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Jiang Yanping has always been out of tune with her husband. She likes to turn the street, not to let the man accompany, Chen Dachuan is the most annoyed to turn the street, but Jiang Yanping has her own statement, she said that she often sees the secretary of the college Zhang on the weekend or accompanies the wife to turn the street, originally looks beautiful, likes to go shopping to buy clothes to dress up themselves, the man wants to pay again, but also to accompany the turn to the back pain, the eyes are dizzy, the heart is very disgusted. He often said Jiang Yanping: Women, always say that there are fewer clothes. Jiang Yanping immediately retorted: Man, thirty and standing, why haven't you stood up yet?
The pattern of a family is an important issue. How to match is a very deep knowledge. Two people, you have me, I have you, but there must also be a place of independence from each other, and there must be distance. But you don't have to think about holding the man or the woman firmly in control, the more tightly you control, the more he or she wants to flee. The most taboo needle tip does not give in to Mai Mangdi, Jiang Yanping is to manage everything, but she can't control it, she makes herself exhausted, she doesn't know it yet. Later, Lin Qian herself slowly realized that she and Zhang Zhiming could not cooperate at all, Zhang Zhiming liked to turn the street, Lin Qian was the kind of thing she wanted to buy and go directly, and when she bought it, she left. She had no habit of wandering around, and from this point of view she didn't look like a woman at all. Zhang Zhiming, under her pressure, also felt that he had never raised his eyebrows, so he could understand that he was looking for another one shortly after, and it was a new feeling that he was looking for a new friend.
Jiang Yanping was not happy this day. Chen Dachuan did not come back at twelve o'clock last night, she waited all the time, and the phone was turned off. The hate in my heart, I want you to do something, don't come back and don't say hello. It was not easy to fall asleep, in a trance she reached a cliff, how to go up did not know, just like the growth of wings, gently flew up, the above trees, the water babbling, Jiang Yanping in such a fairyland-like place lingering, did not want to go home, suddenly saw the husband again, this husband smiled and walked over, how the husband became a tiger again, Jiang Yanping was frightened in her heart, turned around and wanted to dodge, jumped down, and had some understanding in her heart, she was on the top of the mountain, how to go down, and then work hard, As soon as the heart tightens, the person wakes up. My heart was still beating wildly, thinking about how Chen Dachuan had become a tiger, and then I looked at it, two o'clock had passed, and Chen Dachuan still hadn't returned. Startled, his clothes were soaked with sweat, he thought it was not good to wear wet clothes like this, and he got up again to change his underwear, and he didn't know how long it took before he fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already bright. At this time, Chen Dachuan slept in another small bed in the room. Jiang Yanping woke up, remembering in her heart that the man did not know how late to come back, he was scared of himself, he couldn't sleep steadily, his heart was on fire again, he saw that the man was sleeping soundly, and went to the kitchen to take a basin of cold water and pour it on the man. Of course, men inevitably get up and theorize with her.
On the unit, Jiang Yanping was still immersed in anger. The man was so angry that she had brought all the family members of her mother to the house, and her brother had to be angry with her mother-in-law when she came to stay with her brother for one night. At that time, it was already autumn cold, Chen Dachuan's brother in the township came, at night Chen Dachuan took the bed quilt for his brother, who knew that the mother-in-law quietly picked it up later, she was afraid that Chen Dachuan's brothers would dirty the quilt after covering it, and she didn't want to wash it again. The brother was cold all night, and when he got up and got cold, the brother told him, and his heart was on fire. At that time, it was already time to go to work, and he followed Jiang Yanping all the way to the unit. This time, he took the matter out again and counted it down. Jiang Yanping said to Lin Qian that she did not want Chen Dachuan to take money for her family, Chen Dachuan wanted to take money for her family, and she had to have the brothers and daughters-in-law of the Chen family to pull Jiang Yanping forward, and Chen Dachuan could only get some money for niang laozi in the back. Lin Qian persuaded Jiang Yanping several times: "Chen Dachuan can earn money, he is the eldest, his family is in the countryside, and there are three brothers, he may not take money to help him, you don't care about these things, he didn't take your house to eat, you manage so much to do." "She can't listen to it anyway, she can say anything, and it is possible that such an important thing as money can be ignored." Lin Qian and Zhang Zhiming divorced, and economic problems are very important factors.
