Butterfly wings

Author Linyi Wind Chimes

　　east

　　Two hours have passed since Butterfly's affair was discovered, and I haven't woken up from the shock it had shocked me. Yes, so far, this has shocked me more than it hurts. I couldn't believe that last night the butterfly was still in my arms, tender and tender. After each passion, she loved stroking my cheeks and kneading my earlobes. Pecking at my skin from time to time. My mouth murmured love words about loving me. Before that, I was a happy man. Butterflies have some small flaws of one kind or another, but those are harmless. I've always loved her, and even the occasional fight wouldn't hurt our feelings. Every time we will soon reconcile. I still don't understand, we have such a good relationship, why does The Butterfly betray me?

　　butterfly

　　When Dong found out that I was dating Nan, I had a moment of feeling that I wanted to die, and when I died, I didn't have to face it again. This situation has always been something I try to avoid. However, the time to come is still coming, there is no escape, only face.

　　Seeing Dong's shocked expression, my heart was also broken. Dong is a good man, I don't want to hurt him, he is my dearest relative, the person I don't want to hurt the most, but I still ruthlessly give him a blow!

When I was spotted by Dong, I was walking out of the hotel door with Nan. Dong frantically grabbed Nan's clothes and held on to them, and his fist rained down on Nan's body. Nan, on the other hand, may have known that he was at fault, only covered his head and let Dong vent. When the East Strength Road slowed down a little, Nan took the opportunity to pull back the situation. Nan hesitated, lowered his raised fist, pushed Dong hard, and let go of Dong. Looking back at me stunned, I turned and left.

I went over to hold Dong, and Dong yi threw away my hand and let go! I think you're dirty! Dong's face looked a little sinister due to the pain, and he walked away absolutely, without even looking at me. I walked through the crowds and burst into tears, feeling that the end of the world was nothing more than that.

　　I used to love Dong so much, and even now, I still love him. It's just that this love has become the love of loved ones.

　　On this day, I didn't even think about it. Although we often quarreled over trivial matters, although it was sad that he said something unspeakable when he was angry, and although we communicated less and less, he was still my dearest and most important person.

　　He and Nan met after a quarrel. I was in a bad mood. Nan sent a friend request from the computer. I didn't know why that day, but I agreed, who never messed with my friends. And talked to Nan for a few words. Then he forgot about the man. I didn't realize at the time that this man would change my life.

　　south

　　I was like a thief, I stole the heart of the butterfly, stole the body of the butterfly. The huge physical and psychological gap that people face in middle age, especially men, makes me more and more afraid. The wife has become the left hand and the right hand, and has not aroused any passion. The monthly routine has worn me out. Every time I look at my wife's strong fingering, I want to avoid it. It was the butterfly that made me relive the madness of my youth, let me taste what is wonderful, and let me know that sex between men and women can be so wonderful. I had fallen in love with butterfly, but I didn't think that my love would bring such great harm to butterfly.

　　I have never smoked, and I have smoked two packs of Su cigarettes. My headache was cracking, but it couldn't hurt my heart. Butterfly took the child back to her mother's house. I didn't want to see her, I didn't want to hear anything about her. When I called the leader for leave, the always harsh leader used a tone full of kindness to comfort me to open up, rest at home, adjust and come to work. TMD！ The green hat was so strong that it couldn't be wiped off! I'm a man, what a fucking bitch!

　　Before Leaving, Butterfly knelt down on my thigh and cried bitterly, saying that she was sorry for me and that she had failed my feelings. Say you want to fight and scold at my disposal. I looked down at her numbly, and for a moment I wanted to pull out my legs to kick her away. Let her roll farther, the farther away the better, and it's better to go back in time, before I didn't know her.

　　After more than ten years of marriage, I have never been willing to touch a finger of her. This time, I wasn't going to hit her either. Anyway, she's a woman, and hitting women isn't my style.

　　After all, we have had so many years of affection, even if divorced, this kindness still exists.

　　Now Dong was like a shell that had been sucked away from the Spirit Spirit, and the whole person collapsed. I was so scared that he couldn't think of doing something stupid. He was a moody man, and he would not say anything about the pain. I'm afraid he'll get sick. Now I can only make him feel humiliated. Yes, shame. This society is so unfair. Few women actually divorce because of men's occasional infidelity. And women, for whatever reason, as long as you cheat, it's heinous, that's a slut... So many vicious words will fall on you. Even your own parents and brothers will look down on you because of this.

