<h1 class= "article-title" > has never been poor and difficult to be a person, and has not been beaten to innocence! People who have not cried bitterly in the middle of the night are not enough to talk about life! </h1>
In a person's life, I don't know how many ups and downs and tribulations I have to encounter. A lot of things happen in the unpredictable. In the face of difficulties, choose to go strong. For many times it is not the world that rejects the enthusiasm of man, but that we misunderstand the test of time; it is not that the god of luck refuses to favor you, but when misfortune falls before you, you refuse the preparation to start over; it is not that the seductive splendor never patronizes you, but that you do not want to fly your ideals with ordinary footprints... Be strong and you will eventually get what you want!
[Foreword] 15 years ago, my husband died of illness, and before he died, he entrusted my 9-year-old son to me. After fifteen years of ups and downs, cold and warm human feelings, he finally cultivated his son into a talent, and finally did not live up to her husband's dying trust...
Today is my 48th birthday and your 15th anniversary. Since the day you left, I have only had a birthday, because my birthday is also your death day, and I don't know whether to laugh or cry on this day.
Today, my parents bought me a birthday cake. Light the candle on the cake, also give you incense, I hope you also wish me a happy birthday, I hope to talk to you.
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First of all, my parents are in good health and mentally better than in previous years, but their hair is white, please rest assured.
Secondly, our son is also a leader, working in a foreign-funded company. He called back today to announce his good news, saying that he had been promoted to the position of manager of a department, and hoped that he would honor your ancestors. My son is 24 years old this year, like you when you were very young, he didn't like to talk, he was very handsome, and he was also very strong. I finally lived up to your entrustment before leaving, raised him as an adult, and hope that you will bless him in heaven for a safe life!
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15 years ago, the ruthless disease took your young life, you were only 35 years old, it was a great year in life, whenever I think of this, I burst into tears...
We lived together for ten years, I was an orphan, I didn't know what my father looked like since I was a child, so I thought of your parents as my biological parents. These ten years are the happiest days of my life, and the kindness and love you and your parents have for me and me will never forget.
Thinking that in this life I can "hold the hand of my son and grow old with you", who expected that "the sky has unpredictable storms, and people have bad luck". That year, you had an incurable disease, and in order to be healed, you went around seeking medical treatment, spent all your family's savings, and owed a debt. Still, it's time to get back to heaven and you're gone.
As you lay dying, my son and I knelt beside you, and you could no longer speak. You took my hand and put my son's hand in my hand and held it tightly. I see what you mean, it was your dying trust to raise my son. In this way, you slowly close your eyes with all kinds of reluctance and attachment, which happens to be my 33rd birthday. In an instant, I felt like the whole world had collapsed, and you had taken away all my hopes, taken away the happiness of this home... The day I sent you, my son held your portrait, when he was nine years old, and he didn't cry.
Since then, he has become silent and rarely speaks. I thought he had been hit too hard and would leave a shadow in his young mind. Later, every morning after he went to school, I went to his room to find that his pillows were soaked, and it turned out that he was secretly crying at night. (Maturity is not about how old you are, but about how many responsibilities you can shoulder on your shoulders)
Since then, the son has suddenly matured. It's just that mom and dad are deeply shocked, dad is bedridden, and mom washes her face with tears all day. Seeing the home become like this, at that time, a weak woman really didn't know what to do!
If you are not there, I will become the pillar of the house. I felt a great responsibility, and I had to be strong for the sake of our sons and our parents. For my son's school fees, to pay off your debts when you were sick, I had to do several jobs at the same time in addition to working hard at work: I worked as a dishwasher in a hotel, sold fruit on the ground, drove a tricycle to carry passengers, worked night shifts at the supermarket, and even worked as a porter. I don't care about all this suffering, all this tiredness, for the sake of our family, I am willing.
How many times have I almost given up; how many times have I burst into tears. I also want to be spoiled, someone to coax; I also want to be spoiled, someone hurts. But I'm not strong, who carries it for me!
