I had a failed marriage, I was married to my wife for five years, and for four years I wanted to get a divorce, but we already had our own children, and whenever I saw the cute little face of the child, I couldn't say the word divorce. My marriage to my wife Vivi was a mistake in itself, and I spent five years validating that mistake.
I am an introvert, during college, I saw that the male classmates in the same dormitory had their own girlfriends, and I was still alone, and I was extremely eager for the coming of love.
When I was a junior in college, I had someone I liked, her name was Sun Qian, she was a gentle and lovely girl, always quiet, and I liked her at the first sight I saw her. I chased her for half a year. With Sun Qian by my side, my college life became colorful.
When the graduation season comes, we are faced with the problem of choosing a career. Sun Qian will return to her hometown after graduation, and for her sake, I am also ready to go to her hometown to work. The first time I came to her house, her mother did not particularly like me, she secretly did not agree with me to continue to associate with Sun Qian, she felt that I wanted money without money, I wanted to look good, and my height was short, which did not meet the conditions for their family's mate selection.
For this reason, Sun Qian also fought, but she finally compromised, who was a well-behaved woman from childhood to adulthood.
It was at this time that my wife Wei Wei came into my life, in fact, we have always known, she is Sun Qian's girlfriend. Her personality is the opposite of Sun Qian's, she is a big grinning, boyish girl, and she looks more like a boy, to be honest, she is not my type.
When I was in love with Sun Qian, every time I had a conflict with Sun Qian, she would come to me to settle the account, and I felt that every time she found me, it was not a good thing. I never thought we would have any intersection later.
After I broke up with Sun Qian, I was particularly depressed during that time, and I had no intention of finding a job, and I paralyzed myself with alcohol every day. Vivi always came to the house I rented during that time to drink with me and persuade me to look away.
One day we both drank a little too much, and Vivi suddenly confessed to me, she said that she had liked me since she knew me, but at that time I was already with Sun Qian, and she couldn't do anything to hurt her girlfriend, so she kept this liking in her heart. It wasn't until we broke up that she knew her chance had come.
I really shouldn't have drunk, listening to Vivi's confession, I was excited in my heart, I didn't expect that I was also liked by someone. That night because of my impulse, we were together. The next day when I got up and saw Vivi I had a bout of regret, I really didn't call her, and being together was entirely the effect of alcohol.
But Vivi didn't think so, she seemed to be lying on me, she said I had to be responsible for her. I didn't want to be saddled with a negative name, so I could only make mistakes, and we quickly finished the marriage process. The next year, Vivi became pregnant, but I changed my dislike for her from my original dislike to my current dislike. She always pretended to be pregnant and dictated to me, like a victor.
Now that we've been married for five years, I'm becoming more and more impatient with her, I'd rather work overtime than go home and face her, and the most we talk about now is an argument. At the same time, there was a hurdle in my heart that could never be crossed, and I felt that she must have been premeditated to take advantage of my low mood.
Then I met a girl by chance, and when I was with her, I felt like I couldn't say anything more, we were like-minded, and I felt like I had a light in my eyes again. I'm really conflicted right now, I want a divorce with this girl, but I don't want to hurt my son. I'm living in torment every day right now, and I don't know how to choose.
Through the description of the male protagonist, we feel his confusion about his marriage. Xiaobian believes that marriage can not be mixed with any impurities, impure marriage is doomed to not get a perfect ending. But the male protagonist is very self-sufficient, the right and wrong are too clear, no matter what the wife did at the beginning, now she is already your wife, many feelings are out, you do not give each other a chance, then you will also feel pain in this marriage.