After May Day, Lin Qian went to Jiang Yanping to sit down, usually Lin Qian was in the reading room below, and she had not gone upstairs for a long time. As soon as she walked in, Jiang Yanping smiled: "You haven't been here for a long time, sit down, drink water or not?" ”
Lin Qian said, "You don't have a cup, I don't always give you two guys to drink." ”
But she would find a way to use the lid of her cup to give Lin Qian water. Then Jiang Yanping said, "You see, I envy your skin, and you can't grow any spots on your face." You see my skin is annoyed, I didn't have spots on my face a while ago, I bought a bottle of spot cream, you don't know that spot cream cost me eighteen hundred yuan. Who knows that the spots on the face are still much longer after the rubbing, you see, no matter how bad, I am embarrassed to go out to meet people. ”
Sure enough, conspicuous red spots appeared in two places on Jiang Yanping's face. Although Jiang Yanping's original skin color was not good, but there was still no east long piece of west long spot, Lin Qian thought to herself, you are not using too much cosmetics, really nothing wrong, but seeing that Jiang Yanping is already very uncomfortable, he said to her: "You go to the person who sells things to claim." Jiang Yanping said: "You also said that the claim is that the people who sell things now do not recognize people who are not cars over their faces." ”
Lin Qian said, "You said that your face was rubbed but you had red spots, and your face was visible, and it wasn't someone who wanted to deceive him." ”
She said, "People say that's a normal reaction, you give money to people anyway, you can't say anything about it." ”
Jiang Yanping was originally beautiful, but the fly in the ointment was that her skin was too poor. Every time you go out, it is good to spend half an hour drawing eyebrows and draw your eyes, and half an hour to be able to clean up and stop. Lin Qian had only seen her once without makeup, and her face was completely black and yellow, which was in strong contrast with the radiance after makeup. Lin Qian said that she should not melt too much, cosmetics are not good for the skin. She immediately retorted, Lin Qian said one sentence to her, she was going to say ten sentences, she said: "Are you because your skin is white, and it is oily skin, you don't need to rub it, I am dry skin, if I don't rub it in the summer, I have to rub it to protect the skin." "Lin Qian really wants to say to her, you are too devoid of content in life, you take makeup and other forms of things as content." There is a sub-method, typical of the mental emptiness syndrome of professional women. But Lin Qian felt that the words could not be spoken, and Jiang Yanping would definitely not be able to listen to them. Saying it offends people.
Then Jiang Yanping said: "I know that my hand is shaking when I hold the cup, is it Parkinson's?" ”
Lin Qian felt that she was going to get sick after listening to her about being sick, so she shifted the topic to Gao Hong: "I'm not a doctor, I don't know what Parkinson's looks like." Gao Hong, she said that her hands were shaking, what was the reason? ”
Gao Honghao could speak: "Is her hand shaking because she is excited to see you come?" ”
This problem has not been solved, but Jiang Yanping said: "I have seen on the Internet that imported sheep placenta may be infected with mad cow disease, I have not been using sheep placenta to rub my face for so long, I am looking at what are the symptoms of infection with mad cow disease." ”
Lin Qian smiled: "You don't want to be good for a day, it's a matter of getting sick, if you have symptoms of mad cow disease, then you can forget it." ”
Jiang Yanping made a medicine jar and put it in the library to boil the medicine. I don't know what she thinks, her parents live in her house to do housework, it is much more convenient to boil medicine at home, and it is necessary to get the smell of medicine everywhere on the unit.
Lin Qian said to Jiang Yanping: "Yesterday afternoon I was on the third floor, and I heard someone singing, and Teacher Liu and I both said that it was like a ghost calling. Later, I learned that Zhang Erniang was singing, and I told you that someone had already told me that Zhang Erniang had not yet had to sing well with you, and that she was still singing in the choir, so it was better for you to sing. ”
Zhang Erniang read the music secondary school out, the level is not high, the momentum is extraordinary. Although she is not a leader, she is counted as a first-class citizen and a second-class leader in the College of Education.
Listening to Lin Qian's words, Jiang Yanping's face had a hint of joy, but her mouth hurriedly retorted: "Don't say this, when people hear it, I don't want to suffer." If we ordinary people dare to offend others, we will not win. ”
Lin Qian said, "Why are you stuttering?" Jiang Yanping smiled and said, "When I see people, I am busy giving them a smile and nodding my head." Lin Qian smiled: "Why don't you go to them to play mahjong, everyone is like a family, and the relationship will be good." She replied, "I'll just say I'll play you mahjong and lose something to you?" Alas, don't play mahjong, I just give them some money. ”
Lin Qian felt that she would not play mahjong because she had something to do. There are many thoughts in the mind, and if they are not written out in time, they will be restless. The biographies written by Owen and Stone are very attractive to Lindsie, who have read "Van Gogh's Biography" and Freud's "Passion of the Heart" a few years ago, and later watched it, and once again felt the powerful shock of his works.