　　My heart was covered with a hard shell, but inside it was bleeding. For several days, I hadn't received a call from Nan, not even a message. I love someone who risks losing my family, but in the end, I am a coward!

　　The wife did not know where to know about me and Butterfly, she cried and wiped her tears, from the number of marriages to the number of children, from the number of children to the children to go to college, and finally said viciously, if you deal with that woman again, I will go to your unit, see how you have a face as the head of the bureau! Seeing that I didn't react, I took out her killer skill, don't you like that woman? Good! I call you like! As long as you interact with her, there is me without her, there is her without me! Let's walk and see!

　　I looked up at her, and the anger made ben a little ugly. I'm not afraid she'll mess with me, I'm afraid she'll go looking for Butterfly, the kind and weak woman.

　　The sins I have done, God has punished me. When I went to work at the school, the principal called me to the office, and Ai Ai said for half a day, I finally understood that the impact of my matter was very bad, and many parents put forward opinions, saying that such teachers are not qualified to continue to be teachers. If I were to continue to substitute classes, they would transfer my child. So the school could only let me go.

　　I packed my things up, and a few good female teachers surrounded me and hugged me one by one. One of them said, Butterfly, live well. Hearing this, I burst into tears. Pretending to be strong used to be so tired, but I no longer have an arm to rely on.

I deeply experienced what it means to "do your own evil and not live."

　　It took three days in a blur. In those three days, I only ate two packs of instant noodles. When I went to the bathroom, I casually glanced at the mirror. The man in the mirror startled me. Is it me that unkempt- bearded, disheveled man? I stared blankly at me in the mirror. I don't know when the butterfly appeared behind me, she looked at me in the mirror with tenderness and water, her hands wrapped around my waist from behind. I reached out to take her hand, but I didn't think about it but grabbed it empty. Looking back, where is the shadow of a butterfly?

　　There was a strange noise in the stomach. I went to the kitchen to boil the instant noodles. I remembered the symphony of pots and pans in the kitchen before, and I remembered the happy laughter of butterflies. Think of the delicious meals made by butterflies... Everything is so normal, but why is it suddenly off track?

　　The news of Butterfly's forced resignation reached me a few days later. I'd like to make a phone call and ask Butterfly, is everything okay? But I didn't dare to fight, I was afraid of adding new trouble to her. If possible, I'd rather get a divorce and live with Butterfly. But the reality is cruel, how many opponents in the light and in the dark are coveting my seat, I can only watch the butterfly, like a butterfly with broken wings, wandering in the eyes of the world's cannibalism.

I was a coward, and I failed to take on the responsibilities of a man.

　　Butterfly came home. In the first moment I saw her, I was happy, but the hurt she gave me was a bloody reminder to me that this woman had betrayed me, that she had had skin kisses with other men, and that she was no longer clean.

I don't overdo it and force myself not to look at her. Butterfly hesitantly stood next to me and held out her hand, as if trying to stroke one of my messy hairs, but in the end, her hand hung down weakly. In fact, how I wish she could sit on my lap as before, with my head resting in her warm arms, telling her about the grievances I had suffered and the loneliness I had endured in the past few days. I wanted to tell her that as long as she cut off the man in two, I could not remember the previous mistakes and we could start over.

I also want to tell her that I love her, I miss her so much...

　　I packed up my things, cleaned up the hygiene of the house, and the messy home became clean and refreshing.

　　Looking at the decadent look of the East, I was really distressed. He was my dearest, but I hurt him. It's all my fault! I looked at Dong, who bowed his head and was silent. Probably didn't want to see me.

　　I lifted something up and said, East, I'm sorry, I failed you. You, you find a good one. When the day comes when you are free, we will complete the formalities. The child is at grandma's house, and if you think about it, go and pick him up.

　　Seeing that he did not respond, I left the home where I had lived for more than ten years with tears in my eyes. Behind him came the shouts of the East Voice, Roll! I never want to see you again!

　　Butterfly was gone, and the moment she closed the door, I burst into tears.

　　Butterfly was gone, and no one knew where she had gone. I sent her countless messages on QQ, but none of them replied. I want to tell her that my wife and I are divorced. I can't forget her, as soon as I close my eyes, I will think of her gentleness, her kindness, her irreplaceable love.

　　For half a year, there was no news of the butterfly. I took my son back, and the two of them depended on each other. Whenever my son asked me to ask for my mother, I would say, "Soon, my mother is coming back."