The Lost Lamb (1)

I come from a small mountain village in southeastErn Henan, my father is a private teacher with 30 years of teaching experience (graduated from a private high school during the Cultural Revolution), and my mother is a traditional housewife who can't read a few characters. Due to the serious influence of feudal ideas, the parents also had the idea of having many children and many blessings, so after they had four daughters left, they gave birth to their brother and me after the age of 30!

My father was very capable and hot-tempered when he was young, and although he never scolded and beat people, he liked to criticize people and was very good at it. The rhetoric is not very intense, but there is a desire to make you feel ashamed even if there is a hole in front of you, and the urgent idea of a rat burrowing into the hole to save your life. So starting with someone the same age as my uncle (who was eight years younger than my father), almost everyone in the village feared my father, including, of course, my sister and brother, except probably me.

When my father graduated from high school, just 20 years old, one of his distant brothers-in-law served as the principal of a private high school in our town (at that time, his brother-in-law was two years older than his father, and unfortunately died at the age of seventeen or eighteen, because he was a neighbor with his grandparents, his wife had died, so he ran all the way to his grandparents, but he was two years older than his grandfather), and the old principal introduced his father to work in the school for a year, and the next year he transferred to a nearby primary school to teach, because of his strong ability, So I became the director of instruction at the school very early. However, because of their temper, they were too temperamental and unwilling to gang up with their superior leaders and hug each other for warmth, so they always refused to let their father serve as the principal. But my father was never a man of fame and fortune, so my father also stuck to his post and refused many temptations from the outside world.

Since I can remember, my sister and brother have all gone to school, especially the eldest sister, when I was three years old (she was eighteen), she left her hometown to work in Guangdong. My father taught at school and had morning self-study in the morning, but he didn't have time to do farm work in the morning and afternoon, so he could only take time out of the field to do farm work after school at noon and in the evening. As a result, most of the farm work fell on the shoulders of my mother.

Because my mother has been working in the field all day, facing the loess and facing the sky, I have no one to take care of me from a very young age, and I am locked in the house by my mother to sleep, only to wait until my sister and brother are out of school and take me to play for a while.

Because I was usually unaccompanied and taught, I couldn't speak until I was four years old. So the family was worried that I would grow up to be a mute, and just as My father's colleagues gave birth to three sons in succession, they discussed swapping me with his little daughter. The day before the exchange, Grandma knew about it, she was ten thousand unwilling, and had a fight with Grandpa, Mom and Dad, and did not agree. In the end, the matter was put on hold.

The next year, Dad's colleague actually gave birth to a son, so everyone in the family said that Grandma did the right thing and had foresight. Soon, I was miraculously able to speak, though I had always said very little.

By the age of six, some children of the same age are able to do simple farm work, such as leading sheep to the side of the road to graze, and carrying sickles and horses to cut grass. And because I was the youngest child, I had to be loved by my parents and didn't have to work in the fields. So I followed my father to the school every day to play, because I was a teacher's child, so I was loved by my classmates, so the campus life was very happy.

Soon I was seven years old, the countryside pays attention to the virtual age, eight years old, so I paid 20 yuan tuition, carrying an old school bag of my sister to officially go to school. On the first day of school, my brother took me to the principal to register, although I was a distant cousin and neighbor, but I was always very shy, stuttering for half a day before I introduced myself to understand.

First grade is basically mixed up, all day a, o, e chicken steamed ——。 After school, due to my height, I also began to mow grass and herd sheep. In fact, I prefer to lead a few sheep to the side of the road to herd sheep, because it is particularly relaxing and comfortable. Tie the old water goat to the tree, a few lambs will spontaneously graze nearby, you can play on the side, basically ignore them, and you can find a few friends to play under the tree.

Since the second grade, my studies have improved by leaps and bounds, and in the first exam, I have finished second in the Chinese language test, and I have a tie for the first place in mathematics with two other students. This completely dispelled my family's doubts about me, thinking that I was not so stupid, or there was something desirable.

Because we had two sons, my parents prepared for it very early, and the population increased greatly in the 1970s and 1980s, and the village continued to expand, so our family kept moving, so the family built eight houses.

Since the third grade, I have lived with my brother in one of the houses, which contains wheat and other grains. Winter cold night is long, boring, I found a martial arts book that my sister does not like to read, to pass the time, the deepest memory is "You Jian Jianghu" and "Deer DingJi", these two books at the time I looked too thick, read for half a year to finish.

Entering the fourth grade, the math teacher is a twenty-something girl from the same village who has just gotten married. His father was a veteran, and he was a deputy township chief at the time, and in our opinion, he was a very big official. She was very responsible, lived in her mother's house all day, and took care of us very nervously every day. Although we know that she is for our own good, we have lost a lot of happy childhoods and are not so happy.

Although our post-80s childhood was somewhat barren in material life, it was very rich in spiritual life. At that time, prices were very low, and a popsicle was calculated in points, one, two, five. In 1990, the tuition fee was only eight yuan, and we hardly had much pocket money, or even one or two dimes to spend a week. At that time, there were very few snacks, only maltose, saccharin, calcium tablets, Japanese beans, etc., but our childhood was happy, because we were with our parents, brothers and sisters every day, even if we played every day, we were happy. In my opinion, most of the post-90s and post-00s are left-behind children, although they are a little happier materially, but they lack the company of their parents from childhood, which is much happier than them!

Gradually growing up, I kept reading in my spare time, there was no purpose, as long as I could see the books, I borrowed them to read, martial arts books, history books, geography books like to read. In the second semester of the fifth grade, just in time for the eve of the return of Hong Kong, so the county education committee organized a knowledge contest, I was very prepared, in the practice test, the math teacher was stunned, maybe she could not accept a person who has never been able to formally and systematically learn history well, it is so good to learn, she also thinks that I am a person with a talent in learning. If she knew I was only in junior high school, she would work everywhere and drift around. She must have been very sad. Now that I think about it, I've never been disappointed, even though I've lost my way and gone the wrong way.