Talk about my faith in Jesus

My parents have believed in Jesus since they were young, and it has influenced me so subtly that I would sing Jesus songs when I was a child. Even then I was half-convinced, but then too many things happened that really made me completely change all my previous ideas.

I vaguely remember that when I was very young, my mother's mental state was not very good, and everyone in the village said that my mother was mentally ill, a crazy person, and did not dare to go near, only my father did not abandon it. The life of the four of us brothers and sisters is also quite difficult, my father needs to be responsible for the family's source of livelihood, no one takes care of us, just understand things have to help the family to do some housework, the school is far from home, in the morning my brother and I get up early, responsible for the family's breakfast. No matter how cold the winter is and how hot the summer is, the housework is for both of us. Later, when my father heard that Jesus could save all the poor people from suffering, our family saw hope. My father took my mother to church every Wednesday and Saturday, asking God to give my mother a normal life. Finally, Huang Tian paid off, my mother's mental state slowly improved, and the living conditions of our family slowly changed.

Believing in Jesus is not allowed to sacrifice ancestors and not to prostrate. After getting married, I often hear my father-in-law say that Jesusism is just a kind of thought sustenance, because he has been a feng shui gentleman for a lifetime, and he believes that "if you want to be prosperous, you must worship your ancestors", which is also the tradition of Chinese, and he always wants me not to avoid the occasion of ancestor worship. I, because I grew up in the Jesus family, I never wanted to participate in the ancestor worship of their family, and my view was that I did not participate or exclude. In fact, at that time, I also thought that believing in Christianity was a kind of ideological sustenance, and when I felt particularly helpless, I would also think of such a sustenance.

Later, we planned to build an viaduct here, and there was a cemetery that needed to be relocated. My father-in-law went out every day before dawn and came home after dark at night, and he was busy for many days. When crossing the road, I was hit by a container truck, the injury was quite serious, I stayed in the hospital for a whole year, and now I can only lie in bed, my consciousness is not clear, and my IQ is no different from that of a one- or two-year-old child. When this happened, my husband and I were really scared, before we all never believed in any ghost god, but after what happened, we really reached the point where there were six gods and no master. My husband will no longer say that Jesus is just a kind of thought sustenance, and my mother-in-law is now also practicing Jesus.

I think everyone has their own faith, do you also want to have a sustenance when you are helpless? They all say that "it is better to ask others than to seek oneself", but after all, I am just an ordinary person, aren't I? I believe that you must also have a family member who believes in jesus around you, right?