he hoped that when you ate it, it would be a happy taste!

When I got home at night, I couldn't bear to confess to him before going to bed, he didn't reply for a long time, my heart was in a mess, the next day my eyes opened and I looked at the phone immediately, or there was no reply, the third day, the fourth day......... Just like that never waited for his reply, as if he had disappeared...

Yes, he really disappeared, because his whole school was fried, he had a car accident, he couldn't wake up again, his parents and relatives sent him away sadly, that day I secretly ran to see him, he lay there motionless, I didn't stop crying for a long time, from then on I didn't dare to think of him, his youth stopped forever at that moment, I always remembered him: study well, play less mobile phones.

Later, when I went to college, I still insisted on saying goodnight to him every night, and after so many years, it had become a habit, and I didn't know how to forget him.

Many years later, at a class reunion, I learned that his car accident was not an accident, but that night after our date, on the way home he was ready to buy a gift to send me, but unfortunately I was one step late, he should not have received my confession to him, so many years I have not been able to forget him, probably because he is thinking about me.

Now I am 35 years old, there is a family with children, but I still can't forget him in my heart, so many years of persistence, I can't let go, I owe him too much. If he should still be so good, even if he can't be together, I hope to see him alive well.

Are you okay in heaven now? I think you will look up at the stars in the sky, are you one of them, are you also looking at me, looking at your parents, looking at the relatives who love you, you have become our concern, the pain that can never be erased