Written in front: There is nothing sinister in this world than the human heart. As a woman, you have to be a kapok tree, don't make lingxiao flowers, and don't make silk flowers.
Author:Chuan Yi
Proofreader: Pang Xiao
My name is Zhang Caiyu, I am 30 years old this year, my husband has a successful career, the family has a car and a house, I have a son and a daughter, a daughter is 5 years old, my son is 3 years old, and my life is happy and happy.
But my life has always been boring, my husband does not want to talk to me, he thinks I don't know anything, just take care of the family's affairs, other things do not need me to mix.
The child is still always noisy, I have to follow the two children behind the butt to clean up the housework, one second, the daughter broke the cup, the next second, the son will fall off the sofa.
My husband doesn't care about anything except work, he just plays games and watches TV after work, only I don't have time to rest.
I didn't want to live like this anymore, so we hired a babysitter.
After having an au pair, my life was a little easier. But my husband still doesn't want to communicate with me, or even touch me, yes, after so many years of marriage, he should have tired of me.
By chance, I saw an article that said: "If you want a man to like you again, you must try to improve yourself, surprise him at all times, and let him think that you are in a trance and become excellent." ”
I was so inspired that I decided I wanted to change myself.
I started enrolling myself in classes, learning makeup, doing beauty, buying myself beautiful clothes and jewelry, practicing yoga, and I decided to take a driver's license.
I thought that as long as I changed, my husband would see me, but the truth is that in his eyes, I am still as small as dust, still dispensable.
When I went to practice, I met a coach. I thought all driving school instructors were fierce and swearing, but I was different, he was funny, humorous, and most importantly, he often praised me, he said I was smart, beautiful, and hardworking.
I haven't heard such praise for me in a long time, really for a long time.
Gradually, I began to enjoy practicing and came to practice frequently, I began to want to meet my coach, I looked forward to communicating with him, listening to him tell me jokes, listening to his praise for me.
I found the shadow of my ideal partner in this coach.
After a long period of contact, I felt my heart, I liked this coach, he was really gentle.
He will lovingly fasten me when I forget to wear my seat belt;
Will hold my hand when I hit the wrong steering wheel and teach me repeatedly;
Will encourage me when I press the line;
Will praise me when I successfully reverse into the warehouse;
Will celebrate when I have passed the second subject;
He will buy me milk tea during my menstrual period; he will take off his coat for me when I am shivering with cold...
The coach was too much good to me, and I coveted his beauty and the tenderness he gave me.
I started missing him when I couldn't see him, it was a kind of scratching thought, and I hadn't felt that way in a long time.
In order to continue to meet him, I hung up three times in total when I took the third subject.
I really don't want him to disappear from my world, the only connection we can have is that I go to learn to drive, to practice, I really can't bear to cut us off.
Sometimes, we would eat together, that time, and I was sure he had me in his heart.
He wiped the stain from my mouth with his hand and called me a "little idiot."
A 30-year-old woman, it's a bit pretentious to say it, but I haven't heard such an affectionate title in a long, long time. No matter how old I am, I am also a woman, a woman who needs to be cared for.
We quickly settled on a relationship and started an underground romance.
I covet his tenderness, I love his embrace, and I am willing to give everything for him.
I buy him clothes, I buy watches, I buy cell phones, I buy everything he needs, and I buy him whatever he mentions.
This relationship was a lifesaver for me, it gave me hope and added a touch of sunshine to my bleak life.
Along with this, there was my fear of my husband.
In fact, I could have exchanged feelings with the coach after divorcing him, but if I left my husband, I wouldn't have the money to buy and buy.
I want the richness of life, but I also want the pity of love. I know I'm selfish, but I really can't restrain myself.
In order to make up for my debt to my husband, I began to be bottomlessly kind to him and meet all his requirements.
I no longer quarreled with him, no longer accused him of being lazy, but responded to his needs, so that my heart could feel better.
But the paper could not contain the fire after all, and after half a month with the coach, my relationship with him was discovered by my husband.
My husband confronted me with a picture of me and my coach holding hands in a coffee shop, and I had nothing to say.
In this way, my husband and I divorced, and I left the house and didn't take anything.
It's me who cheated, what else can I take?
Desperate, I had to go to the coach, I thought, it was better to be discovered, so that I would not have to worry about living a life.
But just when I wanted to go to the coach, I found out that I didn't even know where his house was, and he never told me where he lived.
I had to go to the driving school to find him, and he deliberately avoided me as if he knew it beforehand.
His colleague said he had taken a leave of absence in the past few days, but I saw his coat hanging in his office. I bought it for him, and he liked it so much that he never left it in one place.
I knew he was coming, but why was he hiding from me? Because I can't spend money on him now, is he going to abandon me? Would he be such a person?
I told myself over and over again that no, he wasn't that kind of person. But I also know that I'm just deceiving myself.
Finally, one day, I blocked him at the entrance of the driving school. I told him I was divorced and I wanted to be with him, I wanted to start a family with him, I wanted to live with him.
But he told me that he was married a long time ago and that he had a wife.
"It's okay, you can get a divorce and stay with me."
But he said he loved his wife and he wouldn't marry me.
"What do you mean?" You love your wife, so why are you trying to provoke me? Trick me! Well, then I will go to trouble, I will go to the driving school, I will go to your house, I will go to your wife, I will see if your wife can continue to live with you! ”
He suddenly knelt down in front of me: "I am sorry for you, but I am bitter, my wife can not be stimulated, please let me go." ”
It turned out that his wife had a heart attack and had been hospitalized, and the hospitalization fee, the operation fee, and the postoperative repair were all a lot of money, and he needed money.
Just when he was desperate, my husband found him and asked him to do everything he could to be nice to me, seduce me, and let me cheat. When it was done, my husband would give him a lot of money as a reward, and he said he was really forced.
And the luxury goods I bought for him, he had already exchanged them for money, and paid for his wife's medical treatment and hospitalization.
All this, my husband planned?
I can't believe that the coach doesn't really like me, he's all pretending to be nice to me.
And my husband actually calculated me, why did he do this, why did he do this?
I ran home like crazy, I was going to confront my husband, I wanted to ask for clarification.
As soon as I ran to the door, I saw a woman get out of her husband's car, and the woman, very familiar, seemed to be her husband's first love...
Instantly, I understood everything.
scold! Or is he a skilled ah, know that first divorce, and then take back his first love.
And divorce, he also wants to make himself a victim, so that people can't say that he is not halfway there.
I'm such a clown.
But what can I do? What can I argue for myself? I walked down the street in a daze, and suddenly snowflakes rose in the sky, and I wrapped my clothes hard and walked aimlessly forward.