Lin Qian felt that Jiang Yanping should play mahjong to kill time, her circle was too small, and she was too idle. The body is still always in trouble. Her low back pain had plagued her for a long time, and when she was only thirty years old, her waist was in exasperation, and it was really troublesome. Her problem was spinal stenosis that compressed the nerves, causing pain in her lower back and legs. She found a lot of doctors, there is a Chinese medicine prescription need to use a thousand KeLang to make wine as a medicine primer, so Jiang Yanping found relatives in the countryside, asked them to find ways to find her, this Kelang is not easy to find, because this thing is generally in the old house with masonry wall, and now the people with good rural conditions have built buildings, but the family still tries to find ways to find, find a lot to make wine for her, she drinks two cups a day, the effect is OK.
At this time, Lin Qian was ready to go home, and Jiang Yanping lowered her voice and said to her, "I will tell you, you go inside with me." Lin Qian didn't know what she was going to do for a while, so she followed her to the library. Walking inside, Jiang Yanping said to Lin Qian: "I said that there is no one here, you touch it for me, is my bag big again?" ”
Lin Qian understood that the bag she had operated on two years earlier had grown again. She took off her coat and let Lin Qian touch it, Lin Qian felt nervous first, touched it, Lin Qian said so naturally, only to feel that the bag is a little hard, not much smaller than the egg, she said to Jiang Yanping: "Do you think you have grown?" ”
She replied, "It was after the surgery the year before that it grew up again." I was very scared, will my bag be malignant. ”
Lin Qian comforted her: "Which is so easy to become malignant, I read the newspaper that most of the lumps are benign, and the malignant is a minority." ”
Listening to Lin Qian's words, Jiang Yanping seemed to be relieved in her heart. But he said, "You know, I heard people say that if it is cancer, it is not painful and itchy, and my right breast hurts very much at night, and sometimes it wakes me up in the middle of the night, and I can't sleep." ”
Lin Qian was shocked to hear this and replied, "Then you have to go to check it out, and you should go and look at Zhou Xiaoming." ”
She said that she had originally sought out Zhou Xiaoming, and after Dr. Zhou's examination, she said that she had to operate immediately, and she was not sure whether it was cancer. Jiang Yanping hesitated again and again, and heard that when encountering such a lump that the doctor could not diagnose, it was better to go to the provincial cancer hospital to check and rest assured. She went to the province again, this time looking for Zhou Xiaoming's teacher, who is also the director of the oncology department, heard that Zhou Xiaoming said to cut Jiang Yanping's breasts, this teacher said Zhou Xiaoming in front of Jiang Yanping's face: "This person will cut this, and cut that one, I see that her hand should be cut for her, otherwise, her hand will be very itchy." Both teachers and students are well-known breast disease experts, and for a time Jiang Yanping did not know which one to listen to.
When Lin Qian heard about this, she said, "I don't know which of them is reasonable, but if you can't sleep in pain, you should still check it out." ”
In the first two years of examination, Lin Qian's breasts were also a bit packed, but at that time, she was not allowed to check again, there should be no problem. This problem has always been Lin Qian's hidden worry. This time, after listening to Jiang Yanping's symptoms, her heart did not let go, but it added a little tension. Teacher Liu often said: "We still have to afford to be sick with this income, if I have an incurable disease, I will not heal, I will die myself." A lot of diseases are not good to heal, there is a woman with leukemia, the family spent more than 100,000 yuan, the house was sold, the result was not healed, this woman is still dead, got the disease, the doctor is well, dead. There are also those who have uremia, change a kidney for more than two hundred thousand, that is, change a few thousand dollars a month, because it is not your organ, there is a rejection reaction on your body, other organs do not accept, in order to make the rejection response lessen, every month to use a lot of drugs, these drugs are heard to be thousands of dollars a month. Our salary plus bonus has not yet received two thousand yuan, and you have those diseases that you are not only dead, you may not have to make the family unable to do it. ”
Teacher Liu said something, retorted that Lin Qian had nothing to say, it was not interesting to think that this person living in this world was not interesting, a day is to earn money to eat, get sick, have a little problem is not nothing, the problem is a big problem, that is not living in fear every day.
Back at home after breaking up with Jiang Yanping, Lin Qian was still thinking about her illness. Later, I thought of the French philosopher Sartre, who won the Nobel Prize in Literature, and his novel "Wall" became the winning work. It tells of a revolutionary who was hunted down and fled to a friend's house to hide, and then thought that his friend's home was not safe, so he ran to the cemetery to hide. The friend was caught by the Gestapo and tortured to ask him where his friend was, and he wanted to be in his own house anyway, casually saying that he was in the cemetery, and the friend was caught and shot. The novel reflects Sartre's philosophical idea that the other is hell. There is no friendship between men, even if unintentionally, the revolutionaries are betrayed. Sartre also has a philosophical proposition: life is to be bored, afraid, and dead. Many young people in the eighties claimed to be worshippers of Sartre.