My story with her

Time passed in a flash, and I had been doing bad jobs for more than two years, and I was basically running back and forth around the country every day. Either running on the high-speed rail or soaring on the plane, this morning may be in Sichuan, in the afternoon I have arrived in Shandong. Recently I often wake up in the morning to find that I am getting up in a strange hotel, and everything around me is strange. Sometimes I even feel a little bit of a trance, I don't know where I am, and I have a feeling that I drank and drank a broken piece the night before, and I can't remember what happened before, which is a very bad feeling. Sometimes when I talk to some local customers, I will ask where you came from, and I will even be asked at that time, I can't remember anything, I don't know where I went to the last place.

I either go to complete the work arranged by the company every day, or communicate with the next customer in advance to dock the next step of the work arrangement, especially in the past two years by the impact of the epidemic shadow relationship, greatly reducing my work rhythm and work efficiency, basically every time I go to a place to do a nucleic acid test, and then I have to wait in the hotel for one to two days, and then wait for the results to come out before I can carry out the next step of the work arrangement. I am not like other people who often travel and run outside, where to play, I am basically not in the high-speed rail station or airport, or in the customer site or the hotel where I live, and the normal office worker two-point and one-line lifestyle is similar, but often change different cities. I am not the same as other people who often run out on business, some people basically every time they go to a city as long as they have the opportunity, they must walk around well, which is worth the trip, which is equivalent to public travel. I myself do not like the bustling and lively business district, prefer the clean and elegant landscape scenery, but I do not like to be alone to appreciate, no matter how beautiful the scenery I will have an inexplicable sense of desolation, completely can not feel the scenery to bring me the joy and relaxation of the mood, so simply do not go.

I usually like to watch movies and do sports when I have nothing to do in the hotel, and I use this way to pass the boring time, and I basically stay in the room every day except for eating and going out. It is this way of life and the rhythm of life that make me become very Buddhist, become indisputable with the world, and completely lose the direction and motivation to move forward, every day is like a donkey grinding on the millstone, constantly spinning around the country, but my grinding plate is relatively large.

Less than a year to travel through most of China, at that time still felt that this job is a very cool job, you can walk around to see, but before long, I have no original work when I was the same excitement and excitement, feel that I can not see the future and hope, but in order to live can not give up the existing job, after all, with my current ability there is no better choice. In fact, I also encountered a lot of good opportunities in the middle of the way, but I was still unwilling at that time, I wanted to make a name for myself in this enterprise, and I didn't want to always jump ship, I was always a new person, and now I think about my previous self, I was really a little overconfident, and I didn't see the situation I was in and my true ability and value. Gradually, the last little flame of my passion was also extinguished by the cold water of reality.