This time I went to Hangzhou to participate in the activity and met Lao Gu.
Originally, as agreed in advance, I would take the subway to meet him after the event. But he still couldn't change his temper, and early in the morning he drove for two hours and ran to the hotel where I was staying.
He looked at me from a distance and kept waving at me, basically unchanged except for thinning hair. Still walking with the wind, still with a huge voice, still a flower shirt with white pants, still a thick Nanchang accent: "Brother, brother, here, here!" ”
I held his hand tightly, "Do you know how long we haven't seen each other?" ”
"This one also wants to test me?" Lao Gu punched me the shoulder. "It's still a month away, it's seven years!"
"Yeah, time flies so fast!" I sighed.
"You see, you're so old!" He looked me up and down.
"They are all over forty years old, there are old people on the top and small ones on the bottom, where is the reason for not getting old?"
"Hey, does it seem like I'm divorced or right?"
"Yes, it's good to live alone like you are now!"
"Remember when we had a late-night snack on Shanghai Road in 2004?" You and I, as well as Xiao Xie and Juanzi. You and Xiao Xie are a couple, and Juanzi and I are a couple.
That day, you told me that you were going to get a permit with Xiao Xie, and asked me and Juanzi when they planned to get the permit. Although you are only a kind heart, I just smiled, but Juanzi listened to it and was serious. She kept staring at me with her eyes, and when you left, she told me that she shouldn't ask what she shouldn't ask, and she wouldn't let me send her home... Then, a week later we broke up. ”
"How did you suddenly think of this?" I couldn't keep up with his rhythm.
"I also know that regarding the matter of breaking up with her, although you don't say it in your mouth, you may not know how many times you have scolded me in your heart, and you will feel that I have no sense of responsibility and am not a man." Especially your wife Xiao Xie, since then, her opinion of me has changed. As long as I ask you out, she is not happy, even outright opposed... So, then we slowly became estranged. ”
"You can't be too sensitive to this, I just spent less time out playing after I was with her, you know!" I hastened to explain.
"Of course I can understand you! After all, all friendships have to go through the barrier of marriage. It's just that I'm feeling more and more that for a lot of men, marriage is really not a good thing! Especially for men like us, who are engaged in art and writing, marriage is tantamount to chronic suicide, it is a brown candy, the end of artistic life. ”
"Did you break up with Juanzi in the first place, including your later divorce from Dai Yuan, all for this reason?"
"Not all of them, but at least for a good part of it!" He let out a long sigh. "You don't know, these two women have a particularly strong desire to control." In fact, when I first fell in love with Juanzi, I had already told her that I only fell in love and would not marry, and she also agreed, but later, she couldn't sit still... How could I possibly marry her in that situation?
And my ex-wife Dai Yuan. In fact, she is quite a good person, a good-looking skin bag, an interesting soul, I thought I could grow old with her. But women who stay in marriage for a long time like to think wildly. Let me quit smoking today, let me drink less tomorrow, and check my mobile phone when I am cold. Even who I had dinner with outside, when I came back, I had to tell her verbatim... Where is this marriage? It's a prison! ”
"That's because you can't give people a sense of security!" I didn't hold back and added a sentence.
"Security? Where is this kind of thing given by others? Where am I that kind of man? ”
"So, you're still away, fortunately there are no children!"
"Yes! Don't talk about others, just talk about you! Although you got married to 'marry' love, after marriage, are you really better off than before? Especially in the last five years, although we have not met, I have been paying attention to you, to say a word that is not flattering enough, your words are not as attractive as before, and you are less and less afraid to tell the truth!
You see the way you look now, in your early forties, your hair is already half white. Your hairstyle, estimated to be 15 yuan a time in the alley, only cut and not washed and not blown, right? And the clothes you wear, always black and white gray series..."
"This... If you have something to gain, you will lose! Look at each person's choice! "I was visibly embarrassed.
"You see, you're so soft even angry now!" Why can't we face the problem head-on like when we first graduated, and fight hundreds of rounds? "He still has no intention of giving me face.
"Did you come here today to argue with me and persuade me to get a divorce?" Who said they were going to take me to eat the most authentic Hangzhou cuisine? I was a little angry, but deliberately avoided the topic.
"Well, I just hate marriage very much!"
"So, for me, you are as annoying as your family urged you to get married!"
After saying that, we both laughed.