Some people shout that they have exhausted their full strength just by living!
But some people can't live even if they use all their strength!
He suffered from illness, he couldn't bear his family running around borrowing money for him, his physical condition was very bad, he had multiple organ failures, he didn't want his family to have to bear huge debts after he left, he also wanted self-respect, he was thin and not human-like, even so, he could still walk and speak, his sensory experience was still normal, he looked fine.
His heart was almost to the limit, he had a hard time eating, he had almost exhausted all his strength even to go to the toilet, but even if he used all his strength, he couldn't get up, what a proud person he once was, with a full body of strength, more than a hundred pounds of grain he resisted several bags by himself, climbed trees, climbed so high to beat walnuts, but now 、、、 he used to be so strong, now he has how weak, hey, full of heartache!
Yes, he was about to be overwhelmed, he was about to collapse, he sent all his relatives around, and he finally drank the pesticide! The family came back and dragged him to the hospital, but it was too late, his body had reached its limit! A little pesticide will soon kill him!
In those days in the ICU, he was actually very painful, he never cried out about pain, he only said that he was fine, he knew that his family had just dried their tears, he knew that he had to be optimistic so that his family would not worry!
He was an authentic farmer and the pillar of his family. He has been sick several times and has already spent almost all of his family's savings and owed a lot of money! He knew his family was harder than he was! Each of them was hard, just smiling and giggling in front of him, he knew they tried their best, he wanted to live well, just couldn't, but it was really too hard for him! He was in too much pain and too much money burning!
Suicide sounds bad, and it is not advocated by society, but this is not a kind of relief for him, although people have the instinct to survive, but living like this, he himself is in pain, his family is tired, each other are holding on hard, this happens everyone can not accept, everyone is not willing, but for everyone, it is not a kind of relief, a kind of salvation!
Once everyone dies, his life has come to an end, but I feel that he has been there, he just went to a farther place and does not want to come back!
Live, real is good, do not have to deliberately ask yourself to live what you want to live, life is sometimes very fragile, life is sometimes very strong!
You don't have to deliberately change yourself, you don't have to pretend to be very strong, have love in your heart, and be ashamed of your heart!
It is good not to shirk responsibilities and obligations, and not to avoid your emotions and dreams!
Cherish life, it is not easy to live, it is not easy for everyone! Be a quiet, warm person!