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Speaking of which, I have to thank one person, and that is your sister. All these years, thanks to the help she has not asked for in return, I really can't live without her. Many times, she secretly paid her son's tuition. Every day I came home late at night, and my sister came to our house to cook and take care of my parents. There was no way to repay, so I had to silently wish her a good life of peace! In order to earn money to support the family, I feel very guilty about my parents not taking good care of me, please don't blame me.
Also, the twenty thousand yuan you borrowed from your best friend for the purpose of healing, I have paid it off with profits. Before you died, you often drank and drank tea together, and after you left, our family did not get a word of booing and warming from him. The next year, he called five times to collect debts, saying that he would still calculate interest after a long time, oh my God, is this your best friend? Of course, it is a matter of course to pay off debts, but he is not unaware of the situation of our family, at this time our family is the most difficult, I have money to pay him back. And I know that their family is not short of money, and they have two luxury cars. I don't blame your so-called best friend for paying back the money you owe, which is the basic of being a human being. Do you have friends in heaven? Remember, make friends to make friends! (Some friends, when you have no use value, will immediately turn their faces and do not recognize people)
Let's talk about my son: That year, my son refused to go to high school after graduating from junior high school. He secretly went to Shenzhen to work, and left me a note, "Mom, I don't want to see you so tired, I want to share part of it for you, I went to work, don't read it!" ”。 At that time, I was all angry, and after many inquiries, I found him in an electronics factory. I dragged him home and made him kneel in front of you all night, never to mention part-time work again.
Three years later, he was admitted to Tsinghua University with excellent results. The day before he went to school, he knelt in front of your portrait again, and our mother and son cried with their heads in their hands. For the first time in more than ten years, I saw my son cry so passionately. Speaking of which, my eyes are blurred with tears...
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In the years after you left, my sisters around me couldn't bear to see me living so hard, and they all said: "Is it worth it for you to do this, when will you be able to survive, take advantage of the fact that you are still young, find a good man", even my mother advised me to remarry, and even asked me to go on a blind date. Seriously, as a woman, I have been moved by their kindness. But whenever I think of your dying entrustment, think of our vows of love, think of my parents treating me as my own daughter, think of the child has no father, if there is no mother, how can I bear to leave this home.
Since you chose this me who had no father and no mother, since I chose to love you, I chose to love, I must insist on love, and I will never regret it if I insist on it! You can't forget your roots and can't be ungrateful. No matter how hard and tired we are, we must hold on to our home... In the eyes of outsiders, I am a very strong woman, but who will know that I have wept in the middle of the night countless times? (People who have not cried bitterly in the middle of the night are not enough to talk about life)
The Emperor did not pay off, and our family finally survived. Fifteen years of life's ups and downs, the world is cold, the human feelings are cold and warm, let me learn a lot, see through a lot, look down on a lot of a lot.
I have suffered enough, and my tears have dried up, and I have no complaints or regrets! I only hope that the second half of my life will be safe and stable, I only hope that my parents will be healthy and long-lived, and I only hope that my son's career will be smooth!
<h1 class="article-title" > waiting for me in heaven! </h1>
"A day in heaven, a year on earth", fifteen years on earth, you are only fifteen days in heaven, you wait for dozens of days, decades later I will go to heaven and then be your wife, okay?
【Afterword】
There is no obstacle in life that cannot be overcome, only a heart that cannot be passed.
Heaven and earth are leisurely and life is short, and the years are leisurely like white colts crossing the gap. Don't stop your pursuit because the sun is too bright, and don't be afraid to step ---- because the road is too far away for you to step ---- and sing once, composing the trekker's march with sweat-soaked notes.
Maybe our life path is not fierce and glorious; maybe our future will not be a blockbuster and soar. Then stand quietly as a tree---- stand where people need us the most, stand on the most moving signs in the world!
I have never been poor and difficult to be a person, and I have not been beaten to the naïve! People who have not cried bitterly in the middle of the night are not enough to talk about life!